Bloom cherry blossoms
To always reveal the truth
Chopping down the tree

Uplifted from earth
Patiently warming to beget
Nestled in crossed twigs

Heavenly to kiss
Parted rosy colored pair
Whispering your truths

Hair is for stroking with kindness
Forehead, caring and testing in sickness

Eyes, gazing into your lovers soul
Nose, discerning your loved ones scent

Lips, kissing and whispering shared secrets
Chin for lifting yourself up proud

Neck, nuzzling safe and secure
Shoulders, to massage and relieve stress

Arms, uplifting and hugging tight
Hands, holding and feeling your way

Chest, protecting and encompassing heart
Stomach, for butterflies with a new love

*****, pleasure and carrying on our kind
Legs, balance and running free

Feet for leading the way

The illuminati , a secret society
Gain wealth, power and notoriety
Sold soul to the devil for promised riches
Many well known, his *******
Overtime, accidental glitches

Secret is out due to young generation
The up and coming population
To catch the famous throwing up signs
Subliminal message, invades our minds
Television, campaigns...there's all kinds

The power in the hands, you will never believe
Throughout past ages the sickness breeds
Many preach peace from the devils dark
side
Lennon, Dr. King, Malcolm all died

Are Gods followers keen to the onset tide?

With greed an power the dark one temps the meek
Those that turn, are submissive and weak
A few famous names in powerful places
Obama, kennedys ....won there races
Washington, Lincoln....two old faces
All above, in this secret society
Makes you ponder their priority

One famous man that held great power
Warned of illuminati ...Dwight D Eisenhower

If you hate rap music you should give it a listen
Little Wayne, JZ - surprised what your missin
The Commander and Chief is given wide berth
This society is strong on this earth

If you think I'm crazy, which you surely will Google it....Youtube it......you'll get your fill

He **** in my dreams
I am sound asleep
or at least I think I am
I feel his hated dark presence
as he appears in the night air above me
An indescribable face
Horns, razor teeth and the eyes
Eyes of the dead and the pits of hell
He pins me down with the strength
of all his summoned demons
He mounts me with his lizard like limbs
And clawed, slender fingered hands
Cold as dry ice
His foul breath of a billion deaths
encompass me
I start to scream
Scream prayers I remember as
an innocent child
His hard, crooked, thin member
entering and poisoning me
I scream but no one hears
It must be a dream

Rolling hemp
Legalized
Sweet Jesus



Wheelchair bound
Brave heart
Deems respect



Grinding brown beans
Aroma wafts
Favorite mug



Burritos
Frijoles
Flatulence

Icicle grips above
Dew condensing down gently
Chrystaline tear drop



Hummingbirds swift wings
Relishing nectar in flight
A blink and it's gone



A breeze lifts it loose
The frond spirals to earth
Crunching underfoot



Spins her web tidy
Plus hour glass she's mighty
Steer clear this spidy

What happened to me in my life
What I have allowed to be forced on me
Silenced my emotional growth
I speak of abuse
Physical verbal spiritual
In time I quit feeling
Was emotionally dead

Denied acceptance love hope
Caused anxiety despair and inner death
Welcomed loneliness to close the door on unbelievable pain
Cursed the world that seemed beyond my grasp

Alienated myself to the point of becoming uncomfortable in my own scarred skin
Being repeatedly told I was worthless made me someone other than myself
I was in a world full of others but did not exist

Peoples joys brought me tears
Joys I found were sorrowful
The birth of my babies into this lonely world
How could I love and protect them
I didn't love and protect myself
My cries went unnoticed
Confirming what I knew
I no longer mattered
The loneliness was agonizing
Some shell of me was left behind to be ridiculed and abused

Detached further from the world
Wept only in my dreams where my mind and body were safe
No way to escape- no one to turn to
After years I turned to God
With much bravery and spiritual strength I moved on

I am alone
You are alone
We are alone together
I am alive unique
I deserve to live- give and receive love

I love you my child
I don't know how to help you anymore
You continue to die your slow death
It's painful for us both
To watch you killing yourself with no way to stop
To see you so all alone
Living your life from hell
Watching you living with demons
I curse the devil and his minions
To watch you convice yourself to give up and die
It kills me inside
I love you child
I've always loved you and always will
I don't think you're long for this earth
The slow mental and physical deterioration
has accelerated
The doctors give you one short year
I cry for the hurt in your heart
I cry for the torture in your soul
I cry for the pain in your unhealthy body
I cry because you think I don't love you
Don't give up and die my little one
I physically ache for loving and losing you
Living a life I would never have chosen for you
I love you my child
Please see a glimpse of the light in my soul
Let it guide you to peace
Non reversible is your disease
I'm tormented with the fear of losing you
I can't watch anymore
I can't see you do this to yourself
Don't die my sweet little girl
Don't leave me behind
My love for you is insurmountable
Your love for yourself is long gone
Let's love eachother for the time you have left
I love you more than theses mere words express
I love you more than my own life
Don't cry little one for I am here

A congenial aura
elated trekking
Intoning treasured verse
attention beckoning
Diligence provided
continual checking

Confirming with gauges
complying with code
Merged flawlessly towards
turnpike- cautious mode
Along breezed a rig
with a copious load

Heedless of rush hour
he rumbled on by
Remained in his route
to switch didn't try
Hurled on the brakes
swerved- she let out a cry

The fish tail and slide
left black in its track
Furled over in excess
too dazed for fact
Copper tang on lips
beginning to act

Sinew taut
cerebral flailing
Knuckles clenched
composure failing
Ticker raging
pent up wailing

Red and blue strobes
redundant sound
Screeching and wrenching
the pros abound
Flame vaulting acrid scent
soot around

One outstretched mitt
cloudy hood right behind
Echoing directives
"you will be fine"
Such screaming
not even sure if it's mine

Hours? Minutes?
seconds ticking away
WHOOOMF!!!
explosion that seized it today
Claimed these lives
on the earth they did lay

What's happening?
ascending brilliant light
Are eyes sealed exposed
perceiving what's right?
Sense soaring heavenward
a tranquil flight

Radiance entices
no need to resist
While buoyant wafting
in a cool opaque mist
At last home free
beseeching those that I missed
Brushed against His Grace
her brows lightly been kissed

The loss hopelessness numbness great fear and pain
Cycle spins on to self abuse
The dire inner turmoil struggling to stay sane
Same attitude reactions confuse
Frustration irritation as fact remain
Duplicate thoughts destined to lose

If patterns in thinking unlikely to change
Reel round and round without much hope
Face this suspicion begin to rearrange
Release the disease ditch the rope
Erasing self hatred may at first be strange
Initiate to learn and cope

When under and used up good overcomes bad
Pros and cons you will find your way
Behind is past not dwelling on what you had
Future holds you are here to stay
The present is just that no matter how sad
Learned behavior... Live day to day

Where there is love there is life
Regardless of strife
Where there's desire there's a way
Where there is sun, a hopes ray
Love's present each day

Where there is hope there is light
Warmth lifts, renewed height
When we open our closed heart
When we search for a fresh start
Hope will find a way

Where there's kindness there is love
All greed, climb above
Where to give we do not dare
Where walls fall, naked bare
True kindness must stay

Where there is God there is fate
Surplus love, less hate
When His heart opened to give
When we may love Him and live
In the Lord I pray

Glancing in glass, monster appears
Hidden was she for many years
My face distorts, double mirrors
Long lived self control, burried fears

Dealing with this all alone

Luscious burning ***** sliding down
Warmed thoughts and gut without a sound
The judging makes me tremble round
Numbness prevailed,wanted to be drowned

Where is family, my home

Remember this like yesterday
Cascading my life to decay
Withhold inclination this day
Keeping mirror-monster at bay

Practiced abstaining finely honed

Mental disability what an epigram, it bounds on burried complexity
Titter inside hysterical effectuation
Feeling electrical currents misfiring in my cerebellum
Screaming unremebered prayers in my night terrors at the devils fornication
Remaining in my presence, anticipating my sleep
***** to reverse the dementia
Waking day dreams, lost in unreality
Descry vociferation calling my name
Wanting to claw my etes out against nebulous shadows creeping behind
Wanting a medium to banih apparitions from my space
Paranoid of all establishment
While securing eye contact with others, they could decipher all my thoughts
With binoculars neighbors surveil
Me camouflaged with drawn shades and pale skin
To go outside summoned all my demons
Wanting to battle, rage war to fulfill some morbid desire
Annihilating hordes in my dreams by any means
***** to reverse the madness
OCD for a little control
A million times repeated thoughts flashing in my eyes
Confusion! What day is it? Am I doing something wrong?
Not glancing in mirrors hiding from myself Garbled guttural utterances in my left ear
Hot breath on my neck
Bawling at flexibility and spontaneity
Not in my scheme for the coming confusing hours
Wanting to pull my skull off exposing the insanity
Just wanted it to STOP!!
***** to reverse the derangement
Limbs not answering brain waves crisscrossed as they dwell
On a daily basis surviving hell
On a nightly basis in true hell
Needing to shriek and explode
Afraid to sleep, walking in exhausted dreams
Broken pains in my bones
No peace day or night
My medication saved my life

Stress the silent killer
Strapped for cash it always seems
Unpaid notice from biller
Repossessed, foreclosed and liens

Days of paranoid waking
Job, your kids, the homestead- health
Don't realize why you're quaking
Balancing act takes real stealth

The bill collectors calling
Day and night relentless rings
Repetitive thoughts, stalling
Heart palpitations it brings

Running wild are kids and wife
Brats- no control, spouse spending
To what do I owe this life?
For certain nightmares pending

I have a job, work all day
But look where it has got me..
Bust my **** for little pay
I'm trying, can not you see?

Take the car, shut off the lights
No water to shower there
Toll of stress will reach new heights
The level beyond repair

This whole **** world needs a change
Added stress we just can't bear
To the docs if you don't rearrange
Government *****, said it.....there

Stress the silent killer
Strapped for cash it always seems
Unpaid notice from biller
Repossessed, foreclosed and liens

Days of paranoid waking
Job, your kids, the homestead- health
Don't realize why you're quaking
Balancing act takes real stealth

The bill collectors calling
Day and night relentless rings
Repetitive thoughts, stalling
Heart palpitations it brings

Running wild are kids and wife
Brats- no control, spouse spending
To what do I owe this life?
For certain nightmares pending

I have a job, work all day
But look where it has got me..
Bust my **** for little pay
I'm trying, can not you see?

Take the car, shut off the lights
No water to shower there
Toll of stress will reach new heights
The level beyond repair

This whole **** world need a change
Added stress we just can't bear
To the docs if you don't rearrange




Government *****, said it.....there

Stress the silent killer
Strapped for cash it always seems
Unpaid notice from biller
Repossessed, foreclosed and liens

Days of paranoid waking
Job, your kids, the homestead- health
Don't realize why you're quaking
Balancing act takes real stealth

The bill collectors calling
Day and night relentless rings
Repetitive thoughts, stalling
Heart palpitations it brings

Running wild are kids and wife
Brats- no control, spouse spending
To what do I owe this life?
For certain nightmares pending

I have a job, work all day
But look where it has got me..
Bust my **** for little pay
I'm trying, can not you see?

Take the car, shut off the lights
No water to shower there
Toll of stress ill reach new heights
The level beyond repair

This whole **** world need a change
Added stress we just can't bear
To the docs if you don't rearrange




Government *****, said it.....there

See her bright smile in the morning light
Make breakfast and small talk
Laugh with her at the silliest things
Much happiness it brings

To give her a bath and watch her swim
Get out all fresh and clean
Combing her hair styled in a braid
Cutest girl God ever made

Hold her and cuddle the feeling true
Share pictures on my phone
Just taking her little hand in mine
The world just seemed so fine

Baking cookies with a lot of help
She'll even fold the clothes
Watching Walt Disney while laying down
Real happiness I'd found

Then she quickly was gone from my life
Just went without a trace
Deep love and trust in her eyes of brown
Right now nowhere around

No more gazing as she soundly sleeps
No angel with sweet breath
On her abandoned coat the tears I've shed
Inside I now feel dead

I'm missing drying her heart felt tears
I miss her more each day
The smell of her I do love to inhale
Her pillow just smells stale

My angel is gone with others now
She is so far away
Cannot see her sleepy smile at night
I will pray til mornings light

I have got so much still
to flush from my soul
Indignation self hatred
angels they stole
Lifes blood removal
stands beyond my control
The world moves on
what is my role

Rehashing the steps
that led up to the past
Confusion denial
all happened too fast
Rearranging my thoughts
to unborn contrast
The world moves on
i reign in last

Sweet faces and hearts
the love given all mine
Trusting angels in place
how the sun did shine
Trials and tribulations
may have smoothed out fine
The world moves on
proof my decline

Final induction
to family this day
They are theirs completely
to secret away
Distance traveled each mile
my hopes decay
The world moves on
bleeding will stay

My soul flushes dark
it remains in my heart
My angels are gone
due to my doubting part
Past mending or fixing
it's too late too start
The world moves on
forever apart

To discover human remains
Cinched to the rafters
he leapt off
Adorned in the noose
a morbid necklace
Inner turmoil no more to live

A note deserted in drunken scrawl
In shreds
those left behind
Fatherless innocents
inquire why
No rationalization
for a senseless deed

Aching at the formalities
Enduring our shared existence
Bye is the lifetime
that remains in the past
Dried up are all the tears
Angst with respect to an echo
Horror lays imprinted on my mind
Forever gone

Homeless
Transient
Bestow



Mousse
Height
Do



Inhaling nicotine
Surgeon General
A grey death

Buds new life cool breeze
Scent of fresh rain on walk
Pungent first mown grass



The wisp of a cloud
Purple and pink in blue sky
Slowly moves turns grey




****** snow pure
Glistening in white sunlight
Forming snow angels

Buds new life cool breeze
Scent of fresh rain on walk
Pungent first mown grass



The wisp of a cloud
Purple and pink in blue sky
Slowly moves turns grey




****** snow pure
Glistening in white sunlight
Forming snow angels

Guardians sow seeds, some few
While they influence and mold
Rain- love wisdom and view
The bud begins to unfold

Anchored firmly in the ground

Small brain sponges up the dew
Retaining complex hold
Directions to aspire to
The blossoming to behold

Sweetened tad above the mound

Teenage thorns, the stem comes thru
Refusing to be controlled
In full bloom, defiant hue
Crippled petals start to fold

Yielding blossoms can't be found

With age, time....the plant will renew
Reblooming with praise untold
Soaking in lights grace on cue
The legends of thorns retold

Sower and seed forever bound

Guardians sow seeds, some few
While they influence and mold
Rain- love wisdom and view
The bud begins to unfold

Anchored firmly in the ground

Small brain sponges up the dew
Retaining complex hold
Directions to aspire to
The blossoming to behold

Sweetened tad above the mound

Teenage thorns, the stem comes thru
Refusing to be controlled
In full bloom, defiant hue
Crippled petals start to fold

Yielding blossoms can't be found

With age, time....the plant will renew
Reblooming with praise untold
Soaking in lights grace on cue
The legends of thorns retold

Sower and seed forever bound

Mistral streams from the sea
Gusts over uneven terrain
Zephyr carries with purpose on its journey
Draft whirls leaves from a neat pile
Blast ***** my hair in my eyes
Sally arches well rooted trees
Breeze makes a baby catch its breath
Air current sways a free floating kite
Surge rotates cyclone with malevolence
Squall powers voluminous sails
Flutter lands spinning trash at my feet
Tempest moves on and is gone

A fresh wound is my heart
A dark void is my soul
To love completely minus control
An abrupt ending to a cherished role

A fresh wound is my heart
Emptiness of all space
To caress kiss an angelic face
Withheld from my grasp every last trace

A fresh wound is my heart
With the absence of care
I'm needing missing wanting to share
Without touch sound and sight you aren't there

A fresh wound is my heart
To just have and to hold
Return of love gone precious as gold
Once warmth of my spirit hardened cold

A fresh wound is my heart
Ever the tiniest thing
Tears loss and pain such sadness they bring
Reminds me of loves genuine being

A fresh wound is my heart
You are off on your own
Miss you immensely feel all alone
Bleak nothingness and vacancy have grown

A fresh wound is my soul
I want you back with me
I offered you up it will never be
Love your face in my dreams....you and me

My love is so deep it hurts my soul
Being without someone loved
is true pain
The heaviness squeezes on my chest
like a tightening band
My body and mind numbed with desire
to see that face again
Rather than relinquish this love
i would give a limb
Peace should come from prayer
The void left inside is too deep to fill
I've tried and miserably failed
At my own discontent I often scoff
But the feelings are here each day
I will never forget
and pray pain subsides with time