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In the way, stands the fact of deceiving
And down the road, comes a pond that's filled with life
And the trees are swaying for the wind
And it's the message, that all anybody ever wanted to do was live.
When I'm and closely revolving around the trees that all speak to me
All through nature,
Anger, spiteful
Your hands was like the devil
And you kept on hitting me
Like there was a point to be made
And you kept spitting at me
Telling me I'd never be nothing, I'm a punk
That I'd grow up like my mother
And be alone.
As my own, father I crave myself to grow myself up
And since my mother wasn't there
I thought it was a man's job.
****, I Think I'm Falling Out The Outskirts
No More Running Back And Forth My Legs Still Hurts
**** It Please Tell Me What You Want From Me?
You Just Falling Out Of Your Hands, I'm Sailing Down
You Don't Know Me
Like You Think You Do
You Don't Control Me
I Am Not The Villain Of The Issue
But, Really I'm Just Loving You
And You Hurt Me
I'm Just Anonymous
****, Thinking That  You Really Want Me
When All You Wanted Was Advice
You Don't Love Me
Like You Think You
You Don't Trust Me
Because If You DID
I Wouldn't Be Steady Followed
But, Loving You Is Seemingly Wrong
I'm Just So Anonymous.
Every night he watches me  tells me that , " Bridget, You're Too Pretty To Cry."
He touches my shoulder , kisses my forehead and says, " Those Who Cries The Most, Are The Strongest."
I smile because of the fact, I've never heard such words
Such sweet melodies to my eyes
I tell him, " Why do you always come see me, I'm nothing?"
He looks at me like I'm deaf and just smiles and says, " Please, my dear child. I wouldn't fly this many minutes from the heavens to watch over you. Remember when I was alive we'd lay upon this same bed and hold each other and I'd say-"
"Whatever a diamond is that's what I must be, worth more than all plastic."
And from that moment I knew exactly who he was
My boyfriend Jaylen.
My at night visitor.
Remember When She Was 7 And She Never Talked
She Always Finding Ways To Smile
Remember When She Was 11 And Her Fathers Hands Was Like The Devils Horn So Tough And Plus 1,000,000 Swords
Remember When She Was 13 And Meals Was Never Promised And To The World Was Like A Heavenly Story Without The Heavens And She'd Close Her Eyes, To Herself And Apologize*
What? Why It Was Never Her Fault To Begin With And You Stop Looking At The Negative, Your Alive
Strong
Wise
Bright
And Dependable
They Call Us The Voices In Your Head
But, Not To Down You
To Inspire The Inquire
So It Won't Be Expired
So Just Make It Last
It'll Be All Over.

I Think I Over Think Or I Might Be Bipolar.
These Nights, I Stare Out The Window
Praying
That The High- Picketed Fences
And The Knives Hid In The Kitchen
Could Disappear.
And These Chains Won't Get Off Of Me
I Just Want To Be Set Free.
Break These Chains On Me Now
I Can't Live To Be Captured
Survive And No Rapture
Break These Chains Off Me Now
But, I Promise You
I Will Be Set Free.
Blindsided, thought that everything was noticeable
Heartbroken, but still I walk around like love is unlimited
And hung over, from the feeling of releasing anger over empty bottles
It's just the weird reasons why I stay
It's just love that's magically so hard to explain
We can fuss, we can fight
But  sooner or later we'll be cuddling all night
Until the world ends, we always be the lovers of dissonancy
And the trail that we've faced, such a rhythm of a detached melody
And I will love thee till the end of time
And I will cry when everything doesn't cross my mind
Oh, the chains have fallen off
And I'm finally free, of this pain so depressing
Oh, these windows finally opened up for me
And I'm finally getting fresh air
But, I wouldn't never feel it if you was never there.
And I will love thee till the end of time
And I will cry when everything doesn't cross my mind
Your the first and last thing that I wake up to
But, there's never a promise that I wouldn't keep
Just do one for me, just promise me
Just love me.
Till the end of time.
I Remember As A Kid I Lived High And Mighty
Whether If The Hands Was Ever Nice, I Was Smiling
And Then There Was Times When The Shadows
Would Haunt Me
I Created A World In My Head Where Love Was Everything
And No One Could Never Get Hurt
Friendship, Loyalty And Grace
Was Easy
I Called It Faraway
Why?
It'll Take A Long Time To Find This World In Love In Harmony
And Peace.
That'll Come Soon
Far, Far, Far Away.
There are  billions of people in the world
And a thousand swords
There are billions of people in the world
And a thousand wars
So the question is what are they fighting for?
If not only them but, for somebody else

* In the middle of the night
I stare at the sky
And I pray
That maybe there's a chosen one
Waiting for
Somebody to fight for


While I chase after the moon and ride
The black sky
And I wish to love
So that I wont be swore
And find somebody to love
Somebody to fight for
Haha, I rather be judged on my sins
Than fall into this place again
Whoa, I never felt so much heat coming out of fire before
I rather wish upon on the rocks and caves that I find here
Than pray to the blue sky , watch the birds sail and be ignored
****, wow, so much pain it's so revolting
Through this hole I see Earth spinning
And this creature welcomes me with rams on his head
"Welcome , to the place we call hell,
where we burn people for the lives that's been mistaken,
but I rather call it home for the people without hope because nobody comes out and many come in."

He smiles at me
Such a demonic smile
And somehow I'm SCARED
But, **** Hell IS Home.
This Castle Gets Lonely
And The Evil Keeps Me Steady
Living And Locked In
Without A Judgment
But, Soon I'm Going To Wait
Until My Prince Comes
High On Horses It'll Be Fun
And I Can See Us Riding Into The Sunlight
With Rings On Both Fingers
And I Won't Have To Go Home
I'd Be Plenty
I'd Be Queen.
These wheels on the car, won't go faster enough
These voices in my head, this pressure that's embedded
This potion that's decency
I stay afloat , I stay thrown
Drawn off nicotine
That there's a possibility
I'm coming home.
A thousand of people die everyday, they live faced in fear they live in rage
And its all over coded mind, falling over wishing to remain on the bright side
Some think that the guns and gangs will protect them
To live a life in sadness and decency
Well at this point being black, white, and all the other races, they don't matter
It's the fact that we all act like family and find love to roam
And yes, my boyfriends white
It doesn't make it wrong
To be colorblinded in love
But, I know it takes alot to take this
We all want money, car, big houses
So basic.
But, for us as humans to be categorized as Americans
Us killing each other but, just take granted
That you hating me, and me hating you more
Your like a loser to another loser
Both of all are just pathetic
But, I can see how the world should be
I'd rather die
Than to live in a world so insane.
I Guess This Love
Is Never What You Wanted
Whether If It Was Just Nothing
Or Your Plan Was Never Intentional
But, What They All Fail To Realize
I Gave Them All I Had To Lose Me Now
And I'm Not Leaving By Their Side
Kiss Me, Holy Child.
If I Say, "Yes."
Take It As I Vow
To Be The Only One And The First Lover In Mind
And If I Say,"Yes."
Don't Leave Me Standing Here, Hold Me Lovely
And Make It Clear
That I Am Yours
Take It As I Vow
Kiss Me Like The One That's Ever Wanted
Hold Me Like I'm The Golden Ticket
To A Life With Magical Finding
And If I Say," Yes."
Take It As I Vow
Worship With Me
Oh No, I'm Not Leaving You, OH
Take It As I Vow
And Love Us Worth The Fight
To Death Do Us Part.
You Gave Me Such Life
Gave Me Wonders And Kisses
Whether The Arguments Last Long
But, The Love Lasted Longer.
Now You Are Gone
Rested In Heaven Looking Down On Me
Loving Me Still
Love You Sweetie.
Jetster is my alter ego she's outgoing, jubilant, egotistic
She's always making people laugh, sometimes she can be an ***
But, she always happens to be everyone's #1

Bridget, she's struggled from abuse for 17 years, unlikely reliving the life and lies she was filled with in order to survive
She always puts others before herself and is always willing to help
Even turns out to be good at poetry.
Unlike, Jetster she doesn't joke too much and kindly gives but never receives compliments


Which one can you survive with?
Don't leave
I thought this was it
You are my only
Or as you always stated
But, when you smile
I have a vision
That nobody
Can take my place
That it's us only
But, when it's over
She's standing there
And i remember
It was never a lifetime.
You've Been Kissed By The Lips Of An Angel
He Said," You're Too Pretty To Cry, Wipe Your Tears And Shine Your  Light."
And It's Almost Over I Promise You
His Eyes Said.
Doesn't
Always
Last
Forever
But, Always
Remains
Inside
Your
Heart.
We believe that everything happens for the best
We deceive that the feelings that happen are suddenly at rest
And we go down, shedding every thought that crossed our soul
This isn't a  battle where one that stands alone, fights alone
This is a war where both fight for what they want
Whether they win or lose it's ok
This is a love and war
This is love and destroyed
Because the one that's slowly breaking
Because the pain is too much
You have to chose
This fight
Love and war.
I Like It Better With The Light On
I Like You Whispering In My Ears
I Love The Way It Sounds
So Clear

I Love When You Scratch Me
Hold Me
Pull Me
So Amazing

I Guess The Pain And The Loving Well Together
I Miss The Way We'd Lay Forever
Love Me
My Masochistic Love.
Shield Me, Oh Heavenly
I've Been Waiting For The Storm
And In This Light I've Been Making Trails
And The Worrying Is On A Dime
Not Worth My Time

This Masks
These Dark Shadows
This New Name
It's Builded On Me
But, There's A lot Of Questions , "Why"
To Stay Out Of Hell
Master Of Disguise
Sometimes, I live in vain
Because, so many people tell me "no."
But, some never really tell me why
Maybe someday ,  people will understand that your dream is your own
That nobody can curse you
Only your mind can
Maybe someday people will tell you they love you
Instead, of telling  your neighbor in a countless affair
Maybe, it'll come to us that we aren't ruining our lives by caring but wasting our time on  people who never did.
But,  someday maybe someone will care.
Black Crown
With Black Dress
Tattoos Of Western Rattle Snakes
Down Her Back
But, She's Bold
Mind Solely
Written By Herself
She's Golden
Don't Trust My Dark Minded Queen
She's Beautiful
You Get Pulled Into The Stream
Of Vain, Vain, Vain
She's Pure ****** Attractive
Got The Looks  Go Crazy
The Eyes You Probably  Seen In Nightmare
Don't Trust My Minded Queen.
But,
Please, if you aim me
Tell me it's really worth it?
Please, if you tell me
That everything will be alright
Why, does it always seem like
You keep aiming at me
Why, does it always feel like
You keep pulling triggers
With no safety
While the days go back to the way it was
I'll just doge these bullets
Me and these silver bullets.
These lyrics are formed, with love
And your voice is like a thousand suns
And you're melody, it speaks to me
But, the feeling exulted me

" I love you, I really do
I'll write you a song
About the truth
Of how I feel to elude ."


Sing to me
My angel boy
Sing to me
And tell me we could never
separate

Sing to me
And tell me that I am pretty
Sing to me
A single song.

" You are my angel
My Flash of lighting
You caught me by surprise
You are my loyalty of all queens
You love me when I had nothing
And so I sing."


Sing to me
Oh, God, he's mine
Sing to me
Oh, just love me
Love me while I stay
Right by your side
Oh baby love

Sing to me
Oh, God he loves me
Sing to me
Oh, God.
This song is about my ex-dead boyfriend named "Jason Howins" He was my best friend, boyfriend and lover. He was there for me when I had nothing and was there when I was something on 2012 he got into a car accident and died.
Rain, Rain , Rain
With Me Wrapped In Your Arms
All The Insignificant
Pain ,Pain, Pain
Fades Away.
You Touch My Face With Elegant Fingers
Kiss My Cheek Like You'll Never See
And I Grin Right Then
I Never Knew That Love Is Worth The Wait
And I Cry, Cry, Cry
Because, I'd Rather Be With You
Holding Me
Sleeping With You.
Right away I feel like I'm walking through the hell
Got this world on my back and I feel so alone, shuddered and scared
And now this pain is ashamed of me because, I always cry
Well, ****, I tried, it takes a warrior to fight.
But, now I'm always taking my wings for security
Holding onto my shield and my sword to protect me
Re-live in thee, I see a rebel to be.
{verse} I got no more questions for you and I
I'm going to take this battle and fight
I've got no more answers to regain
You tried to slice me out, but you locked the ability to win
And become caged in, but I believe in them
Oh, to be come caged in.
I once was lost in the thunder, the hail and the rain
So, how could you say you understand when you are stuck in the sun
Oh, there's region, the reason why
I can never find faith
Oh, my life's been insane
{verse}: I got no more legends to tell us now
These stories get too  old, lets move on to the future
I got no more love for the enemies
The once that shoot me, and keep on, keep begging for democracy
And become caged in , in the world
Oh, caged in.
I've done my wrongs
I've conducted the sins
Forgive me
Don't drop me down
I'm yours, I'm yours

I've done my judgment
I've been alone
And no one can tell by the pain in my eyes
You can tell that I am moving on

NO, I will not burn
I will not decay
I will pray
That you will help me
I don't want to burn in Hell's fire
(hell's fire, hell's fire)
24 hours is like  years
And there are moment in my life
That I flooded tears
And there are breaking points
When I bottle myself

NO, I will not curl up
No, I will never mess this up
I will never be
I will never see
I will not
I will not burn
In Hell's fire.
(In Hell's fire ,In Hell's fire),
Your hands pull me
Closer, and I know right then this is the moment
That we've been waiting for
I'll be your canvas
You express your feelings and you'll be the paint brush painting on me
Countless hours with nails inside my spine
With your imprint on me
Owning me
And for a second I am free
You just release me
Talking bodies
Wrapped up into the arms and legs
Touching me
I love you
I love this
While you are close to me
Talking bodies.
It's hard to watch you go
Whether if it was for the best
I loved to the rest
Of the attribute
It's a pain in my ***
To watch you leave me
And this letter that I write will be longer than the pain of me
And still I do sing, the songs to describe the bleed
Oh, there's tears on paper might mess up the words
but, I cant watch you go whether if it was for the best
It hurts.
And these tears on paper they understand me, oh they do
There's tears on paper, shed for you.
These guardian angels, they should be fired
These so called cupids they won't aim at the target
And these one and only lover cuddles
Seem to be messing with me
Oh, these tears on paper might mess up the words
But, I cant watch you fly away and don't say bye
And this hurts, me, bad.
And these tears on paper they understand me, oh they do
There's tears on paper, they dry for you.
I hate this place
Where everybody
hates and just judges everybody
based on looks and color

I hate this place
Where nobody cares about nobody
Just about themselves
And smiles and cares

I created this world
The other world
It's called a ," fantasy"
Where it's put in wonder.
We Howl At The Moon That We Declare
That Only Us Matters And Not The Warriors That Stare
We Rivaled As Warriors, Strong And Strength
Snap Necks As They Threaten
Bite Into Flesh As They Wither Away
We Come In Packs
Fear Us
We Come In Packs
Run
Because, Everybody Wants Us To Tear Apart
So We Fight Like We Are Heartless
But, Nobody Will Never Know
We Came In Packs.
My O.T Group At Job Corps We Had Our Up And Downs But, We Steady Love Each Other And Stay Near Each Other.
Monsters! Ahh, there they go again
They are crowding me
Monster! So close I can feel them there
Watching me

"Bridget, come on , honey join me in the dark!"
But, this feeling that receive is nothing more than a scheme
When the lights go off
And the door is closed
They come out of nowhere
And they keep calling me.
I've seen the worst
Maybe, if he love me
His hands wouldn't disgrace me
I've got alot in my head
Some turn into nightmares
And some turn into dreams
Through these eyes
I've never once told myself
To close my eyes
Because, even when it hurts to stare at
It makes you stronger
Looking at the depths of things
And through these eyes
I have not once
Told myself to close my eyes
Because, even if it burns it still is worth crying.
She walk in tired from a day at work
So tired, just losing her mind
She went in the bedroom , saw her husband with a gun to his head and she screamed and said
" No, don't do this! I love you and this isn't the road you should take I want you with me! Remember death do us part don't do this!"
And he said , " Come join me."
Tick, Tick, Tick
The clock ticks, the wife sits at the far end of the wall and she's nervous
The husband watches his wife in dismay with his gun to his brain
"Baby, please what about the children, what about love?"
" What about it? Come on baby join me."
She's sick to her stomach grabs a knife and puts it to her stomach and says , " Baby ok I'm coming with you! What about the kids we should never leave them?!!"
"1-2-3...."
"Baby, come on you have til I get to 5."
"1-2-3-4-5."
The wife plunges the knife into her stomach but, she didn't hear a gunshot.
"Baby, why?! You said you love me , you said til death do us part!"
He smiled dropped the gun and said, " It doesn't mean we both have to go."
****, there it goes again another whiplash
Of not another cold sore but, another that's heart bash
Another bloodshot eyes from crying at night
And another broken heart that lost at sight
But, maybe I just lost myself
That I give my heart to a thousand and never get an help
And maybe there's no other chance that there is hope
But, there is always the one that shows who they truly are
I cant keep on giving a thousand percent
When all I give back is nothing
That no matter where I turn
There's always another dead end
And everybody claims that I care too much.
Maybe I've just built a lot of bridges
Too many of them come through and they burn them down and they steady keep burning them down
And there I stand at the end and I rebuild them all
Because everybody claims I care too much.
There it goes again the rain came back and the lighting is striking
And so I pray to God telling him to forgive us
That we don't all know better,
And so the light came out and the rainbow formed
And maybe there's just a little hope that, maybe there's love.
But, like everything says I care too much.

— The End —