Where to go
How to be
When to show
How to please
One more step
In this direction
Clueless but
Got your attention
Good enough
Or so it seems
Happy now
But by extremes
Reality says
Nothing at all
But that's because
I don't answer it's call.

Small words exchanged
With the spaces and marks
Though nothing's changed
No longer in the dark
Now sharing thoughts
And news always there
Doesn't explain the loss
Of his despair.

Her letters so neat
Put together; no other.
But not always complete
Still stuck in her suffer
To help.  My goal.
Even though I may gain
In persisting to console
Must continue in the game.

Rules in the way
Head filled to the brim
So when appearing grey
All doubt fills him.
Second-guessing.  Incorrect?
Impossible to know.
Unable to collect
Her feelings down below.

Head over heels?
Falling indefinitely, it seems.
No control.  No appeal.
Too open by all means.

The longer I breathe
Without You
The harder I seem
To try
The more I think
About you
The higher I want
To fly

The higher I want to fly
The higher I want to go
To a place where we're together
To a place where we're alone

A place too often dreamt of
A place not think nor thin
To see your face up close
To see your shining skin

Skin perfected in its flaws
Skin abused but not forgotten
Lost to cope with her anxiety
Lost herself in great depression

Together or alone
Difference only in the name
But time and love are one
One question still remain

Will you return the love?

There's a lot going through my mind right now.
Right now at 8 a.m.
8 a.m. the morning after.
After the pillows laid rest on their heads.
Heads full of dreamy thoughts, and actions that came to match.
Match that lit the fire, which heated only for a while.
While the two shared it's heat, and words with one another.
Another night alone together.
Together will they be, after sun first sheds its light?
Light bringing reality, discarded by the night.
Night of sudden growth.
Growth of sudden life.
Life internal once aglow, but now covered in dismay.
Dismay in what stays.
Stays alive when nothing does.
Does the heart know any limits?
Limits broken by the two, but not regretted.
Regretted past, onward to the future.
Future unknown, but hopeful.
Hopeful together.
Together.

Maybe we weren't meant to be
Refusing I wanted more
Maybe I didn't choose to see
You weren't knocking at my door

Maybe the future holds
More passion than I know
Maybe I need not be so cold
Loving again like long ago

Maybe I am lost
Forever in the darkest night
Maybe I don't see the cost
In letting go and losing right

Maybe words can't come to life
When trying to explain
The feelings left unsaid 
And a girl whose love is pain.

The end, the end
Oh, why pretend?
Sadness, madness
To hell with the gladness
I can't stand to lose
What I never gained
But in the end it all seems vein.
No more, no more
No time for pain
No nothing's gained, but for the rain
The wind, the stars, the moon, the sun
Love's eternal.  No room for none.

Every time I lay down I've been thinking of you
The thing about us is 1 + 1 still equals 2
2 together growing older
Still maturing, staying younger
Sharing what we have to give and loving more than we probably should
But I find that that is better than feeling misunderstood.
And I hope that what we have will stay true for what it's worth;
Hurt may come our way soon but I am always in rebirth.
Who I am and who I've been may come together through us,
So no matter what's been said I will always share trust.
With you I am happy and in life I am free,
To give what I have.  That is my one plea.

Little words, big feelings, got you in a mess.
So much to love but when it don't bring success
You tend to crash and fall and burn but baby that's ok;
I feel your pain too, and I promise that I'll stay.
Meaning has no meaning in the things you never sad,
But when it comes to you and me, I think we're better in the bed.
Don't confuse me now, because it's hope that brings together,
Pretending it was charm when it was really that old letter
We would not be here, not be talkin'
All the same without the stoppin'
Just to say "Hi, how are you?" and be off
And then I realize how it is and what I really do.
I know you'll never read this but I hope that you dream too.

What words can't describe,
Is too often what's inside
Breaking apart the inner pure,
Destroying every single door.
Isolating all that's known,
Defying the science of the grown.

But as chaos makes his home,
The pen finds his poem,
And together they'll coincide
Inside the eyes of the blind
Until we learn to see what's true.

I can't say I love the world or that I've made it any better
But believe me when I say I try with every letter
I do what I do not only for myself
The care I have for you in my heart has no stealth
It's no good inside, so whether you like me,
I'm just trying to provide for you.
Appreciation can be a motivation
When I try to handle all the satisfaction
I get from within,
So stop trying to win
Just join the revolution
Rebel the evolution
And embrace this universe in **peace

I want to float away
Into the clouds of scattered grey
See the world from a new view
No worries, nothing true
Have chaos by my side
And nature be my bride
I could reclaim the wanted
Destroy the past of me unhaunted
Break the chains of happiness
Adopt the feeble loneliness
Watch the sun without control
And accept the wind as my soul

Then you shall bury me
Peacefully.

It shouldn't hurt
It shouldn't burn
But it does.
I shouldn't be mad
I shouldn't be depressed
But I am.
You shouldn't speak
You shouldn't influence
But you do.
Love shouldn't survive
Love shouldn't capture
But love does.
My mind shouldn't justify
My heart shouldn't hope
But they do.
So where does that leave... us?

The scent of you is like a fall into pain.
Memories flood my mind in a rush of sweet rain
The future is bright because I've learned so much
But her skin is still flawless to every single touch.
Death I have conquered and alive I am still
Except now I'm scarred and controlled by will.
Begging in the street isn't my choice any more.
What you did to me shook me straight to the core...

A room fill of people and a heart full of hope
Pulling on my mind like a worn out rope.
Faces undistinguished prove a possibility unwon.
Thankful for sight, but tortured by the one.
The one will save me without being asked.
The one who is unseeable.  The one I just passed?
Tortured by mystery is a sad case to lead
Impossible to stop because waiting is the key.
The key to freedom, and the key to unlock.
But where is the key to this neverending clock?

What can I say?
When I'm with you I want to stay.
Give a little, take a chance
Remember all the romance?
Trust in me
And you will see
The world at its best.
No doubts, all invest.
So take the clue;
I want to be with you.

Waking up and being loved is my goal.
Meet a nice girl and take a little stroll.
Down a road remembered oh so well.
Look into her eyes and confess that I have fell.
Pop.
Dreams sadly stop.
Reality breaks in and starts to blur.
But I withhold the desire I prefer much more...

Love is itching on me tonight.
The caring and the joy seem so bright.
I can't help but want it, it’s too hard to resist!
But sadly my path is covered in mist.
Life is hard, and I'm one to talk.
But don't give up; just take a walk.
Wishes can be made, and promises can be kept.
But hurting someone is hard to accept.
The world isn't bad, just full of evol.
And making everyone happy is more than an armful!
Yet love is creeping on me again.
Will it ever surpass my world back when?
It seems as though I'm enchanted by a spell.
But don't ask why; I have nothing to tell.

Call me crazy, but I want to live
In a world where love is given as I give.
The fire of my passion burns as you don't know
Not even I can keep it under self-control.
And I'm not bragging, not trying to be vain,
I'm just trying to survive in the terms of being sane.
If you think I'm misguided from the truth
Then I'll tell you that love breaks the innocence of youth.
But even so I know that what is real and is fake
So sorry if I lay down but won't ever wake.

If love's as pure as water, then I am in a drought.
Dehydration may be cruel, but if I'm not full of doubt,
I'll wander farther off into the distance, in the dark.
Take my steps real carefully, leaving every single mark,
So that if I come back later I will know where to start.
Loveless is ******, but I know I am smart.
And maybe death will come soon, but until then
I'll search for the truth and write with this pen.
Cause misunderstood isn't fun when you have a gun,
And I know why because honestly I've won
The race of lust, love, and happiness, once.
My experience was big, so I confront the fronts
Of everything that gets in my way to being loved.

Scattered in the sea with your name in the waves
Like little bits of light in cold, dark caves
Wash up to the shore with a chance of infinity
Even though it hurts I can barely agree
Conditions are right, but timing isn't fair
No signs give warning, no riches in prayer
So give me some space and declare it's done
I'll find you real fast, don't you try to run
The light may be red but I refuse to park
And leaving you would leave me surrounded in dark.

I only talk to people that I know will listen
Because a chance for love should require submission.
Maybe if things, start to form and take shape
I'll burn myself, just so there's no escape.
Dreams can help, but never do they satisfy
The yearn I have for you, and the ability to beautify
Life.  And more importantly, my mind,
Without love I seem to be more inclined
To look for meaning beyond what I knew best.
I want to love you.  I submit my request.

Sudden thunder, evening night.
Once uprising, now not in sight.
Eroded and scarred, but not close to done.
Sadness might shine, still there’s hope for the sun.
Ringing loud and clear, my heart yearns for love.
Lizzie listen to me now; will you be the dove?

Don't say that you’re life isn't fair
Don't stare at the walls that love you and the people that don't care.
And never will I leave, never will I share
That loving you will always be another dare.
You say that you're ready, but you don't even wear
Your heart on your sleeve like you breathe this precious air.
Yes, I know this is cruel but it's hard for me to bear
Your constant negativity that's causing you to tear.

Do you know why
When I think of you I try
To imagine how
I could ever allow
A girl like you
To break through
My heart
And restart
The love
Heard of
By only
The lonely?
More so,
How do I know
I can hide
And coincide
Alone...without you?

Silent ticking lends its stay
To help me on my way
Even though it rarely ever does.
Little does it know
I have none that tends to grow
Because drownèd by logic I have been.
Helpless, I may be
But love will let me see
So if you seek then commence.
I want with all sense;
Together, you and I shall be free.

The wind is strong, it tears apart.
The rain picks up, it's getting dark.
The thunder cracks louder, makes everyone fuss.
The lightning strikes down, there can't be enough.
The clouds are black, covering all.
The hail is pounding, "danger" is its silent call.
The tornado is coming, preparing to start.
All these things I feel in my heart.

My heart may be just, but it keeps on filling.
With love by my side, I'm more than just willing.
But what is love, and even better, it's meaning?
Whatever it is, it shan't see intervening.
For without I am lost; a user with no drug.
Nothing else can compare to the almighty lovebug.

Lost in the sun, lost in the power
Girl, if you’re down just give me another hour
More lessons learned, but more to be found
The less noise there is, the more there is sound.
Submission isn’t required as much as it’s welcome
And baby you’ll be proud even more of the outcome.
Scared of loving shouldn’t stop the beat now
“Forever & Always” will always be my vow.

Maybe falling fast doesn't really sound too scary
But the view when you look down can be kind of wary.
Second chances never come, and people never change,
Well baby I still love you even though you've always been strange.
And I'm sorry for confusing,
Cause what we have now I’m so scared of losing.
But every second without you is a year for my heart,
So I guess it's decided let's get up and start...

Maybe I was mislead,
But I always think ahead,
So taking credibility is something that I must shed.
Hurting more never felt so good,
Cause loving you is will/should.
And maybe every stream of light is another ounce of sadness,
But seeing you, Lizzie, is keeping me from madness.

More than waves, swimming is a chance to let it all out.
More than ice, buoys make it easy to lose all our doubt.
More than snow, earth helps us stand up on our own.
More than leaves, rocks hold us down so we won't end alone.
More than sand, wind takes the end to a place that's brand new.
More than gravity, what's next?  Well I guess that's up to you.

Shouting farther, thinking of the last
Time only flies when you’re looking at the past
Changes build up and life gets bitter
That is, if you compare the bitter to the better
Life’s short, that’s true, but don’t waste your time thinkin’
That’s ten more seconds of love that you’re missin’
Memories may haunt but don’t let them control
The things you care most and their price at the toll

One day gone and another day past
The next day's promise is just as the last
No one can help or they'll make it untrue
Then break & blast and say they never knew.
Once strong means nothing, never blessed, never best
But the scars stay home and force you to address
I speak from the heart, but never can I prove
That the voices speaking now I completely disapprove.

Have you ever seen
such a moon-stricken sight?
Where the people you knew
got stuck in the night?
When everything you thought you had
was looking away from you?
Because the mirror on the wall
cast an image of pure blue?
Well if you haven't, I can say
you're lucky and intact.
Your life is yours to live,
and that's one thing I know for fact.

Sweeping across the walls of life
Is a mass of worries that stabs like a knife
Expected actions give way to dreams
Yet more and more have lessened into gleams
The life of love may rebirth and return
But until that happens I can’t stop the yearn

Along this cold and broken road
I walk and hum, all alone.
Resting here is more than torture
Cause staying here extends the future...

And wishful thinking can lend its hand,
But wishful thinking can’t lead a stand...

How to escape? I have yet to found.
Screaming, I am.  But not with sound...

Broken and depressed, I was thrown in this place.
My heart holds things you can never erase.
Memories, dreams, and feelings too,
Always have a way of leading back to you...

Taking chances, not looking back.
Walking into the clear blue glass.
Jumping off of my safe, warm hill.
Learning more than I ever will.
Healing what has been so haunted.
Forgetting all the things that taunted.
All these things with one big question:
Where is love's beloved mansion?

God, if you're listening, you better listen good cause lately I've been thinking there's too much misunderstood. I don't mean to complain, don't mean to be a bother, but why can't I see you if you are my real Father? There's many who will say that you are myth or tale, but if I do the same would that only be betrayal? An abundance of questions is what I'm stuck in, so if you will come save me I will gladly "live" again.

Hell would feel really good right now, compared to this.
I was so close to happiness, when I reached for your kiss.
Saw your panicking eyes, which broke my whole heart.
And when you turned away? You took me apart.
Assuming is one thing I really shouldn't do.
Because trusting someone is nothing of a virtue.
Why couldn't I be full of sheer glee?
Maybe it's because you’re all I can see.
Recovery is a word I wish was true.
But until it comes I'll be drowned by rue.

Too much time is wasted
In this world today.
Dreams are lost and thoughts are tossed
Like nothing really matters either way.
But my mind seems to think
That only I am weak
For my goal is only to wait.
Cause progress, to me, is just a cup of tea
That I resist after little debate.
Yet the time goes by
And often do I cry
Because sadness has taken over me.
But maybe someday
When the moon stops being grey,
I’ll return to that boy who had a gleam is his eye
That refused to let himself die.

If life were a battle
then no one'd have cattle cause
tending is hard to do.
Rather than that,
they'd sit there and chat
'bout things that they already knew.
Helping is rare
cause no one will share
what they know that makes life so blue.
So will I survive?
I guess I'll just dive
cause if I don't I'll never be true.

Here I sit quietly in my room
The walls standing here make it seem like a tomb.
My mind isn't here, it's off in paradise.
The memories she left here made my heart solid ice.
Well I could leave this room; run away from here.
But I choose to stay, all locked up in fear.

Save me, oh God, from this dreadful place.
I need to get going and speed up my pace.
My heart's rushing forward, not stopping a bit.
My mind is lost, caught up in a split.
Too many thoughts and too much despair.
My eyes are full of stars, which really is rare.
Please give me the grace to start anew.
Because my life needs a new hue.

Wonderfully speaking, right now I am to you
I've hoped for this a long time, then suddenly, there was you
It happened oh so fast, before anyone ever really knew
The word got out, I wanted to shout, how much I'd been thinking of you
My mind is giddy with joy all the time, with thoughts of me and you
I can't believe my eyes this time; will you be the one that's true?

Being proud of who I am isn't my thing.
Loving others I've done before but always in vain.
And some don't like me like I wish they would.
Knowledge is my friend on some occasions.
Everything just doesn't seem to rhyme.

Ringing loudly in my ear,
My body quivers full of fear.
I'm told I'm too young to start the fight;
Such statements tend to blind the light.
If I am myself, then don't misguide me.
Keep your thoughts to yourself so I can see.

The world is bustling here and there.
Why can't I get up from this chair?
I'm strapped in tight, without a choice.
Will I ever get to use this voice?
God please go fast, or I will run.
Aren't I supposed to be having fun?
My mind will bend, but my heart won't break.
Until then... call me Blake.

Cycle, cycle, cycle and go.
Common am I to that of my foe.
Safe and ready, I always am.
Helping all, for I am a lamb.
'Thankful' is a word I seldom hear.
Because forever I will offer my sheer.
I know more than ever will be known.
For all the earth is what I'm shown.

Living in this world has changed me.
But changing the world is why I'm free.
Destroying the old so new can grow.
Mighty and determined, I burn and blow.
I have meaning, just look real close.
The remains I leave bring the beauty of a rose.
My core is strong but mysterious at best.
Because in life, surviving is the test.

Every road I take I can never turn back.
Don't matter how hard I hurt, I follow my track.
I'm driving slow, it seems, cause I often dread
That I'll leave someone that needs to be fed.
The voices everywhere really seem to get to me,
So many things to hear, it's hard to be free.
But then again, who am I to have a voice?
I know nothing. No choice is my choice.
Yet harsh words solve nothing, I guess.
But I still go on with them, I must confess.
A man of strong measures many would say.
But God is strong too. That's why I pray.
So keep shouting on in, my mind is on mute.
Oh, and, please bury me in a suite?