More is what I'm thinking.
More is what you're wanting
More will come soon, right?
More is coming into sight..

Waking up and being loved is my goal.
Meet a nice girl and take a little stroll.
Down a road remembered oh so well.
Look into her eyes and confess that I have fell.
Pop.
Dreams sadly stop.
Reality breaks in and starts to blur.
But I withhold the desire I prefer much more...

sometimes it's hard to tell
what music reinforces
and what it creates
inside the mind
or heart
a part
of which
one is more
exposed in the
moment, though that
may change from
note to note
depending
on the
state of
mind i find
myself in

My thoughts are haunted constantly by your face.
When I think about my foolishness, I feel like a disgrace.
Your love is gone, my heart still isn't fine.
Every thought I have is just one more sign.
Calm and cool can't always cover it.
Sometimes I just really want to quit.
The pain is gone but my love is raw.
Who will be the one to help it thaw?

More than waves, swimming is a chance to let it all out.
More than ice, buoys make it easy to lose all our doubt.
More than snow, earth helps us stand up on our own.
More than leaves, rocks hold us down so we won't end alone.
More than sand, wind takes the end to a place that's brand new.
More than gravity, what's next?  Well I guess that's up to you.

The sound of your leaving steps haunted me for so long.
I memorized the echo so I could play it back when it wasn't sounding. Months went by and I kept living my life, blending into your background. I wasn't always there. Oh no, I was empty... drained.
I swore my faithfulness and never let go; even though I knew you didn't want it anymore.
They tried to tell me but I would sound them out... listening to your steps.
I realize now how I was wrong.
But it's what I had to do.

No regrets,
Blake

She came around,
Without a sound.
I was sitting on the ground,
But now I feel I'm being crowned.
We're coming together, we're being bound.
Please stay with me, please stay around.
Let's head together,
Northern-bound

Adorn in the limelight
Bright now in despair
Cast down by the likes of two

Darkness be my sight
If no one seems to care
May karma pay his due

Let also my tears cry
Their presence a lion's roar
My future as a crow

Tell me that I can die
I don't wish to be anymore
I can't beat this alone.


Every tune is not a hit
Every stick is not to burn
Every answer is not as loud

Every second I want to quit
All the more I yearn
To see another cloud.

Waking up, I think we are,
Looking back up, at our star.
I wanted this, I always did
I think we just... overdid.
But now let's go and run again,
It'll be so great, just like back when..

whitewashed printer paper
black ink
one thousand words
a disk
some marker ink
and a piece of cardboard
are this month's shared touch

i hope this is
sufficient

step by step
hand in hand

a nice winter morning
in the tepid afternoon

two hopeful tones
one groggy, the other in tune

heading south
toward town

an empty city
full of emotion

a simmering sense
of optimism

'twas all he could ask for

A room fill of people and a heart full of hope
Pulling on my mind like a worn out rope.
Faces undistinguished prove a possibility unwon.
Thankful for sight, but tortured by the one.
The one will save me without being asked.
The one who is unseeable.  The one I just passed?
Tortured by mystery is a sad case to lead
Impossible to stop because waiting is the key.
The key to freedom, and the key to unlock.
But where is the key to this neverending clock?

Pasting all my memories onto this board I see,
Scraping off is very tough on both of you and me,
Erasing is another part, but where, oh, where could it be?

Soft lips, unspoken
Staring blank
Around again
Word by word
Replaying the scene
Dramatic
Hyperbole
No rehearsal
Pastime practice
Pastime haunting
Pastime caring
Pastime's gone.

Stay here with me.

Not my fault she says.
He can't take it, no more hurt.
"This is just a phase"
He thinks it through and starts to blurt
"Don't expect me to change my ways!"  
She stops and looks...
...and starts to revert

In the dark
In the night
Out of sight

Laying now
All alone
Not really home

Even now
Thinking how
I came to love you.

Speechless yet
You came and went
No thanks or pardoning words.

Hurting seems
A selfish means
To stop caring for others.

Regretfully so
I've come to know
Anger and strong dismay

Feelings do
Mean a lot to you
But apparently mine do not.

I'm sorry for being honest.

One day gone and another day past
The next day's promise is just as the last
No one can help or they'll make it untrue
Then break & blast and say they never knew.
Once strong means nothing, never blessed, never best
But the scars stay home and force you to address
I speak from the heart, but never can I prove
That the voices speaking now I completely disapprove.

The information’s pouring down,
But don't yet put back on that crown.
Time will determine your future move,
Until then, just let her prove.

i forgot that i loved you
maybe i wanted to?

i logged on to facebook
to look at your emoji smile
before i realized i could look at your actual smile in a picture
although the emoji seemed more genuine

i went to get a drink
i half expected to see you there
for no reason at all

Vanished, vanished, but to where?
I don't look, I just stare.
More love, more love, all around.
I'm so happy we've made a rebound!

your kisses were like sprinkles on a just-baked cupcake
which made the eggs your home
the sugar your family
the flour the nighttime
the butter your mood
the pink icing your touch
and our conversations the purple food coloring

or so i presume

Rejection is what I'm feeling,
No more love, no more healing.
Why do I have to do this?
You're the one that I miss.
My life is gone, gone with you
So much hurt... I wish I could sue..

Right and wrong
What a waste
Spreading like an awful taste
Wrong and right
Are here again
Words seem only to ascend
Right and wrong
But who really wins
Coming up on such a whim
Wrong and right
Can't stay forever
Says everyone who gives an effort
Right and wrong
Too sane to think
Or maybe not at all.

Rogue thoughts, rogue letters, rogue signs
Telling me baby just climb
Rogue voices, rouge ripples in time
Having said it all feelings collide
Rogue service, rogue settles on the shore
But maybe that's what I'm looking for
Rogue shuffle, rouge faces, rogue door
Tell me when & where, knocking wanting more
Rogue distance, rogue thieves in the dark
Say I'm too afraid or let it all work
Rogue lights, rogue mystery in the air
One life with too much care?
Rogue city, rogue everywhere around
Just really need to slow this down.

Taking chances, not looking back.
Walking into the clear blue glass.
Jumping off of my safe, warm hill.
Learning more than I ever will.
Healing what has been so haunted.
Forgetting all the things that taunted.
All these things with one big question:
Where is love's beloved mansion?

Seeing the invisible
Whatever sense that might need
Whatever door you opened
With that ****** key
Seeing the invisible
It's no the 'I' who can't agree
The honesty forever set free
To go against me with stabbing envy
Seeing the invisible
A question of reality
To whom do I hold dearest but of thee?
Cursing in the night, oh let be!
Seeing the invisible destructively.

I thought that
unconditional love
was selfless
Until i
admitted to myself
i couldn't let you go
That i
can't live without you
I think i
convinced myself
that we could only
be happy together
The truth is
happiness can be found
in many different places
And you may find it
without me
That's what broke my heart the most.

Rugged mindset
Eroding away feelings
Or maybe just joy
Either one destructive
Blown away
Bit by bit
Until what's left
Are these words

Must.
Not.
Lose.
Control.

the older i get
the less it matters
the more i see
the less it drives
the easier it gets
the more it means
the good and the bad
it's all in between

I only talk to people that I know will listen
Because a chance for love should require submission.
Maybe if things, start to form and take shape
I'll burn myself, just so there's no escape.
Dreams can help, but never do they satisfy
The yearn I have for you, and the ability to beautify
Life.  And more importantly, my mind,
Without love I seem to be more inclined
To look for meaning beyond what I knew best.
I want to love you.  I submit my request.

it's you that i've been waiting to find

but it wasn't you
present in other ways
friendly and welcoming
a smile, a hand
i wonder what you saw in me

but i was never waiting
more like recovering
more like discovering
a new life
a new town
i wonder if you were too

but i didn't find
nor you with me
no star-crossed evening
or prince at the ball
i wonder what changed



but i did find something
i want it to be you
and i'll wait

i hope that's enough.

Ringing loudly in my ear,
My body quivers full of fear.
I'm told I'm too young to start the fight;
Such statements tend to blind the light.
If I am myself, then don't misguide me.
Keep your thoughts to yourself so I can see.

Love is itching on me tonight.
The caring and the joy seem so bright.
I can't help but want it, it’s too hard to resist!
But sadly my path is covered in mist.
Life is hard, and I'm one to talk.
But don't give up; just take a walk.
Wishes can be made, and promises can be kept.
But hurting someone is hard to accept.
The world isn't bad, just full of evol.
And making everyone happy is more than an armful!
Yet love is creeping on me again.
Will it ever surpass my world back when?
It seems as though I'm enchanted by a spell.
But don't ask why; I have nothing to tell.

The scent of you is like a fall into pain.
Memories flood my mind in a rush of sweet rain
The future is bright because I've learned so much
But her skin is still flawless to every single touch.
Death I have conquered and alive I am still
Except now I'm scarred and controlled by will.
Begging in the street isn't my choice any more.
What you did to me shook me straight to the core...

I want to float away
Into the clouds of scattered grey
See the world from a new view
No worries, nothing true
Have chaos by my side
And nature be my bride
I could reclaim the wanted
Destroy the past of me unhaunted
Break the chains of happiness
Adopt the feeble loneliness
Watch the sun without control
And accept the wind as my soul

Then you shall bury me
Peacefully.

Waking up is so grand,
Like life is pulling you, by the hand.
It's not all perfect, there's room for complaint,
Sleeping can also leave a taint.
Nightmares can come and scare you to death,
But don't freak out, and don't do ****.
You'll be fine, I'll promise you that,
Just please get up and feed the cat.

i hope this snow never melts, the snow plows break down, and we spend all our time making memories
i admit that's kind of extreme.

but i don't care who i have to beg or how many people i have to pay off
these days are beautiful and i want to stay here with you

A bed of empty
A mind of want
How long until
There is no part
For now make do
For now two hearts
My trust in the love of ours.

Sometimes I wonder why
I lose the pen & paper
the focused rattle of key strokes
thinking about that next rhyme
or word pattern or wordplay
or whatever I want to write about...
why that all goes away when I'm content

Take it for what it's worth,
poetry, to me, is something to fall back on.
And somehow that's ok... normal
I wonder where those words go sometimes

Numb in the tongue
All encompassing
Hope sliced
Sauteed and served on the side
Spiced by danger
Warm but not enticed
With anger and humiliation
My trust captured and convicted
The frustration and dispersal
This is not order.
Not mine anyway.

I'm not saying that it's perfect
I'm not saying I'm correct
But I feel like what I'm saying is not something to neglect.
I know that things aren't well
I know that we need help
But I think we couldn't make it living by our lonesome selves.
I can't tell you what the answer is
Or it it will ever come
But I'll love you till the world ends even if we come undone.

you're my sunday candy
breathing christmas into each day
lighting up my smile
ever present every week
the sugar coating on my sweet life

Along this cold and broken road
I walk and hum, all alone.
Resting here is more than torture
Cause staying here extends the future...

And wishful thinking can lend its hand,
But wishful thinking can’t lead a stand...

How to escape? I have yet to found.
Screaming, I am.  But not with sound...

Broken and depressed, I was thrown in this place.
My heart holds things you can never erase.
Memories, dreams, and feelings too,
Always have a way of leading back to you...

what is it about
small talk
that seems so small

and what classifies as
big talk
or something in between

it seems that even the
small talk
impacts our lives

and likewise
big talk
sometimes never does

I think
I am
Already addicted
To tattoos

No matter how
I see them now
Can't help but be attracted

Just wait
For my
Perfect plan

Some ink
Somewhere
So soon

Twisted sense or common sense
Leave me now without defense
Try to think or try to mend
Feelings which will never end
But drift away and do descend
Cause time and change go hand in hand.

if my body was a temple
i'd have rainbow stained glass windows
there'd be one switch for all lights
and the music would never stop


if my body was a temple
i would welcome all beliefs
no one would sit alone
and everyone would be a minister


if my body was a temple
it'd be open all the time
and be known as a safe place
where you could find comfort and company each day

We don't own each other anymore
But in some ways I think we do
I hold you in the palm of my hand
An idea, so dark that it's blinding
An idea of what it's like to be with you
One so much different than our youth
But one that I often bask in
From time to time, a deadly mood
Dead inside, it feels
Feeling the need to let go
And let you love me again

You are the temporary love that will never die.

another message sent
the same one received
seen at a glance
(a flicker in your eye)
a short moment and small fingers type away
send
(hoping for a quick response)
back to writing