you're my sunday candy
breathing christmas into each day
lighting up my smile
ever present every week
the sugar coating on my sweet life

i forgot that i loved you
maybe i wanted to?

i logged on to facebook
to look at your emoji smile
before i realized i could look at your actual smile in a picture
although the emoji seemed more genuine

i went to get a drink
i half expected to see you there
for no reason at all

If wrong had a place
In the mind of the chosen
Would it destroy fate
Or disturb the future untold of?
To say we would ever know.
A lie with too dangerous upkeep
A poison too dreadful to imagine
A possible victim, too.
I could not handle
The truth or what's left
Even blinded by black.
Memory, feeling, with practical sight
Gone forever.
Which is still worse
Than losing you.

Have you ever seen
such a moon-stricken sight?
Where the people you knew
got stuck in the night?
When everything you thought you had
was looking away from you?
Because the mirror on the wall
cast an image of pure blue?
Well if you haven't, I can say
you're lucky and intact.
Your life is yours to live,
and that's one thing I know for fact.

i don't know what came about
i don't remember why it was ok
i didn't surrender
just to walk away
but here i am
so far from you
at least in thought
that's what must do

A room fill of people and a heart full of hope
Pulling on my mind like a worn out rope.
Faces undistinguished prove a possibility unwon.
Thankful for sight, but tortured by the one.
The one will save me without being asked.
The one who is unseeable.  The one I just passed?
Tortured by mystery is a sad case to lead
Impossible to stop because waiting is the key.
The key to freedom, and the key to unlock.
But where is the key to this neverending clock?

Hellbound
Dug deep is my grave
Too late now to save
Or else there would be
Those that penetrate
Look beyond the simple facts
That make me who I am.
Guilty
Reads the jury as a whole
No debate or excuses accepted
Who cares if you wept
When you're a criminal to the best.
Choking
Soon let it come
Or then my tongue may run amuck
With words that may or may not get stuck
Within your head as reasonable or just
None of which you're told to trust.
Hanging
No more will I corrupt
Nor rear my head or use it such
A silence, now, will enter in
For justice truly did you win.
Until you calm and regret.

The silence can be ******
Blowing nothing but wind
See you can't do anything bout it
Because they say you don't fit in
"Why not?" you ask them constantly
But no answer is due to commit
The silence can be ******

The knife is out, I'm ready to break.
But then I start to shift and shake.
Everyone here can see,
All I want to do is end me.
So what's holding me back?
I'm already off track.
Then thoughts of her rush to my head.
And that's what did it.
I am dead.

We don't own each other anymore
But in some ways I think we do
I hold you in the palm of my hand
An idea, so dark that it's blinding
An idea of what it's like to be with you
One so much different than our youth
But one that I often bask in
From time to time, a deadly mood
Dead inside, it feels
Feeling the need to let go
And let you love me again

You are the temporary love that will never die.

It shouldn't hurt
It shouldn't burn
But it does.
I shouldn't be mad
I shouldn't be depressed
But I am.
You shouldn't speak
You shouldn't influence
But you do.
Love shouldn't survive
Love shouldn't capture
But love does.
My mind shouldn't justify
My heart shouldn't hope
But they do.
So where does that leave... us?

Don't say that you’re life isn't fair
Don't stare at the walls that love you and the people that don't care.
And never will I leave, never will I share
That loving you will always be another dare.
You say that you're ready, but you don't even wear
Your heart on your sleeve like you breathe this precious air.
Yes, I know this is cruel but it's hard for me to bear
Your constant negativity that's causing you to tear.

Every time I lay down I've been thinking of you
The thing about us is 1 + 1 still equals 2
2 together growing older
Still maturing, staying younger
Sharing what we have to give and loving more than we probably should
But I find that that is better than feeling misunderstood.
And I hope that what we have will stay true for what it's worth;
Hurt may come our way soon but I am always in rebirth.
Who I am and who I've been may come together through us,
So no matter what's been said I will always share trust.
With you I am happy and in life I am free,
To give what I have.  That is my one plea.

Pasting all my memories onto this board I see,
Scraping off is very tough on both of you and me,
Erasing is another part, but where, oh, where could it be?

Rose from the view
Summer's day never too soon
Friendship sought and found
Underneath an orange moon

Tears from the sorrow
Couldn't hold me away
Tried to really help
Hold on for one more day

Didn't think about the love
About my heart or its desire
Just cried with you all night
But in secret getting higher
On the fact that you were you
Because I realized from the dawn
That you were in need of love
And I wanted to write you a song.

Dying sounds so good.
I'm think I might do it under the hood.
No one could see, but no one even cares.
I think I'll go... downstairs.
No more happiness, no more will.
I'm permently stopping this treadmill...

Hell would feel really good right now, compared to this.
I was so close to happiness, when I reached for your kiss.
Saw your panicking eyes, which broke my whole heart.
And when you turned away? You took me apart.
Assuming is one thing I really shouldn't do.
Because trusting someone is nothing of a virtue.
Why couldn't I be full of sheer glee?
Maybe it's because you’re all I can see.
Recovery is a word I wish was true.
But until it comes I'll be drowned by rue.

Goodbye loving, becoming the past
Goodbye happiness, you never last
Goodbye salvation, please save me again
Goodbye temptation, you were always a sin
Goodbye together, I'll miss you so much
Goodbye everything, keep in touch...

A road diverged
From the road less traveled
No Frost to help me on my way.
Nor choice to runaway from yesterday.
Another road, another day

The scent of you is like a fall into pain.
Memories flood my mind in a rush of sweet rain
The future is bright because I've learned so much
But her skin is still flawless to every single touch.
Death I have conquered and alive I am still
Except now I'm scarred and controlled by will.
Begging in the street isn't my choice any more.
What you did to me shook me straight to the core...

The world is bustling here and there.
Why can't I get up from this chair?
I'm strapped in tight, without a choice.
Will I ever get to use this voice?
God please go fast, or I will run.
Aren't I supposed to be having fun?
My mind will bend, but my heart won't break.
Until then... call me Blake.

Rage in the night
With misguided passion
To the one most endeared
Through the eyes reopened.

Commitment - the key to all that can shine.
Too often given.  Now met with no resistance.
Seldom to come
But the richest in comparison.

Loud yet soft to the touch.
Hesitation thrown away
Faster.  Progress.  Enjoy.
Ripe fruit.  Dreaming to be with the gods.

I can't say I love the world or that I've made it any better
But believe me when I say I try with every letter
I do what I do not only for myself
The care I have for you in my heart has no stealth
It's no good inside, so whether you like me,
I'm just trying to provide for you.
Appreciation can be a motivation
When I try to handle all the satisfaction
I get from within,
So stop trying to win
Just join the revolution
Rebel the evolution
And embrace this universe in **peace

In the dark
In the night
Out of sight

Laying now
All alone
Not really home

Even now
Thinking how
I came to love you.

Speechless yet
You came and went
No thanks or pardoning words.

Hurting seems
A selfish means
To stop caring for others.

Regretfully so
I've come to know
Anger and strong dismay

Feelings do
Mean a lot to you
But apparently mine do not.

I'm sorry for being honest.

your kisses were like sprinkles on a just-baked cupcake
which made the eggs your home
the sugar your family
the flour the nighttime
the butter your mood
the pink icing your touch
and our conversations the purple food coloring

or so i presume

Dark butterflies
Flutter through the garden
No burden or care
As they wander through
The thoughts I hold dear

Melody of sirens
Bursting from within
Single thoughts float
Among the vast subject of you
Enough to consume itself
Getting high on the high
No method needed
Only a picture, touch, or word
Or madness with it all!
Because living has a purpose
When I have you to hold.

Maybe this isn't so bad.
Maybe I can quit being sad.
Maybe there won't be mad.
I'd be so glad.

What words can't describe,
Is too often what's inside
Breaking apart the inner pure,
Destroying every single door.
Isolating all that's known,
Defying the science of the grown.

But as chaos makes his home,
The pen finds his poem,
And together they'll coincide
Inside the eyes of the blind
Until we learn to see what's true.

Too much anger, too much please.
How can one live on his knees?
It's hard all over, don't ever forget it.
But I know I have to try and submit.
For I will be here awhile,
Waiting... waiting... waiting in style.

Echoed  in the night,
A message yearned to be read
Each with an addition
Invisible ink at the end.
Raw emotion.  Fresh from the heart
Shared and hopeful with simple elegance
First time lost
But with a second so sweet
Different when in contrast
Both bright in color
Though in the aspect of time,
Only one can be highlighted.
Only one developing.

Cherish what you have.
Love is not a choice.

Small words exchanged
With the spaces and marks
Though nothing's changed
No longer in the dark
Now sharing thoughts
And news always there
Doesn't explain the loss
Of his despair.

Her letters so neat
Put together; no other.
But not always complete
Still stuck in her suffer
To help.  My goal.
Even though I may gain
In persisting to console
Must continue in the game.

Rules in the way
Head filled to the brim
So when appearing grey
All doubt fills him.
Second-guessing.  Incorrect?
Impossible to know.
Unable to collect
Her feelings down below.

Head over heels?
Falling indefinitely, it seems.
No control.  No appeal.
Too open by all means.

Not my fault she says.
He can't take it, no more hurt.
"This is just a phase"
He thinks it through and starts to blurt
"Don't expect me to change my ways!"  
She stops and looks...
...and starts to revert

Every road I take I can never turn back.
Don't matter how hard I hurt, I follow my track.
I'm driving slow, it seems, cause I often dread
That I'll leave someone that needs to be fed.
The voices everywhere really seem to get to me,
So many things to hear, it's hard to be free.
But then again, who am I to have a voice?
I know nothing. No choice is my choice.
Yet harsh words solve nothing, I guess.
But I still go on with them, I must confess.
A man of strong measures many would say.
But God is strong too. That's why I pray.
So keep shouting on in, my mind is on mute.
Oh, and, please bury me in a suite?

She came around,
Without a sound.
I was sitting on the ground,
But now I feel I'm being crowned.
We're coming together, we're being bound.
Please stay with me, please stay around.
Let's head together,
Northern-bound

Along this cold and broken road
I walk and hum, all alone.
Resting here is more than torture
Cause staying here extends the future...

And wishful thinking can lend its hand,
But wishful thinking can’t lead a stand...

How to escape? I have yet to found.
Screaming, I am.  But not with sound...

Broken and depressed, I was thrown in this place.
My heart holds things you can never erase.
Memories, dreams, and feelings too,
Always have a way of leading back to you...

if clarity is key
i've always been locked out

of what?


if clarity is key
i always hit the wrong note

which song?


if clarity is key
i'm lost with no direction

where do i go?


if clarity is key
i wish i'd find some

some day

your kisses were like sprinkles on a just-baked cupcake
and boy did they fall ******* me
leaving us both breathless by the end
laying there in the dark
wishing my eyes would adjust to see yours staring back at me
wondering if you enjoyed our time together like i do
or if that was the last taste

and then you said goodnight

Maybe we weren't meant to be
Refusing I wanted more
Maybe I didn't choose to see
You weren't knocking at my door

Maybe the future holds
More passion than I know
Maybe I need not be so cold
Loving again like long ago

Maybe I am lost
Forever in the darkest night
Maybe I don't see the cost
In letting go and losing right

Maybe words can't come to life
When trying to explain
The feelings left unsaid 
And a girl whose love is pain.

Seeing the invisible
Whatever sense that might need
Whatever door you opened
With that ****** key
Seeing the invisible
It's no the 'I' who can't agree
The honesty forever set free
To go against me with stabbing envy
Seeing the invisible
A question of reality
To whom do I hold dearest but of thee?
Cursing in the night, oh let be!
Seeing the invisible destructively.

I want to get high
On you
Your breath
My lips
Caress
Your skin
My eyes
Lost in
Thought
No care
Or fear
Just here

I want to get high
On you.

God, if you're listening, you better listen good cause lately I've been thinking there's too much misunderstood. I don't mean to complain, don't mean to be a bother, but why can't I see you if you are my real Father? There's many who will say that you are myth or tale, but if I do the same would that only be betrayal? An abundance of questions is what I'm stuck in, so if you will come save me I will gladly "live" again.

One day gone and another day past
The next day's promise is just as the last
No one can help or they'll make it untrue
Then break & blast and say they never knew.
Once strong means nothing, never blessed, never best
But the scars stay home and force you to address
I speak from the heart, but never can I prove
That the voices speaking now I completely disapprove.

My thoughts are haunted constantly by your face.
When I think about my foolishness, I feel like a disgrace.
Your love is gone, my heart still isn't fine.
Every thought I have is just one more sign.
Calm and cool can't always cover it.
Sometimes I just really want to quit.
The pain is gone but my love is raw.
Who will be the one to help it thaw?

Can't decide what to do, I still love you.
We were so happy, we could've flew.
No more happiness, everything’s blue.
I guess we were just... overdue

Silent ticking lends its stay
To help me on my way
Even though it rarely ever does.
Little does it know
I have none that tends to grow
Because drownèd by logic I have been.
Helpless, I may be
But love will let me see
So if you seek then commence.
I want with all sense;
Together, you and I shall be free.

Waking up and being loved is my goal.
Meet a nice girl and take a little stroll.
Down a road remembered oh so well.
Look into her eyes and confess that I have fell.
Pop.
Dreams sadly stop.
Reality breaks in and starts to blur.
But I withhold the desire I prefer much more...

there are poets all around
  speaking aloud
   to those who will listen

a rotation
  of the population

ones searching
  ones mourning
   ones thinking
    ones praying

for something
  or someone
   or nothing
    or no one

why do we turn
  to writing
   to reading
    to sleeping
     to dreaming
      for fulfillment

i guess we find comfort
  in this space
   of the abstract
    to release ourselves
     find company for once
      and return when peace is found

My, my, my, what foolish me.
I thought I could finally see.
But I guess all things come to an end,
Eventually