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Becka Estrada Dec 2013
I Have Made A Decision,
That Was Really Hard For Me To Understand,
I Have Lost All Faith But Then I Realized,
That One Day I Will Be Happy,
Without **** On My Life,
I Learned To Unloved You,
So I Am Happy Now.
Go To Hell You Fake *****,
I Am Really Tired Of This ****,
You Never Loved Me So Go And **** A ****.
Becka Estrada Dec 2013
I Am Always Insulting To Her,
I Can Not Control Myself,
She Brings Me Inside Hatred Out,
I Dont Hate Her I Love Her So Much,
Is Just That She Always Have To Put Everything On Me,
I Can Not Feel Nothing Anymore When She Talks To  Me Bad,
She Knows I Love Her So Much But Its Maybe My Fault For All This.
Maybe I Am The Wrong One,
Just Maybe I Am The One ******* Up This,
But I Cant See It Because I Am To Busy Seeing Myself Fail.
I Am Wrong And I Know It.
I Just Wish I Dissapear From Her Life So She Can Be Happy Cause I Am ******* Up.
As The Older I Get The More Frustrated I Become,
I Cant Reason Because My Black Hole In My Brain,
I Can Not Bare Been Mad At Her,
I Can Not Bear Pushing Her Away,
I Just Cant I Love Her So Much,
She Has Been There In Anything I Struggle,
She Is My Bestfriend That I Love
But Most Important She Is The Mother I Adore.
Becka Estrada Dec 2013
Say Something I Am Walking Away,
This Is Really Hard For Me To Say Because I Do Love You
But You Are Not Trying And I Am Getting Tried,
I Have Never Done This,
Try So Hard For Someone Then I Lose,
Because I Have Never Fallen Inlove So Deep,
You Seem Careless As I Tell You This,
You Keep Your Head Straight But I Cant See Those Tears,
You Cannot Understand This But Its The Best.
I An Crying Because I Care And Giving Up Was Never In Plan,
You Left Me Alone,
You Distant Yourself From Me,
From Your Lover The One That Wanted A Forever With You.
Stop Been So Careless Tell Me Not To Go,
Dont Stay Quiet,
Try And I Will Keep Holding On.
This War Seems Useless As I Stare At You,
But I Need A Break From All This,
I Need To Be Happy Even If I Know I Am Breaking Inside.
Say Something I Am Leaving,
Please Dont Let Me Go,
Tell Me Something So I Can Stay Here With You.
Say Something Please.....I Love You, Goodbye.
Becka Estrada Dec 2013
Why is everything i worked so hard coming to a end?
I did try hard enough but everything was in vain,
my heart is pounding hard and the slow,
i am kind of feeling lost.
i wish everything was easy but its not,
i got no friends to support me i know now,
my only lover is been a ***,
i can not go through this with out a grab,
i am endlessly falling deep in a hole.
i know if i do i wont be able to hold,
because i am breaking slowly and fast,
my mind is telling give up.
i need a friend i need another love,
but at the same time i prefer to be alone.
Becka Estrada May 2013
That Night Of Youth,
We Met .
I Did Not Expected.
It Was That Drunk Grin Of Yours,
That Got Me Captivated,
The Way You Looked At Me In Your Bedroom,
That Silly,Idiotic Laugh You Gave Me.
Soon Enough Without Trying I Embraced,
I Never Think Was A Mistake,
Though To Everyone's Eyes It Was.
Fights By Tears,
Tears By Fights,
We Went On.
You Couldn't Change Until You Realized,
That My Love Was Blinded,
And I Have You Deep In My Heart.
You Stupid *****,
The Man-***** You Are,
I Love You Always,
I Always Had.
Becka Estrada Apr 2013
I Hate Myself For Been So Dumb,
For Making Everyone Around Me Feel Like ****,
For Finding Comfort On Bullying Someone Else.
I Take Everything As An Insult And That ****** Me Off,
I Want To Rip My Head Out And Let Me Rot Into Pieces,
I Am Not Worthful For Anyone, An Invisible Corpse.
The Love I Once Held In My Heart Is Gone And I Have Nothing,
I Cry Myself To Sleep Even If I Dont Have To,
Is Just The Way I Feel In Me,
I Am Always Hurting My Mother,
I Wish I Could Just Leave.
And Everyone Could Be Happy.
Becka Estrada Mar 2013
The Is No Way I Can Love You,
After All You Have Done To Me,
It Seems Like I Don't Care,
I Pretend That All This Is A Dream,
And That I One Day Finally,
Will Realize What All This Is.
I Feel Like Yelling Loud And Hard,
Like If I Was Been Tortured By Your Own Hands,
I Havent Thought Of How To Tell You,
That I Know That All This Silly Things You Think
Are Good Are Bad.
I Am A Selfish *******,
That Doesn't Want To Let Go,
I Am Stupid For My Selfish Ways.
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