The answer to life is death

There are ******* everywhere why does it matter?
******* and *****.
Let's get it crackin'.
All the ******* where a mask.
It's only 12:30?!
I said salute...maybe in my head.
Water dosen't get bad.
I keep chewing on my teeth.
Did i hit your *****?
Me and shang's soul mates, so it counts for years.
If i could do my ABC's backwards i would do it.
It dosen't matter if you were listening, you failed the test.
There is a roudolph in here!
It's a toilet paper holder.
I trust you sweetheart.
You can trust me i'm drunk.
I'll hold it with my toe.
The cop can **** my ****.

WARNING:
A very very ***** parody of the song "Lips of a angel" by Hinder
(listen to song while reading, it will make more since)
(See notes for more details)


Honey why you queefing tonight.
It's kinda hard to **** right now.
And honey why you queefing,
is everything okay?
I like the way your whispering eye sounds.

Well, my ***** in your *******.
Sometimes I wish it wasn't.
I guess we never really lubed enough.

I heard you like to play with toys.
You're screaming my name,
was that a *****?
Coming from the lips of and angel,
the way you ***** it makes me seep.

And i, never want to see your brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful.
With the "lips" of an angel.

It's funny that you're queefing, right now.
And yes, i've dreamt of this too.
Dose he know you're ******* with me,
can we please just try.
Baby please don't say you have to poo.

Well my ***** in your *******.
Sometimes i wish it wasn't.
i guess we never really lubed enough.

I heard you like to play with toys.
You're screaming my name,
was that a *****?
Coming from the "lips" of a angel,
the way you ***** it makes me seep.
And i, never wanted to see your brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful.
With the "lips" of a angel.

I heard you liek to play with toys.
you're screaming my name.
was that a *****?
Coming from the lips of a angel
the way you ***** it makes me seep

And I never wanted to see your brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful,
with the "lips" of and angel.

I never wanted to see you're brown eye.
But girl you make my **** hard and playful,
with the lips of a angel.

Honey why you qeefing tonight.

You're counting halfs now?
You're just a ***** who is counting *****'.
I got offered **** today, but i didn't do it.
You're telling me you want shrooms?!
Would you like to like it?
There is bunches of naked ladies.
You could ******* together.
The smell is not right.
Dan give me half of it, you owe me 5 bucks.
YOU GIVE IT TO ME NOW!
You're trying to get my **** in my pocket...

It's the 50's and I'm walking home from school
a truck rolls by and i see a body boom.
"whats that" I say and I look down the drain.
It's my friend, a girl, oh I have forgot her name.
I finnish my walk home and I walk through the door.
The first thing i say "Where's my sibling's mom?"
she simpy replies " At the old hospital ***".
So I start to walk and find that place.
I start to climb the rusty fire place.
I get inside the buliding,there are kids every where.
screaming and yelling
"QUICK, HURRY! THERE'S A FIRE OVER THERE!"
I  freak out
Where's my siblings, oh dear.
Maybe i can find them if i go down here?
I climb in a dumbwaiter not knowing what I will see.
I get to a floor where there was just her and little ol' me
"Hello there new friend, would you like to play?"
Why sure of course, I have some time to play.
She was small petite, with gorgous red hair
her smile, he laugh, her skin was so fair.
She was beautiful like a angel, but something was wrong.
she offered me a drink, what happened next i wish i would have run
she opened her fridge and what i saw
1 million little peicese, her parents cut small.
She came after me with her knife in one hand.
How the hell am i supposed to get away,
get away from this scam!
So i scurry up where i came from,
and i said my goodbyes to that little one.
The hospital is blazed,
and my heart has sunk.
My siblings have died i just know this one.
I get out side just in the nick of time,
before that building fell I was sure I would die.
I see right before me those flashing lights.
maybe they got out, maybe they are just fine.
Then what i see is my youngest sister.
Bleeding right there all over the stretcher.
She no longer had arms or legs and it just broke my heart
i ran to her to hold her, and tell her my goodbyes.
Then before i could speek my words
she said
"Goodbye"

I am walking through the mall,
your walking next to me.
we can't wake the baby,
I wish I knew why.

Each store sells something different.
Everything is so complicated.
Now you'r dragging me to a room.
The walls are white, so is everything else.
I'm scared,
I wish I knew why.

There is people all around.
There is about to be a show.
You're so excited.
Why are we here?
They herd us into a room
Now everything is red.
I'm terrified now,
I wish I knew why.

The show begins, it's magical and fantastical
there is magic and tricks.
"Now for our final act!"
Oh ****, what's this..?
We all clap, what's about to happen?
"We need only one, and i choose you"
A light shines on you and they come and take you.
I cry and freak out, you need to come back.
I wish I knew why.

"These people they arn't okay!
They want your soul!"
How i know this, I will never know
I see there portal and I jump in.
You're lying on a bed,you're ******* and strapped
"They are comming for you,
they are going to eat you,
they are all vampires. Please baby
let's go."
I wish I knew why.

I grab a magic wand and I speek words
I can't recall.
Now we are back in time, it's just me and you.
I remeber that day,
why are we here.
I wish I knew why.

It's a dance, for school that is.
You ask me to come outside.
I follow you out when a car comes flying past.
We have to help.
We run and stop the car just in time.
Someone comes running we saved the day.
"Hey it's time, time to watch the show."
You look at me excited to go.
I wish i knew why

"Maybe we shouldn't go"
I hate to beg and plead
"But i really need to see"
Thats all you have to say to me
"Why, it's just some horrifying
vamps!"
I scream and shout

You look at me weird, and start to walk off.
But because i love you, I follow real close.
I watch the show and you had a good time.
They didn't choose you and you were just fine.
I wish I knew why.

I'm ****** back into that portal ,
and the world reviels it's secrets
back in the day when you wanted to see them
you didn't, i stopped you
and now your dead.
When i went back I changed that fact.
Now you're mine, you were supposed to be mine.

She likes dressing my whisky bottle.
What kind of euphamisim is that?
You left a ******.
It's warm.
When I do this you don't feel anything.
Is this gay?
If you had a ***** it would be gay.
It's hebrew.
Why do we play?
That's what she said.
The buttholes because it's uncomforitable.
Unless you'r a Jahova's Witness.
But some of them do, and it's weird.

It's hard not to cry
When all I wanna do is **** myself
It's hard to not show my pain
Each and every single day
It hard to know you don't understand
I wish you did
I wish you did

I cut myself to see the blood
I hurt my self to feel something else
It ***** so bad when it's not enough
I wish it was
I wish it was

It hurts your  feelings
so you hurt mine
i love you to death
thats why i'm ready to die
tomorrow is a never
today has gone by
goodbye my dear love
it was a fun ride

We all start the same,
a ***** and a egg.
Then we are born.
Some are shaped and molded
made to perfection
never to be folded.
But some are like me,
we shape ourselves.
We hate those people,
who get put on shelves.
But deep down inside,
I wish I was molded.
Not folded and turned
I wish I was a trophy
to show on the shelves.

I just wanna give up.
Say **** this love and shake it off.
You never give me your all.
and all I ever want to do is fall,
in love again.
I've lost my heart...
You stole it.
Well i gave it.
Now i regret it.
I hate what you have made me.
Do you even care?
Do you even know,
Know I am who I am
because of you...
Some times i wish i never met you.
I hate you
You disgust me.
My rage inside makes me cry.
And you only care about your self.

It hurts so bad,
I know I ****** up.
I'm sorry Justin....

My heart feels empty.
You left me
You're gone.
I'm sorry Justin...

I didn't mean to break your heart.
Please take me back.
Please forgive me
I'm sorry Justin...

My heart has blown up.
I'm screaming your name
I'm beggin god PLEASE help me..
I'm sorry justin...

The love i have for you,
it's so ******* strong.
The thought of life with out you.
Every ******* thing is going wrong!
I'm sorry Justin...

I hope you can forgive me.
I hope you can turn the other cheek.
I'm sorry justin, please come back to me.

I'll never forget the first time we met.
you cried,
i awed
and the world stopped.
I held you in my arms
i tried not to cry
but you showed me life
you showed me love
behind those hazel eyes
you drive me crazy
you give me hope
you make me see everything
i love you so
my darling, my bently
my bupy roo
your smile melts hearts
and i know one day
you will be trouble
but untill then,
your small enough for me to hold in my arms
your sweet enough to get what you want
thank god that you can not walk
but i will love you no matter what.

Fighting for a reason to get out of bed
To get out of my head
And to touch the ground
I'm swallowing myself whole
If i dont get up now
There is no turning back
The world has giving me lots of reasons to smile and be seen
But none of thoes reasons are the ones that I need

Yellow is your color
To bad your not mine
You're dancing around in my head
I wish u would just go home
Nothing makes since
The pain hurts to much
Red is my color
To bad I'm not yours

I wish, I wish, upon a star
that cinderella, snow white
and magic was real.

I wish, I wish upon a star
that prince charming
would sweep me off my feet.

I wish I wish upon a star
that i would have a happy ending.

I wish I wish upon a star
that I could really wish upon a star
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It's easy to be yourself
It's hard work to be beautiful,
Desired or even ****
I just, one day, want to be
All of those things
It breaks my heart that I can't be that for you

"Days like these r the days I love. High and with people I love no worries in the world. "

Florida in 2 weeks 
Scared feelings of forgetfulness 
Life is great 
Will there be better
Will they stay
In the touch of a cloud like today
Tommorow is new
Yesterday is far away
Days in todays always stay
Forever is a never 
A excuse to pervers men
Yet tomorrow is new
Don't stop 
Chug chug like a train

You're beauty
I'm the beast
I wish you would come save me...

Hello there.
Are you still here?
I can hear you.
where did you go?
Hello there?
is that blood all around?
ARE YOU OKAY?
why aren't you makeing any sounds?
I'm scared now...
come out please.
Where did all the lights go?
please come out. i'm so scared now?
why are you playing games?
Hello There?
Please answer me..
did you die?
Did i die?
Is this me?
Hello there...
please answer...
....
....
....
To be continued...

I still can't get over the fact that you said goodbye.
All those tears I cried.
All those wounds I have cut.
I never felt enough.

Yea i get it, your new family is better.
But i am your blood,
your youngest daughter.

I was daddy's little girl.
You were my hero.
I remeber when we saw Rob Zombie
That's one of my favorite memories.
I'll never forget...

I'm sorry I said those words.
Got ****** and shouted back.
But your new wife daddy,
she's got some loose nuts.

5 years later daddy,
you have missed so much.
The first boy i kissed,
The first time i cried,
over some stupid guy...
You missed so much, you missed
my life..

I get a call from my grandma,
She says your dying.
I can't believe this,
I'm the only one you want to see.
I always knew you still loved me.

I get there and I ****** up,
i disobeyed her rule,
DON'T BRING YOUR, GRANDMA, YOUR MOM. ONLY BRING YOU!
Now there dragging me down the hall.
I'm screaming no daddy no!
Please let me explain,
Please don't make me go...

You tell me i can't see you again,
that was the last time.
and no I'm dying..atleast not for a while.

I drown my sorrows in drinks and fun.
I try my damdest to forget about what you've done.
Then one day while i was at work.
You walk thru the door, i thought i was berserk.
I start to cry, no this isn't true.
My daddy has come back.
I run to you.

You tell me you found God and
you left your wife.
You tell me the docs say
you've got 4 years left of life.

Things are  really good now,
you moved back to town.
you come to my work
Just to clown around.

Then one day...
The visit start to fade.
You have been so busy.
I feel like i am in your way.
Then the next thing i know,
you're back with your wife.

I support you in hopes you
won't leaveme again
I should have learned the first time,
but i never will

I named my son after you,
and now your gone again.
you're going to miss his first words
his steps,
his laugh.
You're going to miss his life.


Do you even care that i miss you dad?
I really hope she is better then that.....

Oh Sunshine,
They all told me not to be with you.
They told me you were a gateway to bad things.
I found out one day in my car...
They lied to me!
You're amazing.
You take me to new places.
I've seen so many things.
You even saved my life once when I was 19...
I love you so much.
Thank you for showing me the truth.
Oh ****, dear ****.
xoxo
-Becca D.

Pinky, thumb, pinky, thumb.
1, 2, 3.
1,2,1,2,1,2.
That's the O.G. ****.
We make it rain.
I got rained on for the very first time!
He is the ******* sponser.
It's time to sing a country song.
I just wanted to slap you.
He walks the line.
The warmer the whiskey, the more delicious.
Don't pour mine on the table.

I never knew, I never knew.
You were leaving,
never comming back..

I never knew, I never knew.
that when you said goodbye,
it would be for the last time.

I never knew, I never knew.
how to love anyone else
I though, it was you.

I never knew, I never knew.
That you had died that night.
I just thought you didn't love me anymore.

I never knew, I never knew.
You were on your way home.
You were going to say sorry.

I never knew, I never knew.**
and now i never will....

She wakes up.
It's early in the morning.
The baby is crying,
yet he lays there asleep.
This happens all the time.
Her son is a sweet baby,
but she dosen't understand why he never helps.
She wants to sleep in.
She wants to rest.
It's out of the question.
They say home is where the heart is.
She says her heart is inside those hazel eyes.
almost everyday she questions,
would she even be here if those words
"i'm pregnant"
ever came out of her mouth.

I am a single mom
even though his father lives with me
we love each other
we sleep in the same bed
but i am alone
always gone
either business
or pleasure
always here
i never leave...
alone
alone
      *Alone

My fear inside...
Rips through my flesh.
It's brings my deamons right out of my chest.
I can hardly breath.
My hands start to shake.
I wish I could get out of theses chains.
My hearts beating fast.
I have no escape.
Please God ,someone help me.
I can feel it, this dismay.
I'm up on stage.
Everyone can see me.
I can hear them,
they are all talking trash.
Makeing me feel like a discarded ash.

I just can't take it anymore
this feeling
its driving me
your driving me
i hate you
all you do is leave
"be home later"
i'm left  here
with OUR son
it pains me
i hate this
i'm so lonley
you have fun
I'm not involved
do you even
love me
it's hard
not to cry
i really wanna
die...
i wish you
would just stay
stop leaveing me
or i'm gone....

I can feel my heart breaking.
It happens all the time.
Your words stab right through me.
You won't ever understand why.
I wish you would just let me be
Because when my heart starts breaking
I cant seam to get ahold me
I can feel it breaking
Shattering like glass
What am i to do when you
....
When i cant fix it anymore
When all of our problems spill out on the floor
Will you feel regret on the day that I left
Or will you say goodbye like we never even met

Sitting all alone
Bored to all hell
Watching shobitz tonight
Especially  knowing this isn't right
How is it right to obsess about strangers
People we watch or see on movie posters
These poor people have no private life
I guess that's what you get
When you sell your soul
To the
LIGHTS
CAMERA
ACTION!!!

A b c d e f g
**** this poem
I wish it was more interesting....

around the corner.
underneath  the table
it lays it waits
it speeks to me
when you see it dont run
stay and play
keep it warm
feel its power
understand it's love
don't be afraid
take it in
i want you to stay

As a child, i was always a shadow.
My sister always got my light.
I always tried so hard to be like her.
so my head hung low.
I was looking for a reason to fight.

I was never enough

As a teen, i was invisible.
Walking through the halls.
My mom told me i was crazy,
but the truth of it all....
i just wanted to die.

i was never enough.

I lost my father to a family he loved more.
My first true love found some new girl.
the pain inside me, caused me to cut.
yet even then...

I was never enough.

As a adult, I'm controlled like a animal.
Do this, do that!
If i don't i get a wrath
I do my best, im a mother and thats my job.
At the end of the day

I was never enough

One day when I'm gone,
One day when i die.
Someone will remeber me and think...

You were enough, I love you, good bye

I will never forget,
the first time we met.
Your eyes were blood shot red.
Your best friend was my pet.

You were so cute, and funny.
I secretly wanted you to be my honey.

Now we are so much more.
You drive me crazy,
but you will always be my baby.
My heart belongs to you.

I am so happy that when you walked through that door.
Your best friend introduced you as

JOHN HOLMES JUNIOR :)

A summers day will never compare to the feeling of when you touch me
The warmth of our souls when we connect
The feeling I get when you hold me
Kiss me
Love me
No words can describe how my heart beats for you
If you listen closely it will speak to you
But only if you listen with yours

Why can't you hear me?
Pain hurts most when it's deep down.
The cigarette smoke that fills my lungs
Makes me happy because it kills me.
It ***** to get pretty and not leave the couch.
It ***** to be unhappy,
And you're not allowed to explain why..

She stood there for over a hour
people walking by
all she wanted was for someone to say hello
that little word..
it could mean so much
exspecially to someone so small
her tears started running
its like a marathon on her face
still everyone walks by
not a speck of worry
not even a trace
she takes one more step
she's close to the edge
there is no turnning back
she can never go back
she freezes just standing there
so close
so close....
is it possible that the world has stopped?
her heartbeat is all she hears
She forgots about her worries
she have no pain
no fears
for a moment she is happy
and then she forgot to breath
that jump wasnt so bad
could this be a dream
she sinks to the bottom
her body hasnt moved
but then the next thing she knows
you're takeing her from the blue
you scream her name
whisper your love
her heart belong to you once
you told her she wasn't enough....

I'm a devil I'm here to take your soul
I'm immortal, I can't fall in love
Ten moons from now I will take you with me
I never thought you'd be my everything
I've fallen in love
But I'm out of time
Goodbye my love
Here take my soul
When you wake up ...
I will be gone

The darkness surrounds me
Swallows me whole
I sit and watch as the lights go by shimmering hopes and dreams going by one by one
They never knew I was here
Neither did i
As I'm lost in this place of the unknown
By body and soul have froze
Turning days into weeks
Forgetting what the outside world looks like
Wondering if the smell of the trees are the same
Or the color of the dandelions
My head is a comfortable place
But i wish i could escape.

What's a liar
well that would be you
why say that?
well thats a simple fact
your a liar
and thats that...

I miss the days
When I didnt have to fake a smile