If there's any explanation
To how I could
Love him more than life
And yet still not the most

My only answer
Must be you.

I love you now,
Yet not anymore.
That smile you gave,
Shook my bones to my core.

As if on repeat,
I still now remember.
Once was so bright;
Now a dying ember.

Stop and gather a breath.
Take me in your embrace.
Now we say goodbye.
Turning from the other's face.

If is the word.
The wretched maybe that haunts me.
My darkest dreams,
My blackest nights,
Filled with that if.
If you stay.
If you leave.
If you love me.
If you don't.
If is the knife,
That cuts my heart
A million times,
Over and over.
If watches me bleed,
Waiting to see me
Drown in my own
Red Sea.

I swear I see forever
In the way light
Catches your eye
That single glimmer
That quick faint light,
Holds my eternity

Because I crave your kiss
Sweet like honey
On a cold winter's morning
When the smell of fresh pancakes
Fills the air

Because I crave your fingers
Tracing my curves
Like an artists pencil
Drawing a delicate flower
On the most fragile paper

Because I crave your voice
A sound so sweet
Even the birds stop to listen
Amidst their early morning flight
When the sun has just risen

Because you,

I'm curious what is in your head
How you feel or things unsaid
Am I just another face in the crowd?
If you and me were a we,
Would you be proud?
When you look at me what goes on?

I just want to know
When you look into my eyes,
Does your heart beat slow?