I feel them
Crawling around inside me
Eating me inside out
They are destroying me
And I can’t stop them

I’ve tried it all
I’ve done all the methods
And tried all the pills
But
Nothing works

For I sit alone in my bed
And cry my last tears
As I feel them take complete control
And I am gone

The demons have broken me
Into unfixable pieces
As I am now gone

B.C.

Was she…..

So simple
Or
So complex

So friendly
Or
So pretending

So happy
Or
So depressed

So alive
Or
So dead

You never know

B.C.

I am the only person
Alone in a crowded room

I am the only person
Who can’t see ahead

I am the only person
With my head down

I am the only person
Who cries in bed for hours

I am the only person
Who doesn’t know what love is

I am the only person
Who receives so much hate

I am the only person
Who worries 24/7

I am the only person
Burdened by my own existence

I am the only person
Then, Now, and Forever

B.C.

My monsters sit on my shoulders and talk to me
They point out things
Every flaw
In others
And in me

At first they kept me company
But now my monsters just hurt me
Putting down everything I do
Never do I get a break
From this unwelcomed terror

Fat
Ugly
Stupid
Worthless
Scared
Alone
Annoying
Nothing
Pain
Emo­
Selfish
Insane
Disgrace
Creepy
Strange
Outcast

These are only a few
Of the names my monsters call me
To them I'm pointless
They put me down
And make me think

Maybe
Just maybe
They might be right

My monsters laugh
They have destroyed me
For that was their plan all along
To hurt me
To cause me pain
To make me fear myself
To make me so insecure

Just to hurt me
Just to laugh
They become believable
After time and time again

My monsters left me
Once I was destroyed
For my friends at once
Had ruined me
Only to leave me all alone

My monsters are gone now
But they left me in a million pieces
So now there is no point to go on


B.C.

They feed me more and more
When I refuse to eat
They think I’m starving myself
But I’m not
I’m just not hungry
Is that such a problem?

They yell at me
When I fail to do something correctly
They think I’m rebelling
But I’m not
It was just an accident
Is that such a problem?

They call me names
When I stand up for myself
They think I want control
But I don’t
I just shouldn’t have to take all of that
Is that such a problem?

They make me do things
When I lay around
They think I’m lazy
But I’m not
I just can’t ever sleep at night
Is that such a problem?

I know I don’t eat as much as I should
I know I make mistakes
I know I’m not perfect
I know I could do more

But I’m not hungry
But it was an accident
But I shouldn’t have to take all of that
But I can’t ever sleep

I know I am such a problem
And I’m sorry…

B.C.

She sits alone
Face soaked with tears
Hands shaking
Broken mirror
****** knuckles
Holes in walls
Tissues everywhere
And blood dripping down her arms
She takes one last look
And hates what she sees
She can’t stand herself
And never could
She was never strong
Nor happy
And always alone
She picked up the blade
And made one last slit
Now she’s gone
And I’m left sitting alone

B.C.

“What is stopping you?”

“The fear of caring.”

“The fear of caring?”

“Yes, I’m scared to care.
I’m terrified to care for people because they always hurt me and leave me. So I don’t see the need to care for people. It’s like walking into a labyrinth holding hands so you don’t get lost and then the person trips you and runs away leaving you lost and stuck in the labyrinth all alone. So yes I am scared of caring because I am scared to be alone.”

B.C.