My body moves like I'm under a strobe light
Going with the beat of my heart
You're home far from here
But I can see the green in your eyes
Like you're in the room with me
Float to the ceiling and kiss me ten feet up
Let our colors mix
Like orange and red on a sunset horizon
Blame it on the smoke
Blame it on the *****
Kiss my hand before you leave
Bouncing up and down on my beat up couch
Laughing like it would never end
And leaving just before it did
And now you're gone far away
Don't forget our last love
It will be mine, my last

You told me you never want to die
You'd spent long nights and long days wishing you could
Now you want to live forever
No drug, no plant, no magic nor miracle can offer what you seek
I can
I'll write poems that are miles long about each step you take
I'll record every breath in novels
And every time you look at the sky I'll take note
No one on Earth will forget your name
No child will live without hearing your voice
No man will die without swimming in the color of your eyes
No woman will survive longer than you
You will live forever in the stories I write
You will live forever in the waves
In the air
In the stars
In the sun
In my heart
And the hearts of all who will ever exist

I am so angry with myself for loving you
My hands are shaking and my entire body feels heavy
It's transformed into an unbearable physical pain
You torture me every time you joke about us being together
It hurts more than breaking my leg
I wish that I could rip these feelings out of my heart
But it's impossible
How could my body want you so bad
It is a constant throbbing in my brain and uneven beats in my chest
I am at a loss for words, I cannot describe this
I'm trying but it sounds like I am talking about death
I've thought about it, death
It would be easier than waking up and feeling empty
I wouldn't have to wake up at all
I am a small speck floating in the waves of a hurricane
I'm just waiting for the storm to subside
You have no idea the war that is waging inside my head
Wanting to kiss you whenever you come home
My lips are magnetized to yours and it takes every bit of strength I have to stop myself
I am totally exhausted and frustrated
And I'm not sure how long I can go on
I want to rip myself apart
You are killing me and keeping me alive at the same time
If you are going to hold my hand don't let go
If you are going to kiss me, next time do it sober
If you are going to love me, don't do it just as a friend
Because I need you
I need you I need you I need you
Or I will die

You cause me pain
You make me worry

But I will never leave you

You hurt my heart
You **** my spirit

But I will never leave you

Think of this next time
You think of making me
Upset

It's a terrible reality when you realize
What a terrible person you are.

Why can't laughter be as poetic as sadness?