Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray I'm not in too deep.
I just always end invested.
The feelings never leave me rested.
I toss and turn every night,
Just hoping that you're alright.
Why do I have to be so nice.
I've made this mistake more than twice.
I'm afraid it's too late to change.
I've always been a bit strange.
It's probably my largest fall,
But I guess it's not bad at all.
It's because of you my mind's mayhem,
Thank you lord, amen

With true meaning
                              
                     simple words can
         become something
                  
                                                       truly *beautiful

Samantha was caring, Samantha was kind,
but sadly she fell for the wrong guy.
He said he loved her, and she was such a find.
You'd never guess he was amonster in disguise.
The bruises, and pain; she lived in fear.
Clinging on to the "hope" she lasted a year.
He the ventriloquist watched his puppet swing.
Samantha couldent escape her "masters" string.

Do you give, or take?
Should I bend, or should I break?
When am I too much?

Do you grieve out loud?
Should I be modest, or proud?
Does it get easy?

it should be simple...
I just cant spit out the words.
three words I cant say.
<3

delicate...
             beautiful...
     deceiving...
                          tempting you to touch.
                                                                  though the petals be soft,
                                          the thorns cut,
                            deep.

~~~~Winter~~~~
The blue moon shimmers,
Light grazing my frosted soul,
Each snowflake smiles,
When the sun returns the day,
If only she could be mine

                         **~~~~Summer~~~~
                        My heart burns brightly
                        The pain so very intense
                        For I am the flame
                        But my love belongs in frost
                        If only I could have him

~~~~Winter~~~~
The days grew longer,
As she quietly approached,
Her strides warmed the grounds,
But as soon as she reached me,
I was no longer myself

                      ~~~~Summer~~~~
                        His hair wasn't shards
                        His face was no longer ice
                        But he was now mine
                        Ever so slow I touched him
                        But my smile like him melted

The waves splash on expecting shores,
The proud seabird called out to his brothers,
And the wind as still as a ravens eye.
The day falls ,and gets back up as night.
Silent and slow the boat rocks to and fro.
There fate was sealed, as they slept away.
The sweet murmur began softly at first,
The wonderful serenade grew louder ,grew closer,
But when the morning rang again.
The boat was gone.

the warmth was so near; I could nearly see it.
oranges, reds, blues.  The thought burned in my memory.
the intense heat of the flickering flame, so wonderful.
I had traveled so far in the cold, and finally savior!
but in an instant as swift as the hope flooded through me,
it drained out, leaving me colder than before.

its
cloaked in red
100 feet tall
1000 feet small
rough to the touch
but to tempt me
oh the sweet smell
just there to give me hell
sometimes a cube
sometimes a rock
but to me in my life
its writers block

A small slow creak and a shadow peeks,
Behind an unexpecting corner.
You close your eyes, but to your surprise when you open,
The shadow is gone,
But a presence you can sence around every turn,
The conditions right in the dead of night with a
fierce howling wind,
And soon you realize through sloppy tears the danger is swiftly drawing closer!
Creak.. Creak... Creak!
The lump in your gut, seemed to force you out of your frozen rut.
The edrenelin took over then!
Relying on touch for your eyes were usless from crying too much.
The beat of your heart stretched from your ears to your feet.
Your arms flailed and your feet flew,
But still you felt the hot breath on your neck it was
the end you just knew.
A nervous tremor in your leg threw you forward right onto your back.
Instantly your eyes traveled to the onyx bulbs of death that stared you down,
Cloaked completely in black.
As he reached a boney hand around your throat,
It didn't matter you couldn't breath either way,
Just when you could see the light of savior...
It spoke...
The most sinister slither slid out of his covered lips "I'll see you in hell." A small smile was then visible through his mask.
From sheer fright I gasped my last breath of air, and out of the strangest things to cross my mind all I could think is 'goodnight.'

I remember when we
Would just walk
Would just talk
Just to pass the flimsy hours

Oh how the sun taunted us
Rosy cheeks
Moon meek
The best time of my life

Too soon I was alone where we
Would just walk
Would just talk
Those hours seemed precious now

No more pink cheeks
Pale and white
Oh a fright
I couldn't accept goodbye

They say the time will come
When I run
When I have fun
For me the clocks seemed to stop

It boils and brews, but nothing can I do.
It fill me up to the top, and spills over.
I pace and wait trying to ease my restless state.
Your word won't help please don't try.
They just fuel the blaze, the tears.
Why try to explain when you won't hear.
A yonder I ponder will it ever get better.
If I cool the the hum of the song we sung.
And wish to the starry skies above.
I wish to be rid of the anger the pain the tears.
Go to a tier of simple simplicity.
A world just right for me.

If I could say what I think.
Maybe I wouldn't feel empty.
Because just maybe you would stay.
But now I feel my hour glass,
is running on nothing,
From the past laughter,
To the present silence,
Though thousands of faces that pass by,
I'm still here.
My shallow breaths, and small frame,
Still supporting life,
Just as much as the massive oak,
That bids me a good morrow as i pass,
Or the wind who calls me home,
You don't notice at all?
Can't you see!
I'm still here.
You're satisfied with what you see,
But you know don't you,
You know there's much more then that,
No matter how much you want to rid me,
No matter what you make your self believe,
I'm still here.

Why do I feel this way?
It's like my life's a play,
Smiling faces masquerading,
Verbatim to the script.
Why is my heart so sad?
You weren't mine to have.
You had me going,
I should've know but,
Your lies deceived me now,
I hope you can see what you've done to me,
As you watch me standing barely breathing.
I've made it through worse weather,
Without you I can get better,
But with you I my loose directions,
Spinning round my hearts reflecting,
I'm lost.
Do you remember me,
All what we use to be,
But now that's over,
You've grown colder,
Where did you go?
Remember when you loved me?
Now I think how could you leave,
You were my everything,
Now I,
I am lost.

Life to me is like taking a swim,
No matter how calm or peaceful the water looks,
Dangers hide in the current.
Life will pull you under,
Sinking deeper into the waves that crash.
You kick hard fighting the water,
desperately you try and grap hold of anything.
You're running out of air and time.
So you latch on to the person that isn't submerged.
You grab hard, pull hard,
But instead of bringing yourself up,
You just pulled someone down.
And as you sink slowly to the bottom,
You regret what you did.
But you can't fix it now,
It's far to late.
Because life is like taking a swim.