there are poets all around
  speaking aloud
   to those who will listen

a rotation
  of the population

ones searching
  ones mourning
   ones thinking
    ones praying

for something
  or someone
   or nothing
    or no one

why do we turn
  to writing
   to reading
    to sleeping
     to dreaming
      for fulfillment

i guess we find comfort
  in this space
   of the abstract
    to release ourselves
     find company for once
      and return when peace is found

if clarity is key
i've always been locked out

of what?


if clarity is key
i always hit the wrong note

which song?


if clarity is key
i'm lost with no direction

where do i go?


if clarity is key
i wish i'd find some

some day

sometimes it's hard to tell
what music reinforces
and what it creates
inside the mind
or heart
a part
of which
one is more
exposed in the
moment, though that
may change from
note to note
depending
on the
state of
mind i find
myself in

the flame went out
and so did you
that's what i wanted to believe
the only one who could have started it
other than me
but some images
like the flame
or lack thereof
don't mean anything
and neither should you

the flame went out

i'm an expert
of my own mind
taking familiar faces
and carving them
with perfect personalities
that say exactly the right things
to influence & interact
better people for a better world
but only believed in by me

i'm an expert
of my own mind
spinning reality the right way
in all the wrong ways
for my own belief
filled with fiction
figments of future possibilities
probablys not prone to happen
though when they do
i know i must be
an expert of my own fate

i think it's been worse before
different girl, different time
though i couldn't say for sure

it didn't happen before
different feeling, different places
though i wouldn't say we've changed

now it's hard thinking about before
different mindsets, different worlds
what did i say that made it alright?

i still go back that moment before
we laid still
saying nothing

the difference between you and me
-at least from what i know-
is that you moved on
and i'm still there
on that couch
in that house
tv left on
storms sounding
shadows merged
eyes closed
taking everything in
enjoying your presence
and wondering
how this all happened
what might come
and who i should tell
about this embrace
and some disgrace
from our connection
not sure who could understand
what we had
in that time and place
some sort of feeling
an echo into the night
a glimpse of insight
into each others' minds
two worlds collide
into the silence
that we shared
no compare
until just now
when i realized how
i'm still there
lying there
lying every day
lying for something
i know not to be true

i want to feel something new
with you
and go back to that place
embrace
i want to run away
just stay
so we can reminisce
on this
enjoying the storm
so warm
one could never
remember

but i always will.

it's 3am, i'm eating cereal and thinking of you
circling through my thoughts
wondering how it got this way
if it's all in my head
if i've created a world where we're together
speaking through the night
until the light comes back
until reality roars back into life
making me search for some truth in it all
some substance to the chemistry
some hope to grab onto
a circle of creation
one more message
one more response
waiting for an indication

your embrace
unexpected, to say the least
had me embraced
on these cheeks
and on those lips
i couldn't stop
i lost control
control for what?
i didn't know.

i don't know what came about
i don't remember why it was ok
i didn't surrender
just to walk away
but here i am
so far from you
at least in thought
that's what must do

let me hold you again
and i'll kiss you this time
into the night
we can collide
let's be still
let's ride this high
into the night
we can collide

I thought that
unconditional love
was selfless
Until i
admitted to myself
i couldn't let you go
That i
can't live without you
I think i
convinced myself
that we could only
be happy together
The truth is
happiness can be found
in many different places
And you may find it
without me
That's what broke my heart the most.

We don't own each other anymore
But in some ways I think we do
I hold you in the palm of my hand
An idea, so dark that it's blinding
An idea of what it's like to be with you
One so much different than our youth
But one that I often bask in
From time to time, a deadly mood
Dead inside, it feels
Feeling the need to let go
And let you love me again

You are the temporary love that will never die.

I think
I am
Already addicted
To tattoos

No matter how
I see them now
Can't help but be attracted

Just wait
For my
Perfect plan

Some ink
Somewhere
So soon

We all want more
We all can't accept
Or do we accept
That who we are is unacceptable
Unless we change
Who we are
How we behave
Who we talk to
How much we make
We all want more
We all can't accept
But we should.

If all words make poems
I'll carefully choose them now
Because I want them to be meaningful in some shape or somehow
A meaning that echos through every bone in my body
A word for each thousand thoughts, although it may be sloppy
I think that I'd be a fool to say that there's no hope
Yet who am I to say that I am strong enough to cope
You were always stronger, always pushing right ahead
It's depressing just to realize how afraid you must have been
To start a whole new story with other strangers at hand
I may not have been so wise to let you run with what we planned
But it was my mistake.
And I took you for granted.
So now I have to put the words on paper
Try to be someone greater
And stop killing myself for you.

I'm not saying that it's perfect
I'm not saying I'm correct
But I feel like what I'm saying is not something to neglect.
I know that things aren't well
I know that we need help
But I think we couldn't make it living by our lonesome selves.
I can't tell you what the answer is
Or it it will ever come
But I'll love you till the world ends even if we come undone.

In the dark
In the night
Out of sight

Laying now
All alone
Not really home

Even now
Thinking how
I came to love you.

Speechless yet
You came and went
No thanks or pardoning words.

Hurting seems
A selfish means
To stop caring for others.

Regretfully so
I've come to know
Anger and strong dismay

Feelings do
Mean a lot to you
But apparently mine do not.

I'm sorry for being honest.

Mystique and dare
A love affair
Wrapped in perfect disguise

Beauty and care
With thoughts to share
A keener point-of-view

Style and taste
Who can erase
Two who are already true

Dark and oblique
Almost out of reach
A game of shadow tag

Complex and complete
Still messy and sweet
A hidden bloom so rich

Different in design
Conclusive in compare
Matched in matchless symmetry

A road diverged
From the road less traveled
No Frost to help me on my way.
Nor choice to runaway from yesterday.
Another road, another day

I find myself
When I awake
Every single morning.
A thought or two
And then a few
Catch up to my reality.
The world is clear
I do not fear
Whatever I may face.
Don't ask me why
Or how it's done
I simply live on top the sun.

Twisted sense or common sense
Leave me now without defense
Try to think or try to mend
Feelings which will never end
But drift away and do descend
Cause time and change go hand in hand.

Hellbound
Dug deep is my grave
Too late now to save
Or else there would be
Those that penetrate
Look beyond the simple facts
That make me who I am.
Guilty
Reads the jury as a whole
No debate or excuses accepted
Who cares if you wept
When you're a criminal to the best.
Choking
Soon let it come
Or then my tongue may run amuck
With words that may or may not get stuck
Within your head as reasonable or just
None of which you're told to trust.
Hanging
No more will I corrupt
Nor rear my head or use it such
A silence, now, will enter in
For justice truly did you win.
Until you calm and regret.

Adorn in the limelight
Bright now in despair
Cast down by the likes of two

Darkness be my sight
If no one seems to care
May karma pay his due

Let also my tears cry
Their presence a lion's roar
My future as a crow

Tell me that I can die
I don't wish to be anymore
I can't beat this alone.


Every tune is not a hit
Every stick is not to burn
Every answer is not as loud

Every second I want to quit
All the more I yearn
To see another cloud.

Rogue thoughts, rogue letters, rogue signs
Telling me baby just climb
Rogue voices, rouge ripples in time
Having said it all feelings collide
Rogue service, rogue settles on the shore
But maybe that's what I'm looking for
Rogue shuffle, rouge faces, rogue door
Tell me when & where, knocking wanting more
Rogue distance, rogue thieves in the dark
Say I'm too afraid or let it all work
Rogue lights, rogue mystery in the air
One life with too much care?
Rogue city, rogue everywhere around
Just really need to slow this down.

Right and wrong
What a waste
Spreading like an awful taste
Wrong and right
Are here again
Words seem only to ascend
Right and wrong
But who really wins
Coming up on such a whim
Wrong and right
Can't stay forever
Says everyone who gives an effort
Right and wrong
Too sane to think
Or maybe not at all.

Soft lips, unspoken
Staring blank
Around again
Word by word
Replaying the scene
Dramatic
Hyperbole
No rehearsal
Pastime practice
Pastime haunting
Pastime caring
Pastime's gone.

Stay here with me.

Seeing the invisible
Whatever sense that might need
Whatever door you opened
With that ****** key
Seeing the invisible
It's no the 'I' who can't agree
The honesty forever set free
To go against me with stabbing envy
Seeing the invisible
A question of reality
To whom do I hold dearest but of thee?
Cursing in the night, oh let be!
Seeing the invisible destructively.

Numb in the tongue
All encompassing
Hope sliced
Sauteed and served on the side
Spiced by danger
Warm but not enticed
With anger and humiliation
My trust captured and convicted
The frustration and dispersal
This is not order.
Not mine anyway.

Love or hate
A silent fate
Beyond what most hold true.

Ignorance, wisdom
A silver lining and then some
Concepts living frayed among my mind.

Soft or hard
And bleeding scars
Rushing movement constant every single day.

Life and death
But all depress
Into stardust, ever mournful without cause.

Open or closed
A worshiped host
With little understanding of it all.

This or that
It all comes back
Till black and white collide in total chaos.

An echo; a friend
Shout out or pretend
To live a pleasant life
But for now just depends
If there's a voice I truly hear
Or if I can ever send
A message of my heart
That you might commend
For being ever true
Despite where I've been
Sitting here alone
My thoughts from a pen.

Drip drip
Can't stop
Hurt
Help help
Gone
No goodbye
Please please
Hold on
Too weak
No no
Can't be perfect
Don't expect it
Why why
Can't I be
Always trying
Fail fail
Too much
When I'm with you

Rugged mindset
Eroding away feelings
Or maybe just joy
Either one destructive
Blown away
Bit by bit
Until what's left
Are these words

Must.
Not.
Lose.
Control.

Blistering boundaries
Wordless worry
Lightly laying
Just you and me

Sharing stories
Of occasions
Almost abandoned
Just you and me

Kissing kids
Holding hands
Forgetting fate
Just you and me

chirp chirp
Cried the cricket
Of my mind.

chirp chirp
Everything's alright
Be brave
Keep calm.

chirp chirp
Lose focus
Surrender together
Care.

chirp chirp
Settle down
Escape memories
Share hope.

chirp chirp
Cried the cricket
Of our love.

A year
A month
A week
A day
An hour
A minute

Any second
With you
Is great.

Sanity serves only I.
Get out and get in.
Join or disregard.
Let strength be not an issue
Nor others intimidate
Find the wisdom in care
And love will come near.
Shall then you see what's pure?

Away away away away
Or stay
In this horrid madness.
Where everything screams caution
No longer number one
But you must confront.
Lie, steal, cheat, and beg
For nothing.

A bed of empty
A mind of want
How long until
There is no part
For now make do
For now two hearts
My trust in the love of ours.

I want to get high
On you
Your breath
My lips
Caress
Your skin
My eyes
Lost in
Thought
No care
Or fear
Just here

I want to get high
On you.

Fast approaching noise and sound
Clammer heard, perfectly risen
Watching her get up and walk
Basic tasks made in the prison
So-called home set in the city
Where everything's "on the house"
But reality must state its claim
A living hell demoned by sacrifice

Protector I shall play
No matter if I play nice
Come cross me in front of her
You will gladly roll the dice

Dark butterflies
Flutter through the garden
No burden or care
As they wander through
The thoughts I hold dear

Among the many faces
Calls out from the blank space
A sound of interjection
A bullet from a gun

Spreading outward unaffected
Running rampant in total red.
Too fast to dodge or slow
Hold on quick or take the blow.

Rose from the view
Summer's day never too soon
Friendship sought and found
Underneath an orange moon

Tears from the sorrow
Couldn't hold me away
Tried to really help
Hold on for one more day

Didn't think about the love
About my heart or its desire
Just cried with you all night
But in secret getting higher
On the fact that you were you
Because I realized from the dawn
That you were in need of love
And I wanted to write you a song.

If life is full of riches,
(And most of the time it is,)
Then what is motivation
(If riches cease to give)?
A taste of happiness,
(A call back to the edge,)
A moment of reckless emotion
(,A masterpiece with no sketch).
The mind is a funny thing
(,No puns of wordplay needed,)
Known mostly for its gain
(But often too conceited).
For it's The Other who sheds light.
(Giving back all that it takes.)
Showing progression and renewal.
(Sleeping mind now wide awake...)

Melody of sirens
Bursting from within
Single thoughts float
Among the vast subject of you
Enough to consume itself
Getting high on the high
No method needed
Only a picture, touch, or word
Or madness with it all!
Because living has a purpose
When I have you to hold.

Echoed  in the night,
A message yearned to be read
Each with an addition
Invisible ink at the end.
Raw emotion.  Fresh from the heart
Shared and hopeful with simple elegance
First time lost
But with a second so sweet
Different when in contrast
Both bright in color
Though in the aspect of time,
Only one can be highlighted.
Only one developing.

Cherish what you have.
Love is not a choice.

If wrong had a place
In the mind of the chosen
Would it destroy fate
Or disturb the future untold of?
To say we would ever know.
A lie with too dangerous upkeep
A poison too dreadful to imagine
A possible victim, too.
I could not handle
The truth or what's left
Even blinded by black.
Memory, feeling, with practical sight
Gone forever.
Which is still worse
Than losing you.

Rage in the night
With misguided passion
To the one most endeared
Through the eyes reopened.

Commitment - the key to all that can shine.
Too often given.  Now met with no resistance.
Seldom to come
But the richest in comparison.

Loud yet soft to the touch.
Hesitation thrown away
Faster.  Progress.  Enjoy.
Ripe fruit.  Dreaming to be with the gods.