Butterflies fluttering around in my stomach.
I try my hardest to get you out of my thoughts,
But you're the only thing that my heart truly wants.
I just wanna hold you
Look deep into your eyes,
And try to figure out why you are the only thing that is on my mind.
Baby you are so perfect, perfect for me.
Even though you are away, away from me
I still want you, want us, you see.
I just want us to be that couple everyone  is jealous to see.

You lay down in your bed
Trying to get all the bad thoughts out your head.
You toss and turn all night
Knowing deep down in your heart that your mind is about to take you on a terrible flight.
You grab your phone looking for someone to call
But in reality you know no one is going to answer at all.
You turn to the right and see something that'll make you feel better
First you get your pen and paper out to write a letter.
You write down all the things that are causing you this pain
But you finally realize it is only making you more insane.
You grab the yellow pill bottle that's hiding under your bed
Crush up all the pills because you feel like you are dead.
You snort up all your troubles
Wipe away your tears.
You take one last look in the mirror
And think to yourself "all I wanted to do is sleep"

I knew a girl that loved herself
Loved the person she was
Didn't care what people thought
Didn't care how she looked
She had her life planned out
Knew in her mind that she was going to be something one day
I wish her thoughts didn't destroy her
She started to change
Slowly
Stopped going out
Didn't want to go to school
Insecurities ruled her body
She had everyone by her side
But yet felt so alone
She wanted to end it
As she thought of ways to leave
She couldn't bring herself to do so
Family is what stopped her
The thought of her sister walking in  the house & finding her body helpless
Scared her
She ended a relationship that was dear to her heart
Now she just feels trapped
Wishing for a way to get out
Screaming for help
No one can hear her
She looks around for a hand to grab
An ear that'll listen
Someone
Anyone
She just wants to get back to normal
She just doesn't want the darkness to win
She wants the old her back
She wants to be able to look in the mirror and loves what she sees
I want to be me