I can't hear
nothing comes through
my **** ear

I went swimming
the joy of buoyancy
Covered in ringing

To feel so free
to feel one with a fluid
limited by body

Floating high
floating by
floating amongst
the bright blue sky

But even clouds
feel the need
to cry

As I watch the white water pass
And against the rock
It clash

I think about the empty stash
The good ol green
That hash

For now nicotine soothes
The current of mind
That thinks *****

Stare into the abyss of nothing
But know
You will always be something

Enjoy
   "To be enveloped by a greater sense of benevolent feeling"
It
   "Refer to the definition of enjoy"

I Struggling
under the currents of this world
And I see the others
and their struggles too
yet somehow
they make it out of the blue

or least to the surface
where they can breathe

I make it there
from time to time
But only ever
undertows i find

I wish to see above the waves
to see the light
and better days

Maybe i must change my ways
or build a boat
to hope above it stays

I know the way life goes
the way that energy flows
yet still
i tend to say it blows

I have problems
that i know how to fix
its just hard
all these nervous ticks

These words i write
Come together
Like bonds of a molecule
Dependent on one another
A bond never severed
To tell of my mind
And the twists and binds
But its here
Within these bonds
That you may find my legacy

For her
I do desire

Our hearts
So full of fire

Warmth in our eyes
As she stares at me

Unlike other guys
Her stare

It sets me free

Another she holds
So closely
So dear

Never would I dare to interfere
But in love and war
All is fair

And she holds me

She is
Free

She is
Who she chooses to be
And if she chooses
To be with me

I promise
To let her be

She will always be

Always be
Free

I dreamt of you again
I wonder where you went
Why i let you go
The love we shared
The life i spared
This life doesnt seem fair

I made a demon today
To test me tomorrow
Will i come out and play
Or wallow in sorrow

Dragged away
From this skin of mine
Floating in a bay
Waiting for my time

Begging for the light
some beautiful sight
But the times never right
and time is a fright

trapped in an ocean
currents in constant motion
Craving Romeos potion
Desiring a loving notion

No up no down
and darkness surround
lusting for the feel of ground
and all the earthly sounds

Knowing of but never seeing
The legend, the happy being
knowing not of a darkened feeling
to meet he i must stop fleeing

Without presence of my lost soul
I am hollow, an empty black hole

Pulling, turning, and twisting whats real
Until i take something to help me not feel

Alive and well when with a friend
When hes gone, my life i care to end

Swallowed up in a shroud of nothing
desperately wishing to be something

The vessel a blessing built of stone
Darkness my soul, no longer my own

The darkness devours the lonesome skin
More and more with every sin

Breathing being an easy task
yet a skill i seem to lack

I want to go back.

And in my eyes
I see loneliness
And in eyes
I see the soul
And in my own eyes
I see something that wants let go

Ahh to dream again
To see the lines
That once grew thin

To know the past is now but dust
And to know
My mind veers from lust


I know the future from what I see
With a third eye blind
No future could ever be

I worry not of the struggles here
Ones of denial
Of the things i hold dear


Not but one being
Can say im wrong
The being

Who sings this song

Washing the day
From my face

Trying to find
My happy place

Here i am
singing the song
of the ones
long gone

Where they've turned
they must have turned wrong
The days
feeling too long

Im here today
the turn long gone
bringing you
this lonesome song

Bringing you
A wish to move on
The energy
to stay strong

Not with me today
yet i hope you play
being
a being to stay

Be
A being
to stay

Today im so
blah
Just done with this
and on to that
Really dont want to sit around and get fat
I really want to move and feel the earth
i want to know what life is really worth
Its up to me in the end i know
i wont let down the people who've come to the show
but i assure you i will if i have to run from snow
I will walk and walk for miles i would go
Just to avoid the beautiful mess i am in snow
I fall behind these thoughts of mine
Looking in and looking behind
But when the suns about and clearing the clouds
I can feel all the energy wrap around
it warms me and my soul
i need to search myself
and come back with a goal