Rolling hemp
Legalized
Sweet Jesus



Wheelchair bound
Brave heart
Deems respect



Grinding brown beans
Aroma wafts
Favorite mug



Burritos
Frijoles
Flatulence

Icicle grips above
Dew condensing down gently
Chrystaline tear drop



Hummingbirds swift wings
Relishing nectar in flight
A blink and it's gone



A breeze lifts it loose
The frond spirals to earth
Crunching underfoot



Spins her web tidy
Plus hour glass she's mighty
Steer clear this spidy

What happened to me in my life
What I have allowed to be forced on me
Silenced my emotional growth
I speak of abuse
Physical verbal spiritual
In time I quit feeling
Was emotionally dead

Denied acceptance love hope
Caused anxiety despair and inner death
Welcomed loneliness to close the door on unbelievable pain
Cursed the world that seemed beyond my grasp

Alienated myself to the point of becoming uncomfortable in my own scarred skin
Being repeatedly told I was worthless made me someone other than myself
I was in a world full of others but did not exist

Peoples joys brought me tears
Joys I found were sorrowful
The birth of my babies into this lonely world
How could I love and protect them
I didn't love and protect myself
My cries went unnoticed
Confirming what I knew
I no longer mattered
The loneliness was agonizing
Some shell of me was left behind to be ridiculed and abused

Detached further from the world
Wept only in my dreams where my mind and body were safe
No way to escape- no one to turn to
After years I turned to God
With much bravery and spiritual strength I moved on

I am alone
You are alone
We are alone together
I am alive unique
I deserve to live- give and receive love

I love you my child
I don't know how to help you anymore
You continue to die your slow death
It's painful for us both
To watch you killing yourself with no way to stop
To see you so all alone
Living your life from hell
Watching you living with demons
I curse the devil and his minions
To watch you convice yourself to give up and die
It kills me inside
I love you child
I've always loved you and always will
I don't think you're long for this earth
The slow mental and physical deterioration
has accelerated
The doctors give you one short year
I cry for the hurt in your heart
I cry for the torture in your soul
I cry for the pain in your unhealthy body
I cry because you think I don't love you
Don't give up and die my little one
I physically ache for loving and losing you
Living a life I would never have chosen for you
I love you my child
Please see a glimpse of the light in my soul
Let it guide you to peace
Non reversible is your disease
I'm tormented with the fear of losing you
I can't watch anymore
I can't see you do this to yourself
Don't die my sweet little girl
Don't leave me behind
My love for you is insurmountable
Your love for yourself is long gone
Let's love eachother for the time you have left
I love you more than theses mere words express
I love you more than my own life
Don't cry little one for I am here

A congenial aura
elated trekking
Intoning treasured verse
attention beckoning
Diligence provided
continual checking

Confirming with gauges
complying with code
Merged flawlessly towards
turnpike- cautious mode
Along breezed a rig
with a copious load

Heedless of rush hour
he rumbled on by
Remained in his route
to switch didn't try
Hurled on the brakes
swerved- she let out a cry

The fish tail and slide
left black in its track
Furled over in excess
too dazed for fact
Copper tang on lips
beginning to act

Sinew taut
cerebral flailing
Knuckles clenched
composure failing
Ticker raging
pent up wailing

Red and blue strobes
redundant sound
Screeching and wrenching
the pros abound
Flame vaulting acrid scent
soot around

One outstretched mitt
cloudy hood right behind
Echoing directives
"you will be fine"
Such screaming
not even sure if it's mine

Hours? Minutes?
seconds ticking away
WHOOOMF!!!
explosion that seized it today
Claimed these lives
on the earth they did lay

What's happening?
ascending brilliant light
Are eyes sealed exposed
perceiving what's right?
Sense soaring heavenward
a tranquil flight

Radiance entices
no need to resist
While buoyant wafting
in a cool opaque mist
At last home free
beseeching those that I missed
Brushed against His Grace
her brows lightly been kissed

The loss hopelessness numbness great fear and pain
Cycle spins on to self abuse
The dire inner turmoil struggling to stay sane
Same attitude reactions confuse
Frustration irritation as fact remain
Duplicate thoughts destined to lose

If patterns in thinking unlikely to change
Reel round and round without much hope
Face this suspicion begin to rearrange
Release the disease ditch the rope
Erasing self hatred may at first be strange
Initiate to learn and cope

When under and used up good overcomes bad
Pros and cons you will find your way
Behind is past not dwelling on what you had
Future holds you are here to stay
The present is just that no matter how sad
Learned behavior... Live day to day

Where there is love there is life
Regardless of strife
Where there's desire there's a way
Where there is sun, a hopes ray
Love's present each day

Where there is hope there is light
Warmth lifts, renewed height
When we open our closed heart
When we search for a fresh start
Hope will find a way

Where there's kindness there is love
All greed, climb above
Where to give we do not dare
Where walls fall, naked bare
True kindness must stay

Where there is God there is fate
Surplus love, less hate
When His heart opened to give
When we may love Him and live
In the Lord I pray