i've held the sting in the back of my throat, stared up at the ceiling, swallowed though my throat doesn't want to close. i've smiled and pulled at my hair the way i always have, but everything i do is empty and i am just barely holding back this flood inside me.
i've touched the fabric of these midnights as if they don't matter and blinked away tears and laughed coldly at the way our world has fallen into ruin, but now all of my carefully built dams are crumbling.
you promised safety to all of us but now you show your teeth and your words that mean too much. now you show us that freedom doesn't mean happiness, that everyone doesn't include us. we are separate from your image of the land of the free.
you are binding us in chains and inescapable changes, all while singing your songs of love and equality.
we are so tired of fighting. we are all sinking to our knees on this blood-soaked battlefield and begging for you to see that we are only people. that we want to love and be ourselves, just like everybody else.
just like everybody else, there's only so much we can take.
i've been trying to write something about this Arkansas bill since it came up and i am just now calm enough to actually put it into words. i physically cannot stop crying most days.
the world is moving backwards. all of these trans kids are going to have to live with America's mistakes for the rest of their lives. and the world? it just isn't safe for people like us. gay marriage was only legalized in the USA in 2015. that's six years ago. and that was a big step forward, but so, so late.
all of these people's lives are so hard, all of our lives, and for what? a bunch of ******* that are trying to control things that are none of their business. look. hormone therapy, hormone blockers, top and bottom surgery? that's all between the patient, their guardian, and their doctor. it is none of anyone else's business. it's ******* stupid that these people think it's within their rights to control what other people do with their lives, with their bodies. just live and let live. let us be happy. it's really sad that you're so scared of our happiness that you're outlawing our comfort. it's pathetic that people are still like this.
it's not 1800 anymore. wake up.