brandy

brandy Dec 2020

anxiety

to me, anxiety is an eerie endless maze
it doesn't matter how i turn, the end i can not find
it's confusing just as much as it is terrifying
to me, anxiety is a thousand eyes
all focused, piercing, and unkind
it's paralyzing just as much as it's pressure
to me, anxiety is a swarm of hornets
every thought injecting venom into my mind
it hurts the same as their stings

brandy Dec 2020

projected insecurities

i am **** and i don't care what you say
i'm hot and bold in my own way
i know your hate's what you project
insecurities you try to protect
well it won't work on me.

brandy Dec 2020

you are my sunshine reversed

original artist Johnny Cash
TW LOSS
i was their sunshine
their only sunshine
i made them happy
their times were gray
but i can not feel now
how much they loved me
i was their sun
but you took my world away

brandy Dec 2020

depression

imagine sitting in a chair with just your mind chained to the ground.
you're trapped inside your body, with motivation nowhere found.
with arms stretched to the sky
you hold hope, but can not fly
wish you awoke before your life flew by.
i thought i'd blinked, but i've closed my eyes for years.

brandy Dec 2020

i'm sorry that i hate you

TW SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, LOSS
i hate the way i love you and i hate the way you're gone
i hate that i cant say goodnight so i'll lay up past dawn
i hate the way god took you and i hate the way you left
i hate that i'm still breathing while you've taken your last breath
it hurts that i can't hold you and that i don't know how to cope
for every plan that heals my pain leaves me hung by a rope
i wish i either got to say goodbye or i wish i never knew
cuz now i'm angry, greif filled, and numb
but i still love you so *******

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