i saw a ******* the tv
yesterday
she was attractive and
kind
had some sort of
glow
a pep in her
step
a glimpse of good
spirit
or at least that's what i
saw
through the box of bright
color

why do i think about
her
why not a girl i already
know
one that shares
memories
with me and cares about my
health
why do i spend
time
looking at this
screen
at so many
screens
so dependent on these
pixels
which take up the
space
both inside and
out
of my life & those around
me

i saw a ******* the tv
yesterday
and it was
nice

as the light comes in my window
i wonder what's happening inside
my head, whether it's registering
emotion like i am. the blinds get
to decide what i think about and
what i dwell on through the night
and into the next sometimes for
days on end. until it does end...
and it's as if nothing was even
wrong in the first place. was it?
i'm not even sure anymore. but
that light keeps coming through
and i shut my blinds for another
time, sinking into the candlelight

it's you that i've been waiting to find

but it wasn't you
present in other ways
friendly and welcoming
a smile, a hand
i wonder what you saw in me

but i was never waiting
more like recovering
more like discovering
a new life
a new town
i wonder if you were too

but i didn't find
nor you with me
no star-crossed evening
or prince at the ball
i wonder what changed



but i did find something
i want it to be you
and i'll wait

i hope that's enough.

there are poets all around
  speaking aloud
   to those who will listen

a rotation
  of the population

ones searching
  ones mourning
   ones thinking
    ones praying

for something
  or someone
   or nothing
    or no one

why do we turn
  to writing
   to reading
    to sleeping
     to dreaming
      for fulfillment

i guess we find comfort
  in this space
   of the abstract
    to release ourselves
     find company for once
      and return when peace is found

if clarity is key
i've always been locked out

of what?


if clarity is key
i always hit the wrong note

which song?


if clarity is key
i'm lost with no direction

where do i go?


if clarity is key
i wish i'd find some

some day

sometimes it's hard to tell
what music reinforces
and what it creates
inside the mind
or heart
a part
of which
one is more
exposed in the
moment, though that
may change from
note to note
depending
on the
state of
mind i find
myself in

the flame went out
and so did you
that's what i wanted to believe
the only one who could have started it
other than me
but some images
like the flame
or lack thereof
don't mean anything
and neither should you

the flame went out