You wake up in the morning ready to take on the world.
(You wake up in the morning wishing you didn't have to leave.)
You put your best outfit on that'll impress your girl.
(You take one look in the mirror and try not to heave)
Smiling and giggling at how excited you are to see her.
(Horrid and timid at the thought of even leaving.)
Grabbing your purse and rushing out the door it must have been a blur.
(Starting to feel pathetic you fall to the floor and can't help to start weeping.)
Standing in front of this girl you haven't seen in weeks
(Knowing you haven't seen her in almost two years)
Beautiful, engaging, and teasing.
(Aching, bruised, & distressed.)
You can not imagine your life with out her
(You know reality finally hits you when you're by yourself)
Us against the world
(Me all by myself)
I love you
**(I want to forget you)

In my head all I can think about is you and how you have made all my emotions blue
I would have never thought this is how it would end but maybe this is better that you and I aren't even friends
My heart keeps telling me to keep trying with you but I can't be with someone that makes all my emotions blue
I thought you were going to be the one until the end but it turns out we can't even be friends
They all say your first love is your worst but maybe it was just lust
All my memories for you is now in the dust
Blowing away with the wind mixed up with the dirt you can't even imagine how much I hurt

When I think of you, I think of a beautiful girl that doesn't know her abilities.
When I talk to you I can't help but to keep a smile on my face.
Even though you are away, away from me
I feel like you are as close as can be.
This thing between us will truly never end
Even though we know we can only remain friends.
I love you with all my heart I never want to loose you,
If I could be with anyone in the world I would choose you.

While we are little we are told we can grow up to be whatever we want.
As we grow older we start to discover new things.
Plants, powder & rocks.
Some fall into depression while others follow their dreams.
We start to realize this isn't what it seems.
Rushing to be a grown up thinking it is all fun & games
Only to realize it is really ******* lame.

It can be the best of times and the worst of times.
You have thirteen years to prove to everyone that you can do it.
You try and try your hardest to make sure you don't quit.
When you think back to the beginning you can't help but to tear up,
Thinking about how much you have grown up.
You meet a lot of new people along the way, it's like a water fall.
So beautiful and so peaceful.
Yet so ugly and horrifying.
Scared out of your mind, you feel like you are blind.
Afraid to be on your own.
Afraid to be out in the grown up world alone.
Happy you made it all this way by yourself.
A beautiful soul becoming a flower.

It's the darkness that really gets to me.
The feeling of loneliness that creeps up on my soul.
The monsters that are in my head, screaming out "I wish you were dead"
I sometimes can't figure out what's real and what's not.
I'm scared to tell people what's really going on in my thoughts.
So instead of telling them how I feel,
I keep it all bottled up as if it wasn't real.

When I think of you I think of pretty things.
The way our hands fit together oh so perfectly.
The way my heart skips a beat every time you touch me oh so gently.
The way you look in to my eyes oh so deeply.
I hate myself everyday for not leaning over to kiss you.
But I know if I did so I would have been a fool.
I wish you didn't play me..
I really started to like you.