Standing in the midst of the ocean.
Enchanted by the beauty surrounding me.
Youre the only other thing on my mind.
The beauty of your smile.
The blue, green of your eyes.
Is the only thing that compares to this.
The cool feel of the waves crashing into my skin.
Is the most magnificent thing I have felt.
Yet, one touch from you...
Makes an unbeatable fire course through me.
In this moment.
I can't imagaine how one single thing.
The most beautiful thing.
Could beat how I see you.

The worst part about living in two places...
Is the constant goodbyes
The second you adjust and are happy again.
It's time to pack.
It's time to say goodbye.
I'm growing tired of the word.
So instead I'll leave off with this.
*I'll see you guys soon!

Today was such a great day.
Today was my birthday.
I normally dispise this day.
I find birthdays idiotic.
Why submit people into categories of age.
When the mind is an age different from the body.
Though today was different.
For the first time in years I loved this day.
I haven't smiled in so long, my face aches.
I spent the day running around with friends,
Swimming,
Laughing,
Loving the time together.
Today was a great day.
I'm truthfully amazed.

Why can't I stop these dreams.
They crash into my mind.
Then spend the day on repeat.
I despise it.
That's my time to escape my thoughts of you.
Yet. You fill those moments as well
Though at the same time...
They're so vivid.
It's as though you're right next to me.
I wake up thinking it was real.
Which maybe is why I hate it so much.
Befriends means forever and always right?
What happened to forever and always.
Why did things have to be ruined.
I just want these dreams to end.
So my thoughts of you aren't as constant.
That way I'm not always reminded of the heartbreak.
The crushing sensation of losing my bestfriend.

It's days like this especially that I miss you being here.
Running around the city with my family.
It feels as though something's missing without you here.
Without even being able to talk about you.
Or tell you the random things that occur.
I keep seeing so many things that remind me of you.
I just can't help feeling like this entire day is wrong.
Because...
You're not here.

I constantly find myself wishing.
Wishing that I could forgot you completely.
Wishing that I could go back.
That we could just never have met.
That I can erase you from my past.
But at the same time...
I'd be praying that you'd still find your way into my path in the future.
Because I never felt happier than our times together.
It'd make sense I've never felt worse than us being apart.
Because I'm left realizing.
I wouldn't be who I am...
If I hadn't had met you.
If you hadn't become my everything.
If you hadn't taught me to be happy.
If you hadn't had destroyed me.
So tell me...
The next shooting star I see,
Should I wish to forget you.

I dreamt of you last night.
There wasn't much to it.
It was just you and I talking.
Sitting on the couch talking for hours.
I can't remember what we talked about.
All I remember is that all the stuff that has happened recently...
Didn't matter.
We were still bestfriends.
And we talked for hours.