blosssomingvanie

blosssomingvanie Jul 2013

Im the kind that loves hard,
But gets hurt so fast,
The kind that selfless
But is never appreciated,
The brave and strong one
But weak at heart,
My kind always gets it rough
And its not fair
but somehow that's how the world
Treats us,
Despises us,
Always misunderstood,
Judged at every action made,
Fingers pointed at,
And why?
Cause we are not like them,
Not like the world!

blosssomingvanie Jul 2013

last words!

You wanted my love
I gave it to you,
My attention,
You had it,
My affection,
Unconditional!
My time,
Each moment was spent unsparely!
My trust,
You had it all,
With no doubt
but it jus wasnt enough for you!
Was it?
You wanted more
Things I wouldnt offer
things you knew were out of my reach,
Things that I couldn't provide for!
I prayed that I would give the happiness you wanted
That I would provide for what you wanted
but God does things His own way..
And so my time reached
when I breathed my last breath,
I held on waiting for you,
So I would tell you,
Im sorry,
And I loved you unconditionally!
But you didn't come and I took my last in pain and shame of my failed mission!
I hope one day you realise I loved you dearly and tried my best!
I wil go and plead to my creator to look at you with merciful eyes,my dear child!

blosssomingvanie Jul 2013

if only time would let me, i would....

Some times I fear I will die alone,
On a sad gloomy and rainy day
With no one to mourn at my funeral,
Each raindrop a tear I let people shed,
Now there's no more to be shed
Just my casket and the grave digger,
My body Breathless,
Out of life
unable to wake up and
make amends of where I went wrong
Unable to make my wrongs right,
Unable to reconcile with my family
the only people who loved me genuinely,
And now all that's left of me,
A bad legacy,
If only God would grant me a second chance
to change things
Be a better person!
If only the clock would rewind!
I would .....

blosssomingvanie Jul 2013

Absurdism!

We met, we smiled
Danced to the rythm of the beat,
enjoyed each others company,
What seemed to be a night that stretched into eternity came to its end.
We moved on to friendship,
Shared sentiments, dreams and ambitions
Our past lives were shared memories,
we imagined what our future would be like,
neither one of us thought we would fall in love!
we knew the joys of sharing this magnificent feeling,
it was magical,exclusive and heart warming
this same feeling that brought us together separated us ..
I sit here and think to myself...
What is it about love that we all don't get!???

blosssomingvanie Jul 2013

death, a mystery!

Im curious!
Thats better than being defeated,
all these unanswered questions push me
I have an Adrenaline rush
I get excited seeking the answers to these questions,
Some questions seem to have no answers!
What does it feel like to be out of breath?
To see your body writhe like a flower in the desert,
To see your soul separate from your body as it goes to its destination,
To see all these people mourn for you at your burial,
what thoughts are running through their minds as they sit there somber?
What will my soul say when I meet my maker!?
All these questions..
leave death a mystery that no one but God can solve!

blosssomingvanie Jul 2013

down this road

This long walk that I take all by myself,
in this cold and dark path,
With no guide but myself,
the journey that I have began and feared
The fear of being by myself has overwhelmed me!
Will I ever complete this journey,
Two steps feel like a set back
it's as if i'm moving backwards
the anxiety of whats at the end of the path drives me!
Im motivated although i'm alone
But this is my journey that I must complete all by myself.
"You are stronger than you think " she said...
am starting to believe her!
With my might I stride down that path
enthusiastic and anxious to claim victory!

blosssomingvanie Jul 2013

the male specie.

I want to understand you
They say girls are complicated but so are guys
Why do you keep quiet when I ask you if you are mad?
Why do you act like its ok and yet its not?
Why do you try so hard to impress me?
Why do you shun when I try to have deep talks with you?
Why do you laugh so hard with your friends and only smile with me?
Why do you make promises you know you can't fulfill?
Why don't you ever want to finish an argument with me?
Why do you try so hard not to anger me and when all i'm looking for is a fight!
Why are you so sweet to me at the most awkward times?
Make me understand you!