It's snowing.
Maybe that is why you did not call.
It's Tuesday.
Maybe you've got your back against a wall.
It hurts.
That I can only guess.
It's annoying.
My heart is such a mess.

A sharp edge takes courage
But dull blades sting more.

Promised only words,
Took off our broken bands,
  .  .  .  Rings forever silent.

I've lived long enough to see
I've lived long enough to hear
but never it crossed in my mind
that I was deaf and ultimately blind

While others called her beautiful
I called her perfection
while people seek her attention
I seek her love, desire moreover lust

But I was never brave
these feelings only left on this place
the empty space that have long craved love
they called it the heart

the feelings got angry
so they started to rebel
and that was when
I became deaf and blind

You shattered everything I built so high, with a simple smile and a hi.

Today as I went home,
even if I'm with my friends, I feel so alone
thinking of you made me feel so blue,
for you love her and I'm in love with you

this heartache makes me want to cry
but instead of tears, I express it with a sigh
for I don't want them to see
that I'm crying, because I'm falling for you badly

"it's just a little crush" that's what I say
but it's making a big hole, when I see you everyday
for when I follow your stare, it lead to her
and sometimes, I feel like tears are going to make my vision blur

I know it's pathetic, but when you talk to me
I feel so pleased and happy
but still, I know that you're not going to love me
cause, your heart belongs to her completely

you're just a fantasy
and you'll never love me in reality
I know that someday, you're just going to be a memory,
that I will remember when I'm lonely

but, someday is not yet today
it still is far, far away
but, I wish you'll notice anyway,
that my heart is breaking
and even though I'm smiling
just look in my eyes
and you'll see that I'm dying