Away away away away
Or stay
In this horrid madness.
Where everything screams caution
No longer number one
But you must confront.
Lie, steal, cheat, and beg
For nothing.

I thought that
unconditional love
was selfless
Until i
admitted to myself
i couldn't let you go
That i
can't live without you
I think i
convinced myself
that we could only
be happy together
The truth is
happiness can be found
in many different places
And you may find it
without me
That's what broke my heart the most.

Among the many faces
Calls out from the blank space
A sound of interjection
A bullet from a gun

Spreading outward unaffected
Running rampant in total red.
Too fast to dodge or slow
Hold on quick or take the blow.

Soft lips, unspoken
Staring blank
Around again
Word by word
Replaying the scene
Dramatic
Hyperbole
No rehearsal
Pastime practice
Pastime haunting
Pastime caring
Pastime's gone.

Stay here with me.

Rejection is what I'm feeling,
No more love, no more healing.
Why do I have to do this?
You're the one that I miss.
My life is gone, gone with you
So much hurt... I wish I could sue..

i am the cussing man
i cuss all day and i cuss all night
and when i can't cuss no more i curse out of spite

Waking up is so grand,
Like life is pulling you, by the hand.
It's not all perfect, there's room for complaint,
Sleeping can also leave a taint.
Nightmares can come and scare you to death,
But don't freak out, and don't do ****.
You'll be fine, I'll promise you that,
Just please get up and feed the cat.

Numb in the tongue
All encompassing
Hope sliced
Sauteed and served on the side
Spiced by danger
Warm but not enticed
With anger and humiliation
My trust captured and convicted
The frustration and dispersal
This is not order.
Not mine anyway.

Vanished, vanished, but to where?
I don't look, I just stare.
More love, more love, all around.
I'm so happy we've made a rebound!

We all want more
We all can't accept
Or do we accept
That who we are is unacceptable
Unless we change
Who we are
How we behave
Who we talk to
How much we make
We all want more
We all can't accept
But we should.

You didn't have to let me down.
I shouldn't have this constant frown.
But now you say you've moved on in life,
While I just sit here holding this knife

My heart may be just, but it keeps on filling.
With love by my side, I'm more than just willing.
But what is love, and even better, it's meaning?
Whatever it is, it shan't see intervening.
For without I am lost; a user with no drug.
Nothing else can compare to the almighty lovebug.

Being proud of who I am isn't my thing.
Loving others I've done before but always in vain.
And some don't like me like I wish they would.
Knowledge is my friend on some occasions.
Everything just doesn't seem to rhyme.

Sanity serves only I.
Get out and get in.
Join or disregard.
Let strength be not an issue
Nor others intimidate
Find the wisdom in care
And love will come near.
Shall then you see what's pure?

Rogue thoughts, rogue letters, rogue signs
Telling me baby just climb
Rogue voices, rouge ripples in time
Having said it all feelings collide
Rogue service, rogue settles on the shore
But maybe that's what I'm looking for
Rogue shuffle, rouge faces, rogue door
Tell me when & where, knocking wanting more
Rogue distance, rogue thieves in the dark
Say I'm too afraid or let it all work
Rogue lights, rogue mystery in the air
One life with too much care?
Rogue city, rogue everywhere around
Just really need to slow this down.

If life is full of riches,
(And most of the time it is,)
Then what is motivation
(If riches cease to give)?
A taste of happiness,
(A call back to the edge,)
A moment of reckless emotion
(,A masterpiece with no sketch).
The mind is a funny thing
(,No puns of wordplay needed,)
Known mostly for its gain
(But often too conceited).
For it's The Other who sheds light.
(Giving back all that it takes.)
Showing progression and renewal.
(Sleeping mind now wide awake...)

a dark rainy city
a bachelor walking through
hoodie up, headphones in
the lights glisten in his eyes
a lonely tune in his ear
headed toward the unknown
his apartment possibly
in the heart of downtown
dressed unusually nice
for the lack of occasion
but maybe there's one
he stays busy
among those moving cars & moving people
always meeting new ones
and talking to ones from long ago
gleams of his past lives
keeping him afloat in some ways
but otherwise not so much

a mind of bliss
a heart full of hope
a bachelor in the city

Sweeping across the walls of life
Is a mass of worries that stabs like a knife
Expected actions give way to dreams
Yet more and more have lessened into gleams
The life of love may rebirth and return
But until that happens I can’t stop the yearn

If life were a battle
then no one'd have cattle cause
tending is hard to do.
Rather than that,
they'd sit there and chat
'bout things that they already knew.
Helping is rare
cause no one will share
what they know that makes life so blue.
So will I survive?
I guess I'll just dive
cause if I don't I'll never be true.

Drip drip
Can't stop
Hurt
Help help
Gone
No goodbye
Please please
Hold on
Too weak
No no
Can't be perfect
Don't expect it
Why why
Can't I be
Always trying
Fail fail
Too much
When I'm with you

Rugged mindset
Eroding away feelings
Or maybe just joy
Either one destructive
Blown away
Bit by bit
Until what's left
Are these words

Must.
Not.
Lose.
Control.

Call me crazy, but I want to live
In a world where love is given as I give.
The fire of my passion burns as you don't know
Not even I can keep it under self-control.
And I'm not bragging, not trying to be vain,
I'm just trying to survive in the terms of being sane.
If you think I'm misguided from the truth
Then I'll tell you that love breaks the innocence of youth.
But even so I know that what is real and is fake
So sorry if I lay down but won't ever wake.

Confusion, confusion, what a bother!
Always suggesting "would you rather.."
Can't it all just go away,
To a place where only chosens stay?
Never return, oh goodness no.
For we would have to stop this show.

i find myself wandering through your thoughts
as you wander through mine
exploring the intricate paths
all the little details
and in that moment i hoped to lose my way
stuck in the lovely labyrinth of your mind

Mystique and dare
A love affair
Wrapped in perfect disguise

Beauty and care
With thoughts to share
A keener point-of-view

Style and taste
Who can erase
Two who are already true

Dark and oblique
Almost out of reach
A game of shadow tag

Complex and complete
Still messy and sweet
A hidden bloom so rich

Different in design
Conclusive in compare
Matched in matchless symmetry

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If all words make poems
I'll carefully choose them now
Because I want them to be meaningful in some shape or somehow
A meaning that echos through every bone in my body
A word for each thousand thoughts, although it may be sloppy
I think that I'd be a fool to say that there's no hope
Yet who am I to say that I am strong enough to cope
You were always stronger, always pushing right ahead
It's depressing just to realize how afraid you must have been
To start a whole new story with other strangers at hand
I may not have been so wise to let you run with what we planned
But it was my mistake.
And I took you for granted.
So now I have to put the words on paper
Try to be someone greater
And stop killing myself for you.

A year
A month
A week
A day
An hour
A minute

Any second
With you
Is great.

I want to float away
Into the clouds of scattered grey
See the world from a new view
No worries, nothing true
Have chaos by my side
And nature be my bride
I could reclaim the wanted
Destroy the past of me unhaunted
Break the chains of happiness
Adopt the feeble loneliness
Watch the sun without control
And accept the wind as my soul

Then you shall bury me
Peacefully.

The information’s pouring down,
But don't yet put back on that crown.
Time will determine your future move,
Until then, just let her prove.

Fast approaching noise and sound
Clammer heard, perfectly risen
Watching her get up and walk
Basic tasks made in the prison
So-called home set in the city
Where everything's "on the house"
But reality must state its claim
A living hell demoned by sacrifice

Protector I shall play
No matter if I play nice
Come cross me in front of her
You will gladly roll the dice

If love's as pure as water, then I am in a drought.
Dehydration may be cruel, but if I'm not full of doubt,
I'll wander farther off into the distance, in the dark.
Take my steps real carefully, leaving every single mark,
So that if I come back later I will know where to start.
Loveless is ******, but I know I am smart.
And maybe death will come soon, but until then
I'll search for the truth and write with this pen.
Cause misunderstood isn't fun when you have a gun,
And I know why because honestly I've won
The race of lust, love, and happiness, once.
My experience was big, so I confront the fronts
Of everything that gets in my way to being loved.

Adorn in the limelight
Bright now in despair
Cast down by the likes of two

Darkness be my sight
If no one seems to care
May karma pay his due

Let also my tears cry
Their presence a lion's roar
My future as a crow

Tell me that I can die
I don't wish to be anymore
I can't beat this alone.


Every tune is not a hit
Every stick is not to burn
Every answer is not as loud

Every second I want to quit
All the more I yearn
To see another cloud.

The sound of your leaving steps haunted me for so long.
I memorized the echo so I could play it back when it wasn't sounding. Months went by and I kept living my life, blending into your background. I wasn't always there. Oh no, I was empty... drained.
I swore my faithfulness and never let go; even though I knew you didn't want it anymore.
They tried to tell me but I would sound them out... listening to your steps.
I realize now how I was wrong.
But it's what I had to do.

No regrets,
Blake

chirp chirp
Cried the cricket
Of my mind.

chirp chirp
Everything's alright
Be brave
Keep calm.

chirp chirp
Lose focus
Surrender together
Care.

chirp chirp
Settle down
Escape memories
Share hope.

chirp chirp
Cried the cricket
Of our love.

Kind of like a wild maze,
Love turns and sprints and falls down too.
But it keeps going all the days,
The question is, will me and you?

Maybe I was mislead,
But I always think ahead,
So taking credibility is something that I must shed.
Hurting more never felt so good,
Cause loving you is will/should.
And maybe every stream of light is another ounce of sadness,
But seeing you, Lizzie, is keeping me from madness.

I think
I am
Already addicted
To tattoos

No matter how
I see them now
Can't help but be attracted

Just wait
For my
Perfect plan

Some ink
Somewhere
So soon

I'm not saying that it's perfect
I'm not saying I'm correct
But I feel like what I'm saying is not something to neglect.
I know that things aren't well
I know that we need help
But I think we couldn't make it living by our lonesome selves.
I can't tell you what the answer is
Or it it will ever come
But I'll love you till the world ends even if we come undone.

You made a choice, it ruined my life,
I almost used that shiny knife.
Then somehow, somehow, could it be?
That you could really, actually see?
You made me cry, you made me weep.
But I think it's time to make The Sweep.

The content boy visited his content home
Hugging his parents with content and enjoying his content friends
They shared content times with one another and helped keep the boy content
Though some uncontent thoughts did come, but he was able to replace them with content ones
All was content during the visit and this made the boy content about the future

I only talk to people that I know will listen
Because a chance for love should require submission.
Maybe if things, start to form and take shape
I'll burn myself, just so there's no escape.
Dreams can help, but never do they satisfy
The yearn I have for you, and the ability to beautify
Life.  And more importantly, my mind,
Without love I seem to be more inclined
To look for meaning beyond what I knew best.
I want to love you.  I submit my request.

There's a lot going through my mind right now.
Right now at 8 a.m.
8 a.m. the morning after.
After the pillows laid rest on their heads.
Heads full of dreamy thoughts, and actions that came to match.
Match that lit the fire, which heated only for a while.
While the two shared it's heat, and words with one another.
Another night alone together.
Together will they be, after sun first sheds its light?
Light bringing reality, discarded by the night.
Night of sudden growth.
Growth of sudden life.
Life internal once aglow, but now covered in dismay.
Dismay in what stays.
Stays alive when nothing does.
Does the heart know any limits?
Limits broken by the two, but not regretted.
Regretted past, onward to the future.
Future unknown, but hopeful.
Hopeful together.
Together.

Love or hate
A silent fate
Beyond what most hold true.

Ignorance, wisdom
A silver lining and then some
Concepts living frayed among my mind.

Soft or hard
And bleeding scars
Rushing movement constant every single day.

Life and death
But all depress
Into stardust, ever mournful without cause.

Open or closed
A worshiped host
With little understanding of it all.

This or that
It all comes back
Till black and white collide in total chaos.

Sudden thunder, evening night.
Once uprising, now not in sight.
Eroded and scarred, but not close to done.
Sadness might shine, still there’s hope for the sun.
Ringing loud and clear, my heart yearns for love.
Lizzie listen to me now; will you be the dove?

The longer I breathe
Without You
The harder I seem
To try
The more I think
About you
The higher I want
To fly

The higher I want to fly
The higher I want to go
To a place where we're together
To a place where we're alone

A place too often dreamt of
A place not think nor thin
To see your face up close
To see your shining skin

Skin perfected in its flaws
Skin abused but not forgotten
Lost to cope with her anxiety
Lost herself in great depression

Together or alone
Difference only in the name
But time and love are one
One question still remain

Will you return the love?

Love is itching on me tonight.
The caring and the joy seem so bright.
I can't help but want it, it’s too hard to resist!
But sadly my path is covered in mist.
Life is hard, and I'm one to talk.
But don't give up; just take a walk.
Wishes can be made, and promises can be kept.
But hurting someone is hard to accept.
The world isn't bad, just full of evol.
And making everyone happy is more than an armful!
Yet love is creeping on me again.
Will it ever surpass my world back when?
It seems as though I'm enchanted by a spell.
But don't ask why; I have nothing to tell.

you are the simplistic love
sharing bytes of information
without games of deception

you are the simplistic love
a voice of honesty
when no one else speaks up

you are the simplistic love
showing care by example
not just in word

you are the simplistic love
leading with sense
instead of expectation

you are the simplistic love
living every moment
a stirring sentient amonst the unrest

you are the simplistic love
smiling back at me

Too much time is wasted
In this world today.
Dreams are lost and thoughts are tossed
Like nothing really matters either way.
But my mind seems to think
That only I am weak
For my goal is only to wait.
Cause progress, to me, is just a cup of tea
That I resist after little debate.
Yet the time goes by
And often do I cry
Because sadness has taken over me.
But maybe someday
When the moon stops being grey,
I’ll return to that boy who had a gleam is his eye
That refused to let himself die.