Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Beth Decisions Jun 2015
They say that the opposite of love is hate.
Though few realize the true opposite of love is indifference.
To not love for someone,
Is to not care for the person at all.
You do not dwell over them.
You do not get angry or feel sorrow over their actions.
It is true however that hate is a step away from love.
True hate I mean.
Not loath.
Not dislike.
But true hatred for another.
Because without love...
You feel nothing.
Only those who truly know someone.
Know the depths of their mind and soul.
Who have truly felt love for the person.
Can feel hatred towards them.
You can not despise ever fiber of another,
Unless you know every part of them as you know yourself.
Love and hate go hand in hand.
You can not have one without the other.
So as long as you hate someone...
Just know,
Even if it is the tiniest part of you.
Or hidden in the deepest depths of your heart.
Apart of you still feels a love towards them.
Beth Decisions Jun 2015
There's something beautiful about reading a book series you never want to end.
A series in which you escape so deeply into the depths of, it is a though you are there.
As though that is the world in which you live.
You are experiencing that story,
Going down that journey they descend upon, with them.
You cry when there's sorrow.
You smile at all the joys.
It becomes a piece of who you are.
When the story's over...
When the last line is read,
The last page it turned,
And you are forced to leave that world you have so deeply pourded yourself into,
It is as though you are leaving a part of yourself into that book.
That story.
A part of you that spent hours lost from the reality around you.
As you lived a different life.
Lived in a different world.
Learned and had more experiences than one could imagaine.
As you went from living just your life,
being inside just your mind,
feeling just your emotions....
To living the lives of many.
Feeling for things that have never occurred.
And spending hours in the mind of another.
Until finally you read the last line.
Turn the last page.
Close the book for the final time.
And descend back into reality.
Becoming just you, once more.
*It's a true gift.
A beautiful pass time unlike no others.
And a true escape if one is at dyer need of it.*
Books have always been my favorite escape. And the world of Harry Potter, my favorite to escape into.
Beth Decisions Jun 2015
Laying out in the sun.
Getting sunburns that lead to tans.
Spending hours in the ocean.
Waves crashing against my skin.
Lots of smiles.
Lots of laughter.
Yet something's missing.
Something's not right.
This great day feels wrong.
And I can't quite place why.
Though I think I'm starting to figure it out.
I think it's because of you.
Because you're not here experiencing this with me.
And you were suppose to always be here.
Experiencing the rest of life and its beauty at my side.
Beth Decisions Jun 2015
I don't know why I still do this.
I don't know why I still cry.
I don't know why you still mean so much.
I don't know why I miss you
I don't know why I can't stop crying.
******* do I miss you.
And I refuse to tell anybody.
You hate me.
It's my fault you hate me.
But all I do is cry...
And miss you.
Why do I miss you.
I just don't know.....
Beth Decisions Jun 2015
I think of you*
I grab a cigarette.
I miss you I think
I lite it
I think of the feel of your arms and how much I need you
I start taking drags
I still love and want you
The drags become longer.
I remember the feel of you against me
Even longer now
I call out your name
The cigarette's gone. I light a new one.
I start silently crying
I sink to the ground
All our memories playing through my mind
Inhaling between every sob.
I continue on like this. Smoking and crying until the pain...
The pressure...
The never ending hurt begins to dull away.
Though never truly goes away.
Sometimes it hits really hard. Sometimes I get overwhelmed. You were my bestfriend. You were the greatest love of my life. I was the forevergirl. And you the boy.
Beth Decisions Jun 2015
I'm staying at my grandfathers tonight.
I remember very vividly the last time I stayed in this room.
And like always.
Like everything else in my life.
It's a memory connected to you.
There's no where I can go.
No song I can hear.
No movie I can watch.
No single person I can talk to...
With out there being a memory of you.
My world was once your world.
Now... Everything's connected to you.
Beth Decisions Jun 2015
I can feel the anxiety coursing through my body.
Oh God how I want this.
How I need it.
I know I'll be great.
Yet, I want this so badly...
My anxiety is overwhelming.
Scared of the possibility of being denied.
Next page