A heart like mine.. is a tune I play in my head, for I try to protect it's every beat cause every day it's grows weak. A couple years have gone by after gluing back the piece's of it been broken well more Like torn apart. I hid from all life's obstacles cause I knew it couldn't take what was truly out in the world before me. Staying hidden for so long caused my heart to grow cold as ice. For if I felt I bit of excitement I would have to wind it or my life span would just stop. It's said when you've grown so cold that love would be the death of you. So I put up this barrier and treated others as if they had no true meaning to them. My nights grew long and dark just like I enjoyed it but still it was a part of me that longed for someone to just hold me... So  I watched you for a while not sure if you noticed me back. But once my attempts became unnoticed.. I walked away with not even a simple glimpse. You finally approached me with a goofy way of saying hello. Intrigued me with conversation which most lacked and was lost. You won me over eventually and my heart became a warm thump in my chest. For I knew I was alive again cause at first.. I just felt death. I loved you with my all. I loved you with my soul. To only have it ripped out by the man who actually made me whole.. the heart I once began to feel beat again is breaking apart from my soul. And only one more tear will end it all for my heart has once again grown weak and cold.. and no need to wind the clock cause that too has gotten old..

LOVE is a word so often used by those that truly think they feel it or even know what the meaning of it really is.. LOVE is a word that men/women use to let someone know that they're sorry after doing wrong for forgiveness or use it to eventually get what they want by using the most powerful and strong word of them all..LOVE..
    I was once told that HATE was the most powerful word of them all, until I was told the Words I LOVE YOU.. by someone I trusted and LOVED deep down into the core of my soul betrayed and used me for their on selfishness.
 LOVE is now a simple word that I now know gets misused.. Taken for granted and thrown around like a helpless rag doll not having any meaning non what so ever. So the Simplicity of LOVE is a term meaning.. Meaningless love.. Non existing.. Forever forgotten.. For my soul has now been lost believing in such a thing as LOVE... SIMPLICITY LOVE.

Take me on a trip and set my mind free.. watching all the waves as if I'm care free.. my spirit is on high as I leave all my worries behind.. sailing on this love ship to a place beyond our own imaginations. Our love will be far beyond the sea as we sail on the Atlantis.. The song says you'll come back to me but you're already here and here is where you'll stay.. my love for you is strong as if you have on a stray jacket trying to get free. But you'll rather stay trapped just to stay next to me.. Let's set sail on this Voyage to Atlantis.. watching the waves while setting  our worries free.. set sail with me and find an island that's stress free.. I'll always be there for you.. I'll always sail the Atlantis with you.. I'm your lady now and forever.. promise we'll stay together and never say our last goodbyes for we'll search for paradise out in the sea.. Sailing this Voyage to the Atlantis

There's no such thing as loyalty if there's no togetherness.. There's no such thing as communication, if there's no one listening nor trying to speak.. There's no such thing as love, if no one is willing to give their heart.. There's no such thing as you and I... cause some one decided to be no one to me...

Am I crazy to still have feelings and thoughts of a lost love that I know will never return to me in this life time. Just only in my dreams or when I sit and imagine that you're here with me.. My heart feels as tho its been snatched out my chest and stabbed numerous of times to only bleed the tears that my eyes can no longer share... My belly has a surprise that neither one of us expected.. but now that this miracle has approached I don't know rather to accept it or deny it's request.. my mind is all over the place with emotions of such hate for you but yet my mind wants me to continue to love you.. I'm in this mental battle with myself so how the hell could I lose.. Reality kicked in.. (I already Have).. Nights of loneliness.. Days of Desperation. . Weekends with a bottle or two just to drink all my sorrows away.. Back to day one when the ******* weekday comes.. This is an ongoing cycle that I truly want to overcome... But how.. when I'm always seeming to be missing you.. listening to music we use to make love to.. watching videos we made and listen to how you brought laughter to me.. Tears want to fall but I'm too angry for that... I give up.. drip drip is the noise I begin to hear.. I'm leaking all my worries away but yet I know they'll all come back again.. So until tomorrow I'll just lay and pretend that you're next to me, to only fall asleep and keep my mind from wondering. Cause right now my mind and heart has no beginning nor end.

I played myself yet again lending out a heart that I wasn't ready to lose. I allowed you to come in when I knw that the feelings I had were premature but I let you in anyway.. your body, your smile, your smell they all had me mesmerized with pure lust.. your tall stature was so alluring that it had me completely gone in the head.. the way you looked at me made me melt on the inside and when I rubbed you.. I quivered with much excitement. I got the man of my dreams the man that all women seek.. look at me.. but dnt envy me was the ego I had.. to only get knocked off the high horse I was on by the man whom I felt so deeply for that had my ego so swollen.. You played me, you used me and toyed with my heart knwing all I've been thru way before you.. I trusted you.. I believed in you.. I even asked you to marry me.. and got your name tattooed in my heart.. Oh how this is such a nightmare I want to awaken from.. but I knw this isn't a dream.. I still pinch myself cause I'll rather bruise myself than to have another take that part.My only question is what exactly did I do to deserve this pain and the way you have now began to ignore me.. Why hurt the one who loves you, but chase the one who abuse you.. I've yet to feel the love of a man so geniune so pure.. only the fake love from an imposter who only takes.. My world has turned upside dwn and it's all because of you.. my nights grow long with memories of you.. my days become faded from wanting you and my mind is going crazy cause I can't seem to forget you. Why does a heart hold on to such pain when the person who has done the hurting is happy and long gone living their life.. ****!!Smfh.. this love life of mine is tragic.. I give up due to being a hopeless, loveless romantic.

Star Light, Star Bright wishing on a star tonight.. That my mind and that my soul comes to peace with those I know. My heart grows weary my mind never knows whoever I will meet whomever will ever go. I wish upon the star I see while gazing in the nightly sky.. which seems so dark with little light but all the stars are shining bright. I close my eyes to make a wish upon the star that shines on me.. that one day I'll find the peace I need to conquer all this negativity. I need a pure heart I need to be stress free.. I need someone to actually hold on to me... Star Light.. Star Bright I'll make my wish tonight I wish I could I wish I might wish upon the first star I see tonight.

For as far as I can remember I've been going thru so much hurt, so much pain... That only a night filled with a soaked pillow from which my eyes filled with tears that flowed dwn the cheeks of a woman who has a inner demon that's ready to unleash and punish all whom have caused her pain.. Ppl tell me things but yet their actions don't compare.. I look at them with anger but keep a silent tongue, cause if they knew the words I wanted to say.. they wouldn't be able to handle the raft of my rage.. I've been hurt in so many ways that the soft spoken person, caring person that I once was is now gone and sleeping within me that I dnt knw what or how I can awaken her.. maybe I need that one person to come and make her magically appear, or maybe it's gonna take some deep meditation on my own to bring her forth. But I'm afraid that this person I've become is holding my inner beauty hostage and is not willing to allow her to come forth ever again. I've been waiting for so long to be loved that it has now just become a laughing matter that my evil side just smirk and grin upon saying.. **** love it'll never come so just let it be.. I still have moments when the beauty inside me voices out but is still trapped to where she can't come out. So she sleeps now within me while the other person lingers on.. Who has the heart or the strength to awaken my sleeping beauty.. for I have grown weak and can no longer fight.. the other person I have become!

Met someone who was all that I dreamed in a man.. filled me with laughter that I haven't experienced in a while... touched me with such gentle hands and whispered such sweet words, that I started to feel myself floating as if I was already in love.. time after time we spent together... moment after moment how we enjoyed one another. Endless text and childish giggles we both receive.. How I'm enjoying him and he's enjoying me.. Minutes turns to hours as hours turn to days.. Things seem to slunder things seem to change. Attitudes come forward.. assumptions bring on rage.. make up *** is what we wanted.. **** how we made each other feel some type of way.. He started acting funny.. I started not to care.. I did what I did cause I wanted he did what he did just to play.. when it all boarded dwn to nothing all I can truly say.. when you think you've found what you wanted.. hell it's truly an illusion anyway!

Let me grab you by your hand and slowly walk you into my lovers den.
Red and white rose peddles lead the way to where it all begins.
Scented candles smelling so good makes your senses spin.. with ****** visions of me sexing you.
I grab you close, you hold me tight.. our lips connect our tongues egnite.. You rub your fingers down my spine.. my eyes roll back.. You kiss my neck, and pull my hair back. I Grip your back and rub my lips across your pecks.. You slide my strap off and I help with the next... You begin to undress, but I said take it slow we have all night... I lay you down and rub oil all on you... you looking up wanting to **** on my supple breast. Your brown eyes glow as we start to connect.. you ask to go down, I'm not one to reject. Your tongue feels so good as it and my **** connects... What a big surprise.. I'm *******.. Now I'm soak and wet... You ask to dive deep but I'm still not ready yet.. So you take it slow and kiss my soft lips.. My body inner parts start to explode.....I'm ready, so I snatched off your draws.. you slowly go in and grind with a motion so strong, my body begins to shake... you had to grab my az to take control.....I'm grabbing you... you loving me... I'm moaning Ooooo... you saying Rose I love you... I bite your ear and lick it too... you're so turned on.... You turn me around and began to eat again, my juices so sweet you smack with each slurp too good to even wipe your mouth. You hit it from behind and turn my head to look deep into my eyes.. I'm even throwing it back just the way my baby likes... I get on top and ride you like the best I am... you begin to moan.. yea I like the sound of that ****.. before you *** I lean over and say.... Let me love you down just like this.
ALWAYS

I stand there in a dark room wondering where I am.. afraid of the dark and the weird  noises that I hear from afar... My mind begins to race feeling as if I'm bout to pass out.. I'm searching for some light.. but my feet are planted in one spot.. I began to let out a scream, but too afraid not truly knowing what's out there.. so I just stood there in deep thought.. let out a sigh and a tear dropped. How did I get here.. how did I end up in this spot.. where it seems so secluded and yet it's so very dark.. where are all the ppl.. where has everyone gone? Why am I the only one here.. but then I thought... your heart has been broken and it's taking your mind to a dark spot... in order to get out this place place you have to let go to see the light... stop lingering on the past for it has made you bitter inside.. for now until you let go.. your mind will stay on the dark side.

(Man meets woman, Woman meets man)
       Man: How are you beautiful?
   Woman: I'm blessed handsome!
     Man: Wondering if I could get to know you?
Woman: Of course
           (Beginning Of Relationship)
Woman: I've been hurt before so I'm very guarded of my heart and feelings.
Man: I'll never hurt you baby, I'll cherish and love you like the angel you are!!
Woman: I hope so!!
Man: Dnt hope baby believe it
Woman: Ok baby
Man: I got you boo!
                      (Months Later)
Woman: Baby you seem distant is everything ok?
Man: I'm good
Woman: You sure?.. Is there anything you wanna talk about?
Man: Nah I'm str8
Woman: Ok boo (Sighing)
                   (Same Night)
Woman: Hey babe where you at?
Man: With my *****
Woman: Okay boo can't wait for you to get home, got a surprise for you!!
Man: Aight
Woman: (Sighing)& (Thinking)
                    (Early Morning)
Woman: Bae we need to talk
Man: Bout what?
Woman: About us boo
Man: What about us?!
Woman: Things dnt seem the same. You really acting different.
Man: It's all in your head.. I love you gurl (Kiss her forehead)
Woman: Ok boo (Blushing)
                    (Week Later)
Man: Bout to roll over to my ***** house.
Woman: How long you gonna be gone boo?
Man: Bruh I dnt knw what's up?!
Woman: Dang I just asked cause I wanted us to go out and have fun.
Man: I'll be busy handling some business mane!!
Woman: Okay boo maybe some other time. (Thinking)
Man: Aight bruh
                       (Hours Later)
Woman: Hey boo what's up, what you doing? (CALM)
Man: Bruh told you I'm kicking it with my *****.
Woman: Which one?
Man: Tony bruh.. Why? What's up?!
Woman: LOL
Man: What's so **** funny mane?!
Woman: TELL THAT *** I SAID HEY AND AS FOR YOU COME GET YOUR ****!!!
Man: WHAT?! BRUH WHAT THE ******* TALKING BOUT?! MANE I AIN'T GOT TIME FOR THIS PETTY **** BRUH GONE ON.. ***** CNT EVEN KICK IT WITH HIS ***** WITHOUT BEING ACCUSED OF CHEATING..
Woman: LOL... Hold on.. Hold that thought. (CALM)
Man: H..E..L..L...O
Tony: Hey bruh where you at??? Thought your az was at home I came thru
Man: D..A..M..N!!!!!!
Woman: LOL.... BUSTED BRUH!!!!! COME GET YOUR ****!!!!..LOL
Man: (**** faced)!!!

**** the word love. It brings a sour taste to my mouth just to say it... **** love cause love can get a person hurt or killed and it's the main cause of broken heart syndrome....**** the word love cause when most say it they dnt mean it, but say it cause it sounds good to them.... **** love cause it makes you cry, makes you have mixed emotions you never thought you could or would have.... **** the word love cause it had been misused by ppl for so many years that no one really knows the true definition.... **** love cause I'm tired of giving it out just to have myself looking stupid in the end.... **** the word love cause after a person hurt you that's the first word they use to sugar coat it, but still end up hurting you again..... **** love cause love doesn't suppose to hurt. but seems to be the only thing that's hurt me thus far!!!

Wish I could have another again to start what we use to have over again... Wish I had a remote to were I could rewind back to that night we had our first kiss and we told each other goodnight....Wish I could go back and pause on the moment in my head when I first cried and you wiped my tears and told me you loved me and would never hurt me....Just want another again to be the woman in your life, but I know that fate has taken your attention into another direction and all that we had only seems like drama or seems to be a nightmare you've waken up from and never want to explore again.. But even though we had our hard times I always prayed for another and another and each time I prayed for it to be the best and it would go on for forever... I know that my another again isn't the kind I dreamed of, but only another broken heart and many tears that I cry... Just ask that you remember me and dream that you had another again with me for just one night with only you and I happy and smiling, and remembering the love we had.. And when you awake you can go back to your normal life... But just do that and I'll meet you there... That's all I ask is for another again to sleep peacefully dreaming about you and I.....Another Again!

2am in bed thinking of nothing but you... Listening to the rain as it hits my Window and the sound of Thunder making me *****.. So I'm wondering if I should call you, so I reach for the phone and call but no answer... I get in my car with nothing but my silk ******* and bra on and make it to your house...The rain is pouring and my body is glistening from my glitter lotion and water and my long black hair dripping.. I ring the door bell twice and you finally come... ( thunder roar) I slam you on the hood and snatched off your clothes you picked my body up and sat me on the truck and entered your ***** all inside my ***** as it drips with juices so sweet to the taste.. you pull my hair and ****** hard but I'm keeping up so I pump harder... the thunder is music to this passion as we ****... you kissing me I'm biting you and scratching your back.. you **** my lip and grip my ****.. once we *** I get up and kiss you and walk away and you watch me driving.. thinking what did she just do to me..... I wasn't Ready...lol

I need loooove... Somebody to touch me... Somebody who wants to be with Meeeeeeee only.

I need loooove...Somebody to hold me, tell me that they love me, never gonna let me go!

I need someone who's someone.. Who's fair and who cares.. Someone who's there!!!

You never know how much you hurt until you feel that pain deep down in your abdomen.. the pain that's so sharp that every single breath makes it difficult for you to gasp for oxygen. My chest has this pain that aches with every thought of you.. so when I'm alone a tear drop falls from my eyes... I'm strong so I hold back a few!

Words cut a person deep, so deep that you'll feel like dying soon.. but knowing there's all ways better days I just smile from all the good things I thought about you.. reminiscing about how we use to have fun made me shed a few tears and actually they came down like a water fall. That my lashes mended together and my eyeliner ran, but at that moment I truly didn't give a ****!

Nine words you said to me made me feel some type of way... never thought I could hate someone the way that I now hate you babe.. you toyed with me and brought fuckery into my life, but in the end you claim that I frustrated you and dnt even try to put up a fight to keep me in your life..

Men only leave you when they've found someone else new... they play with you and you're their puppet till they're actually thru.. Now anger starts to kick in and you're thinking all these evil thoughts..

So instead of wishing bad things.. I just lay here and go deep into thought...

I'll never again allow what happened take place again... so to make my self feel better I'll rather lose thought of you and cry one last cry!!!

You're gonna regret being as hateful as you are.. with your I dnt give a **** attitude and saying I'm only trying to become a man.

I helped you maintain a sense of pride but yet you forgot it and wanted to stomp on my heart instead..

Some say you dnt miss what you had till its gone...well baby miss me cause I'm out... if you want to remember take a picture cause it'll last longer than the love you gave and took back with cha...

But why am I worried cause I know how this will all play it self out..

You gonna wait and wait until you done doing you and try to run right back into my arms...

But this woman here will be long gone.. I love you and always will. But I bet you gonna regret cha ever left me saying what you did...

You call me I come running but it's like I'm in a maze, trying to find where you are but with every step your voice slowly drift away...

I'm thinking that I'm near you but these **** walls keep getting in my way, preventing me from seeing you.. and touching you what's going on why are things happening this way.

You scream out a lil louder and tell me to follow your voice, but every time I go the direction something comes between me and my path... you start to cry out for me telling me you can no longer wait...

For you're tired and weak and your heart has basically taken all it can take...
I yell out just wait a lil bit longer for I'm trying to find my way..

But I hear you whimper in the distance saying time is not in both our fates...
I'm pleading for you to be strong cause I know I can't be too too far away...

But your voice seems to get lower with every second while I'm lost and so lost and can't find my way....

I begin to get weak and tears began to roll down my face... begging you pls dnt leave me for I'm coming pls just wait..

You whispered you loved me and stated everything was gonna be ok...

I broke down that **** mirror to the maze and ran to you with a very quick pace... but only to hear a long beep once I made it....
**** I was to late!!!!

My body fell to the floor and my tears began to flow and when I looked into the shattered mirror I was actually running to myself... and the last breath I did take........

Situations come and situations go but they'll linger if not handled properly...

Situations kills moods situations ends friendships and cause ppl to become real distant.

Situations cause hurt situations cause stress but only you can figure out the answer

Situations happen once situations happens twice.. situations happens all thru our lively hood...

Situations make life hard if you harbor them for long, so let go and begin to deal with the situation...

For I stay prayed up and keep my faith real high and know that my God will handle.....

ALL MY SITUATIONS!!!

I'm only human tho I do tend to make mistakes... but dnt drag me thru the mud nor drive a dagger thru my heart just today...

Allow me sometime to show you that I can change all wrong that I may have done.. the first is truly admitting it and next the rest shall come...

Being perfect is something that we as ppl have a problem with trying to be, so I'm just being honest I'm just plain ol regular me...

Never have been one to be cocky, never one to be a *****, but I do know I can get a bit rowdy when times get hard and that's really the true story of this bid..

No I can't change back the hand of time, but I can only just ask for one wish... and that's if you'll accept my apologies and understand I'm Only Human

My lullaby is a dream song so sweat, dreaming of a night with a man laying on nothing but satin sheets. Red rose peddles on the bed leading a path to a hot bubble bath... with scented red candles with a aroma that makes your love buds swell...

Mello music plays in the back with champagne bubbling in the glass... you take me by the hand and say let me lead the way... your body dark chocolate, your hair black with deep waves, your eyes so seductive ******* me in every way... I'm just ready for you to just touch me so my lullaby can begin to play...

Baby oil soft water is what you bathed me in so sweet... dried me off really gentle then swept me right off my feet, carried me to the candle lit room where you laid me upon the satin bed... you rubbed lotion on me and began to kiss softly and whispered do you trust me, if so dnt be scared..

My body motion gave in without hesitating as I allowed you to take me to another world I closed my eyes and thought about nothing but sweet nothings and enjoyed the moans from my perfect but oh so needed lullaby...

Tell me you love me as if there was no tomorrow.  
    Feeding me words that tend to end all worries and sorrows.

Reminiscing on things that made me love you. Manifesting on thoughts on how I should never forget you. Prolonging my heart as the mind sleeps deep, wanting you near but it seems like we're separated by a deep blue sea.

For I can only send a bottle to confess my love for you. With the letter written on silk from my dress I ripped so you can pretend to feel me next to you.

Wishing that I'm holding you. And caressing your mind with words that'll sooth you. While the moonlight shines and the water glisten so bright I can only see a star and wish it was you so I could whisper goodnight.

Tho it seems that you're far but in my heart you'll stay. For I'm longing to hold you but tomorrow seems so far far away.

So never forget me for I'll wait to exhale, and if you truly adore me try to make sail.. if you don't know the way the moonlight will shine bright so continue to follow the stars and they'll lead you to me through the night.

You ask me to come over so that you can ******* sweetness, I rush right over smelling like Roses and honey and my glitter body lotion has me glistening.

You open the door to me wearing nothing but a red thong and red pumps, with my jet black hair covering nothing but my dark chocolate *******.

You grab me close to you and kiss my full red lips, as you begin to play with my **** I say just take me and dnt hold back... you put me against the wall and down to the floor goes my thong and you begin to travel south and tasted my valley low...

I began to shiver as my juices came down as a river as you twirled your tongue and gave a lil tickle with your finger...Ooooo I'm starting to shake more as you threw me on the floor and laid your strong body on my and thrusted your man hood all up in me..

I began to MOAN as you began to grind... you turned me over on my stomach and started to hit me from behind... I Love for you to pull my hair and pump me hard as I skeeted all on the floor... You arched my back even more so I could feel you....Ooooo baby give me more!!!!!

You didn't want  to *** so you began to eat you some and my MOANS came on even louder... you played with my breast and did a trick with your tongue and **** (explosion) ...my bad baby you didn't get to ***....lol

I sit here thinking to myself trying to figure out why I even bothered, you made it clear just as of yesterday that the love I had for you. Your love didn't even follow.

I'm sick and tired of all these stupid name callings as if your words don't truly hurt.. I'm sick and tired of you pointing your finger and doing so leaves all kinds of bruises and marks on my heart.

Why must you sit here and act as if you're so prefect... for God only made one man free of sin and he is Jesus so why you sitting up here tripping... you're not no saint nor have you lived without doing something, that would cause you to hurt someone real deep... for I'm sick and tired of your constant bickering and acting like you haven't done Sxxxx...

Well ain't no sense in me crying or no sense in me fussing cause all the words you said are now stuck in my head... so when you get here and you think you coming just turn your *** around cause I'm truly and clearly sick and tired of YOU!!!

Should have let go when my mind told me to and heart wasn't truly in it. Cause when you walked out the door my heart followed in right behind you.

Never thought that my heart could hurt this bad, never thought I would cry so many tears. Never thought that our love would come to this, thought our love was never ending.

Some say that I'm crazy for even loving you. Some say it was only for a season. But when I tell them how I felt for you, I make it known I loved you from the very beginning.

You made me laugh, you made me smile and even made me feel a certain way when you were up in it... never felt a feeling so good that makes you think about it all day, but you did and I'll never forget it.

Just wish that things could be like a fairy tale when we'll live happily ever after.. but only you know which way you should go and you chose to exit out the front door.

I should have let go when my mind told me to and my heart wasn't truly in it... cause you willed me back in and left me all alone... Now I sit here looking like WTH just happened?!!!

Infatuated is me, infatuated is we, infatuation for the both of us as we celebrate the love that we both receive.

Two of a kind we are, as our hearts multiply...excited about all the tricks and treats of our ****** desires

Comparing both our minds oh how it's so divine. That the love we have for each other can never expire..

Infatuated is me, infatuated is we, infatuation for the both of us as we celebrate the love that we both receive.

Communication is the key...Well at least that's what I thought. You said you wanted to converse better and that would be the end of all flaws.

You stated you wanted me to tell all, and discuss when I felt some type of way.

But when I came to you with my problems you blamed me for starting things.

You say that I like to argue, you say that I'm delusional too, you say that I'm crazy...And had the nerve to call me insecure too.

When all I ever do is give you exactly what you wanted. Which is communicate with you properly, but not argue while I'm talking.

I speak with a normal tone now, but yet you say that I'm hollering. I ask questions when I'm confused, but yet I'm as you say using assumptions.

You say let it all out instead of holding it in... when I do **** now I'm nagging!!

But I just realized after contemplating all your talking.. that you only complain, assume and point the finger, but not once have you been happy cause I gave you what the Hell you wanted!!

So if you want to communicate, learn to do it yourself. Cause now it's over and 4 yrs. Is now done and this is the case of a man not knowing how to communicate with his woman!!!

Love is like fire that burns within our hearts. It tells you all the secrets that men and women desire.

From making love all night.. to holding hands in the park.

To just simply say I love you, to see the sparks in each others eyes.

To saying I can't be without you, And being there to always hold me in the dark..

Just say that you truly need me... and I'll adore you forever more. Cause this love that I have for you is burning and I don't want to ever lose this fire in my heart.

Let me make love to your mind as I massage your temples and make your inner thoughts tingle with passion of love as you feel our two minds mingle.

Let me caress your intellectual feelings as I whisper sweet nothings daily to make your blood vessels pump with the adrenaline of all the possible maybe's

Let me daze into your eyes to get you hypnotized, that you'll see me constantly as you close your eyes for a deep sleep.

Allow your mind to wonder, as I put this on you like thunder.. Cause mind *** is the best..

Could you feel me??? Lol... I bet you wanna!

My heart is so heavy, but yet my mind is so lost.
I've loved for so many years but yet the love always desolves.
Never thought that I would feel this way, Never thought I would love again.
But as soon as I saw you standing there, I knew that one day my heart would be content.
Tried to make things happen that I felt was possible. Tried to make things work even from thoughts.
Tried to make you happy being more than you had before, but two years I was just lost.
Found out you couldn't love me like I wanted you too, couldn't love me even if you tried.
So to cover up your pain from the past lover, you just basically dogged me out instead.
My heart is so heavy, but yet my mind is so lost.
Cause after time and time of you hurting me, I kept letting you back in my heart.
I thought what we had was special, thought what we had would never end, thought that your love was genuine, but hey that was only pretend.
And now I sit here confused and dazed cause finding new stuff has started to come up.
You say that it's jokes, you say that it's all games. But when does the fun time STOP?
You see that it bothers me, you see that it hurts. But yet I'm a fool, yea that's what you thought.
As I sit here and think while writing with this ink, I'm realizing that my heart just truly dropped.
There's no love, There's no heart.. if you can't understand how I feel.
So I sit here and say that: My Heart Is So Heavy, But Yet My Mind Is Soooo Lost!