A year
A month
A week
A day
An hour
A minute

Any second
With you
Is great.

My, my, my, what foolish me.
I thought I could finally see.
But I guess all things come to an end,
Eventually

Blistering boundaries
Wordless worry
Lightly laying
Just you and me

Sharing stories
Of occasions
Almost abandoned
Just you and me

Kissing kids
Holding hands
Forgetting fate
Just you and me

i'm an expert
of my own mind
taking familiar faces
and carving them
with perfect personalities
that say exactly the right things
to influence & interact
better people for a better world
but only believed in by me

i'm an expert
of my own mind
spinning reality the right way
in all the wrong ways
for my own belief
filled with fiction
figments of future possibilities
probablys not prone to happen
though when they do
i know i must be
an expert of my own fate

Call me crazy, but I want to live
In a world where love is given as I give.
The fire of my passion burns as you don't know
Not even I can keep it under self-control.
And I'm not bragging, not trying to be vain,
I'm just trying to survive in the terms of being sane.
If you think I'm misguided from the truth
Then I'll tell you that love breaks the innocence of youth.
But even so I know that what is real and is fake
So sorry if I lay down but won't ever wake.

Every road I take I can never turn back.
Don't matter how hard I hurt, I follow my track.
I'm driving slow, it seems, cause I often dread
That I'll leave someone that needs to be fed.
The voices everywhere really seem to get to me,
So many things to hear, it's hard to be free.
But then again, who am I to have a voice?
I know nothing. No choice is my choice.
Yet harsh words solve nothing, I guess.
But I still go on with them, I must confess.
A man of strong measures many would say.
But God is strong too. That's why I pray.
So keep shouting on in, my mind is on mute.
Oh, and, please bury me in a suite?

Little words, big feelings, got you in a mess.
So much to love but when it don't bring success
You tend to crash and fall and burn but baby that's ok;
I feel your pain too, and I promise that I'll stay.
Meaning has no meaning in the things you never sad,
But when it comes to you and me, I think we're better in the bed.
Don't confuse me now, because it's hope that brings together,
Pretending it was charm when it was really that old letter
We would not be here, not be talkin'
All the same without the stoppin'
Just to say "Hi, how are you?" and be off
And then I realize how it is and what I really do.
I know you'll never read this but I hope that you dream too.

If wrong had a place
In the mind of the chosen
Would it destroy fate
Or disturb the future untold of?
To say we would ever know.
A lie with too dangerous upkeep
A poison too dreadful to imagine
A possible victim, too.
I could not handle
The truth or what's left
Even blinded by black.
Memory, feeling, with practical sight
Gone forever.
Which is still worse
Than losing you.

i hear the birds chirping
outside my window
late night messages
to the late night boy
in the lava lamp room

My final hour is meeting me,
Right on this corner, by the tree.
Just sitting here waiting, drinking tea.
"Please take me back" is my final plea.
If you say no, I will agree,
To finally go
Permanently

Living in this world has changed me.
But changing the world is why I'm free.
Destroying the old so new can grow.
Mighty and determined, I burn and blow.
I have meaning, just look real close.
The remains I leave bring the beauty of a rose.
My core is strong but mysterious at best.
Because in life, surviving is the test.

Some think love will always last,
But others say it’ll become the past.
But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t try
Even if you think you might cry.
Love twists and turns day by day,
But never does it truly fade away.
Now love can change as things get tough,
But no one said it had to change stuff.
For what love was ever to see,
That both of them, wanted to break free.
You can’t always feel the love that’s there,
But keep on looking, don’t let it tear.
It’ll come back, don’t end it now
Please stick with me, I’ll fix it somehow.
So now I just sit here and wait,
For you to love me, and clear the slate.

Being proud of who I am isn't my thing.
Loving others I've done before but always in vain.
And some don't like me like I wish they would.
Knowledge is my friend on some occasions.
Everything just doesn't seem to rhyme.

i find myself wandering through your thoughts
as you wander through mine
exploring the intricate paths
all the little details
and in that moment i hoped to lose my way
stuck in the lovely labyrinth of your mind

as i awoke reality shifted into gear
a process mastered though often unappreciated
(depending on the dream)
that morning i didn't remember any
but there was one thing
one that also happened to still be there
sitting up right beside me
as i took note of her outline
quickly went through the checklist of features i've come to know
(though most immaterial)



and then i fell back asleep.

the flame went out
and so did you
that's what i wanted to believe
the only one who could have started it
other than me
but some images
like the flame
or lack thereof
don't mean anything
and neither should you

the flame went out

Maybe falling fast doesn't really sound too scary
But the view when you look down can be kind of wary.
Second chances never come, and people never change,
Well baby I still love you even though you've always been strange.
And I'm sorry for confusing,
Cause what we have now I’m so scared of losing.
But every second without you is a year for my heart,
So I guess it's decided let's get up and start...

My heart may be just, but it keeps on filling.
With love by my side, I'm more than just willing.
But what is love, and even better, it's meaning?
Whatever it is, it shan't see intervening.
For without I am lost; a user with no drug.
Nothing else can compare to the almighty lovebug.

Where to go
How to be
When to show
How to please
One more step
In this direction
Clueless but
Got your attention
Good enough
Or so it seems
Happy now
But by extremes
Reality says
Nothing at all
But that's because
I don't answer it's call.

your kisses were like sprinkles on a just-baked cupcake
and boy did they fall ******* me
leaving us both breathless by the end
laying there in the dark
wishing my eyes would adjust to see yours staring back at me
wondering if you enjoyed our time together like i do
or if that was the last taste

and then you said goodnight

Goodbye loving, becoming the past
Goodbye happiness, you never last
Goodbye salvation, please save me again
Goodbye temptation, you were always a sin
Goodbye together, I'll miss you so much
Goodbye everything, keep in touch...

Love or hate
A silent fate
Beyond what most hold true.

Ignorance, wisdom
A silver lining and then some
Concepts living frayed among my mind.

Soft or hard
And bleeding scars
Rushing movement constant every single day.

Life and death
But all depress
Into stardust, ever mournful without cause.

Open or closed
A worshiped host
With little understanding of it all.

This or that
It all comes back
Till black and white collide in total chaos.

I find myself
When I awake
Every single morning.
A thought or two
And then a few
Catch up to my reality.
The world is clear
I do not fear
Whatever I may face.
Don't ask me why
Or how it's done
I simply live on top the sun.

I still can't believe what you did.
You got scared, you got rid.
Why, oh why, am I alone?
Because I was too Heart-Break-Prone

Here I sit quietly in my room
The walls standing here make it seem like a tomb.
My mind isn't here, it's off in paradise.
The memories she left here made my heart solid ice.
Well I could leave this room; run away from here.
But I choose to stay, all locked up in fear.

Fast approaching noise and sound
Clammer heard, perfectly risen
Watching her get up and walk
Basic tasks made in the prison
So-called home set in the city
Where everything's "on the house"
But reality must state its claim
A living hell demoned by sacrifice

Protector I shall play
No matter if I play nice
Come cross me in front of her
You will gladly roll the dice

I want to get high
On you
Your breath
My lips
Caress
Your skin
My eyes
Lost in
Thought
No care
Or fear
Just here

I want to get high
On you.

your embrace
unexpected, to say the least
had me embraced
on these cheeks
and on those lips
i couldn't stop
i lost control
control for what?
i didn't know.

If love's as pure as water, then I am in a drought.
Dehydration may be cruel, but if I'm not full of doubt,
I'll wander farther off into the distance, in the dark.
Take my steps real carefully, leaving every single mark,
So that if I come back later I will know where to start.
Loveless is ******, but I know I am smart.
And maybe death will come soon, but until then
I'll search for the truth and write with this pen.
Cause misunderstood isn't fun when you have a gun,
And I know why because honestly I've won
The race of lust, love, and happiness, once.
My experience was big, so I confront the fronts
Of everything that gets in my way to being loved.

I'll let the pain set me free
I'll let the thoughts come back
I'll let the sadness consume me
I'll stop the love from fighting back..

two bodies lay there
on the couch
in the house
cold and empty
though rather lovely

they lay very close
intimate and serene
exposed but comfortable
in a nice sort of silence
only experienced once before

a single phrase rang out
in the mind of one
for the other
"i love you"

a curious thought
amongst a careful affection
now preserved for later use
for the other
or another
whenever it might be true

"i missed you"
the words muddled out as i was leaving
did i really miss her? i wondered
it seemed like i did
i wanted to be back
more time alone
more to share & learn
did i really miss her? i wondered
it felt like i did
though time apart was fine
catching up with others
keeping myself in check
did i really miss her? i wondered
i think i did
who's to say though
it came to mind then
an impulse almost
and that holds some value
did i really miss her? i wondered
well what if i didn't?
and what does that mean?
i wasn't sure
oh well

did i really miss her? i wondered

into the black night i went
riding the tailwind of emotion
spent up in the heartbeat and luscious breathes
little space between our gaze
so quickly did we yearn for this
succeeding only to frighten & excite us both

i saw a ******* the tv
yesterday
she was attractive and
kind
had some sort of
glow
a pep in her
step
a glimpse of good
spirit
or at least that's what i
saw
through the box of bright
color

why do i think about
her
why not a girl i already
know
one that shares
memories
with me and cares about my
health
why do i spend
time
looking at this
screen
at so many
screens
so dependent on these
pixels
which take up the
space
both inside and
out
of my life & those around
me

i saw a ******* the tv
yesterday
and it was
nice

Can't decide what to do, I still love you.
We were so happy, we could've flew.
No more happiness, everything’s blue.
I guess we were just... overdue

I want to die,
I want to bleed.
I want to feel her breath against me.
No one can help,
Only she.
For I can't help, but see the......

Away away away away
Or stay
In this horrid madness.
Where everything screams caution
No longer number one
But you must confront.
Lie, steal, cheat, and beg
For nothing.

there's a little orange sun outside my window
it shines sorta bright and into the dark night
where the deer frolic and the snakes slither
to the insects it's a disco and they party till the dawn
i am thankful for my sunshine and i am thankful when it's gone

Shouting farther, thinking of the last
Time only flies when you’re looking at the past
Changes build up and life gets bitter
That is, if you compare the bitter to the better
Life’s short, that’s true, but don’t waste your time thinkin’
That’s ten more seconds of love that you’re missin’
Memories may haunt but don’t let them control
The things you care most and their price at the toll

Lost in the sun, lost in the power
Girl, if you’re down just give me another hour
More lessons learned, but more to be found
The less noise there is, the more there is sound.
Submission isn’t required as much as it’s welcome
And baby you’ll be proud even more of the outcome.
Scared of loving shouldn’t stop the beat now
“Forever & Always” will always be my vow.

Silent ticking lends its stay
To help me on my way
Even though it rarely ever does.
Little does it know
I have none that tends to grow
Because drownèd by logic I have been.
Helpless, I may be
But love will let me see
So if you seek then commence.
I want with all sense;
Together, you and I shall be free.

Rage in the night
With misguided passion
To the one most endeared
Through the eyes reopened.

Commitment - the key to all that can shine.
Too often given.  Now met with no resistance.
Seldom to come
But the richest in comparison.

Loud yet soft to the touch.
Hesitation thrown away
Faster.  Progress.  Enjoy.
Ripe fruit.  Dreaming to be with the gods.

Sweeping across the walls of life
Is a mass of worries that stabs like a knife
Expected actions give way to dreams
Yet more and more have lessened into gleams
The life of love may rebirth and return
But until that happens I can’t stop the yearn

Kind of like a wild maze,
Love turns and sprints and falls down too.
But it keeps going all the days,
The question is, will me and you?

i want to be the sugar in your veins
rushing rushing rushing
shiver shiver
a cute smile and two smiling eyes

i want to be your dopamine
warmly singing the song of the day
wisping your spirit among the trees
only a whisper to be heard

i want to be your heart
pumping life into your limbs
keeping rhythm in the night
ever-beating your good name

Maybe this isn't so bad.
Maybe I can quit being sad.
Maybe there won't be mad.
I'd be so glad.

If all words make poems
I'll carefully choose them now
Because I want them to be meaningful in some shape or somehow
A meaning that echos through every bone in my body
A word for each thousand thoughts, although it may be sloppy
I think that I'd be a fool to say that there's no hope
Yet who am I to say that I am strong enough to cope
You were always stronger, always pushing right ahead
It's depressing just to realize how afraid you must have been
To start a whole new story with other strangers at hand
I may not have been so wise to let you run with what we planned
But it was my mistake.
And I took you for granted.
So now I have to put the words on paper
Try to be someone greater
And stop killing myself for you.

Scattered in the sea with your name in the waves
Like little bits of light in cold, dark caves
Wash up to the shore with a chance of infinity
Even though it hurts I can barely agree
Conditions are right, but timing isn't fair
No signs give warning, no riches in prayer
So give me some space and declare it's done
I'll find you real fast, don't you try to run
The light may be red but I refuse to park
And leaving you would leave me surrounded in dark.

Breaking.. leaving.. all so sad.
You say I'm making you be this mad.
But you're the one who can't really add.
Me + You makes everyone glad

Don't say that you’re life isn't fair
Don't stare at the walls that love you and the people that don't care.
And never will I leave, never will I share
That loving you will always be another dare.
You say that you're ready, but you don't even wear
Your heart on your sleeve like you breathe this precious air.
Yes, I know this is cruel but it's hard for me to bear
Your constant negativity that's causing you to tear.