i wore your loss with me
i wore your loss to sleep every night
and you didn't feel a thing
you didn't feel a ******* thing
while your ghost lived in me every day
your ghost followed me

i lived alone in a hopeless world
with grey skies that never spoke a word to me
silent skies looking at me with contempt and indifference
and the moon stalking me through the clouds but staring silent, uttering no words

and i couldn't cry out that enourmous pain into nothingness
always alone wandering under grey violent sky searching for the crumbles of everfading light

the world was dying
its hollow heart in the center dead and rotting reality into decorations for my eternal suffering
fabric starting to tear
until i was dead
******* dead at my heart, all hope completely shut down
world, crooked, breaking down at the root, spilling, crushing down on me
anti-everything that knows no lifting

shot in the head
darkness complete down
weird blue light pulsing in some strange ally
stretching across that colorless void
i breath in
again

it was me

turn off my life support, let me drown into your painted world
a cold and lonely place, covered in snow — that ruins that exist only for you

i came here for the only reason — to die searching for you
through the mountains, ruined towers, ******* ravens clutching their claws
my every torch will burn out — i don't give a **** — surrender myself to your welcoming darkness
a hopeless devotion that digs my grave
i know, i won't find you
but i will endlessly go
just to touch your hand again
to drown in your hair
to absorb the night sky, surrounding us, covering only us
i torture myself with those memories
i split open my wounds just to keep myself going
but the question comes up
what's the ******* point?
this love was an abomination, that had no place in the world
lock it into chains and drown in the sea

i should probably go down the deepest well i can find
lie down and close my eyes

i want to dream so bad
want to lie in my bed with dim stripes of light on the ceiling
i want to reach out for something out of this world
something fleeting
like castles rising and crumbling down overnight
like the stripes of white light over the ceiling
and i can be alone

walk me out from this town...
could you lead the way?
hold my hand along the way
we've been through so much...together.

drive me through this night,
i can't go alone, it's so dark
help me get through this night
then drive me home

stay
pls, stay till i fall asleep
i'm scared, this thing haunts me, ok?
just stay for the night, ok?

pull me through time,
through this endless night
help me start to feel again
and finish the song i ******* write

just stay, and i'll be ok