i can’t eat
i can’t breathe
i can't calm down
a war in my mind between storms and oceans
while on the outside i tremble with my mouth glued shut
eyes burning from holding back tears.
my anxiety comes in waves, drowning me while i’m gasping for air and i never know when it will consume me next.
anxiety is my silent killer
i never know when it will strike me next and no one ever sees it strangling me
i'm scared
i'm scared you’re going to get sick of it
the anxiety,
the apologies,
having to hold me together,
taking care of me,
and my constant fears.
fears of not being good enough,
fears of being annoying,
fears of being too clingy,
fears of you leaving me.
who can handle all of that?