What’s the difference?
Can you tell me this?
He hopped the fence,
With just a kiss.

If he truly felt
As he’d be with you as one,
Then would he have dealt
What damage he’d done?

So he does sports
So he takes risks bigger than mine?
So **** it if he can’t be dependable,
You’ll do just that just ‘cause he can hurt someone.

If I wanted, I could choose that path,
If I wanted, it would help relieve my wrath.
At times I wish I loved you enough to change
Then I realize I do,
But as I change so do your wants.

So, I’m fed-up, and tired of changing
I still love you, but for once I give-up
I’ll never get love back ‘cause
Now I know the difference…

I love you, he loves your body,
You love him…
And I’m just a friend.

Though the radiant man
Is usually fresh from the pan,
The early morning of this day
Shows this man’s darker way.

Yet his darkest form is still not shown,
From fear, this form he does leave unknown.
Only twice has he lost control;
Both times a strike of cowardice stole.

Conscious of his darker power
He sits at home with a ridding-focused glower.
Depressing is the harm he does,
As the dark being he will always be, is, and was.

I did it again
So here’s that, now,
Oh so familiar feeling
Sorry I’m a disappointment.

I can never do it right,
I’m always making mistakes
Will you ever forgive me?
Is my feeble soul even worth this
Sweet forgiveness of yours?

I’ve had my glory
And plenty of chances
But my guardian angel
Has to move on to that luckier man.

It’s a mid-summer’s day at noon,
I hear of what I’ve done to you.
And I’m so truly sorry,
I can’t begin to explain it…

Now I just need to wait
‘Til the chill I now feel
Passes through
I feel frozen solid

The temperature is ninety-two,
Yet, I’m frozen for you…

It’s amazing how life works
The way history repeats itself
Seemingly more destructive each time

Be it decades of fashion,
Or last weeks meals

History just doesn’t change
Wars repeat,
And nations continue to compete

Even things as insignificant as a lone man’s life
For him,
Last year becomes this year
Meaning more struggle and strife

And all it takes to trigger it
Is one thing,
One simple poem,
One simple dream

Maybe life does not deserve my vicious scream

Shocking, isn’t it?
Lost in a muck of awful confusion

Lusting for one
Loving another
Yet playing the fool for a third
The fourth I still desire
But with her my hopes shall never re-fire

However, when did a fifth enter my wreck?
Why have I not noticed before?

She shares an exceptionally beautiful expression,
To that I’m ashamed to admit…
Was that interest I saw in her eyes?!

Both of us are taken
And I’d likely just cause
Pain and ache
For the people close to us.

Yet again,
Why should I even ponder?
This is just more trouble
An unwanted pregnancy
Invading my life

So I’ll **** it now.
It shan’t have time to grow
Get over it, get over it
Just let it go

She’s so beautiful
I can hardly contain it

Surprise follows in every form
***** at an unknown level
I ask why I didn’t know
She says it’s only since three months ago

I ask
In subtle ways
Just how deep in mud
She is today

Having just started talking
I try to understand,
We’re still to nervous to hold hands

Down and falling deeper,
Don’t know why I didn’t notice
This spiral’s ***** getting steeper

Faster and faster
I’ll keep falling
And won’t notice my change

My trying to stop is,
To say the least,
Useless and annoying

This new depth I’ve reached
Is gradually changing in ways too late to foresee

The slide’s become grainy
First just leaving scratches,
The lower I slip,
The bigger they get

I see my fate
And I was proven wrong
I won’t keep sliding forever down
It will end soon
I’m sorry I’ve been a burden

You try to help me in my initial fall
Keeping you close I thought was the key
We both gave the fight our all
And I realized it was killing us…

Caution to the wind,
I must save my love
I used the rest of my strength
To push you off,
And save you before myself

Now you stand
The small pain of minor loss
Is in you eyes
As I fade from your sight

Now I see what you cannot
The end is nigh
You can tell all but how
And I whisper with my last breathe

In the abyss is forever echoing…
“I’ll love you forever and al— ”