I'm so up and down,
  it drives everyone near insane,
Why?

I can't be everything you think I should be,
  and you hate me for it,
Why?

Every mirrored action is one you detest,
  I can do nothing right,
Why?

I'd be fine, I'm just a little different,
  but you think I should be perfect,
Why?

I'm sorry I try to be selfless,
  it just causes contempt,
Why?

I'd live a different life if I could,
  to make it easier for you,
Why?

I think you've changed
'cause I don't recognize you anymore
you don't look the same as you did
lying on the bed next to me before

I know I've changed
'cause I think I'm really done
I realized finally how
your quiet rejection's just no fun

but when I leave
I doubt your heart will bleed
I always cared more than you,
and you won't shed no tears,
you probably won't even miss me

I know you love
but not the kind of love I need
I want someone who will hold my soul
without my having to say please

I think I'm tainted
'cause with your face my heart is stained
and no matter who I'm with ever
in my head I'll be thinking your name

but when I leave
I doubt your heart will bleed
I cared so much more than you
and you won't shed no tears
you probably won't even miss me

And you kept me at arms length
helped my up with half your strength
hid behind that never crumbling wall
and yet I still let myself fall....stupid!

but when I leave
I doubt your heart will bleed
I cared more than you could
but you won't shed no tears
you probably won't even miss me
no you probably don't even miss me

I've walked around your world
like walking on thin ice
I've tasted your words on my tongue
hot and sweet, like sugar and spice
I felt your touch on my skin
soft, cool and electric
I've watched my life devolve
to plain, when once eccentric
I've spent my days with you
picking egg shells off my feet
I've spent my days without you
hiding from a pain that runs too deep

I miss you more than you know.
You don't know how much of me it takes, to hide it deep down low.
I can't breathe.

There's no sunshine in my days.
Only hurricanes, rain, and fits of rage.
I can't breathe.

I've become a master, at this charade.
Had I not, I don't think I'd make it through the day.
I can't breathe.

I still look for you, in those passing by.
When it's not, inside I start to cry.
I can't breathe.

It still hurts, too much for me to say.
It's never ending, this pain won't go away.
I can't breathe.

I can't breathe.

I can't breathe.

When there's sun
  it shines
    so warm
but when it rains
  it pours
    always a storm
When you're here
  I'm alive
    I breathe and feel
when you're gone
  I am broken
    I never heal
How it hurts
  I'm so helpless
    aching from my bones
how long it is
  the day's
    never ending and alone
If I try
  it takes more
    all of me
if I walk away
  I leave empty
    never to be set free

I wanna rip your heart out
  just like you did mine
and dance around it singing
  oozing my personality of slime
I wanna lie right to your face
  pretending that I care
and say I'll always be your friend
  but never actually be there
I just wanna use you
  for all my selfish gains
and take all I can from you
  leaving only regrets and pains
I wanna be vague, darlin'
  inhuman; never feeling a thing
I'll be fake, hollow and crude
  I'll salt your wounds and make 'em sting!