Rays set to illuminate her left
Making her form a black silhouette
As she twirls with ribbons in her hair

The sun gives her gold curls a halo
Giving her sea eyes more life to drown you
She turns and flashes you a last smile

Night wind blows her redolence toward you
Wrapping you in living desire
As she dances into the darkness

The moon scoffs at your loss your impulse
Passion to rage as you’ve lost her again
You storm out of the moons mocking light

Laughter sets way to the teasing sun
Seething with angst, desire for dusk
Racing to the cliff waiting for her

The sun setting behind the sea line
Then fireflies light your bitter green eyes
As they linger on the clear cold sky

Waves jump to kiss the maiden goodnight
Blushing the azure sky fire red
Out of the sun she appears dancing

She smiles, laughs and winds around you
Lingering behind you taunting you
Tying, lashing your stomach in knots

Sun reflects her alabaster skin
Fair with alive eyes and honey curls
Alluring, will crushing temptation

The sun is fading below the sea
Turning seizing her delicate arms
Only to have her slip through in fear

The waves reach wash away the left light
Cast an abhor glance atop bare skin  
As she danced into the darkness

Fireflies shed more light than the sun
Cast long shadows of her fading shape
You lunge after her, reaching her hand

The suns slow evanescence over
The moon beamed at the failed attempt
Laughter rang with you into the sea

Inner peace or depression
The warmth that I feel filling my core
And rising to my cheeks and silent lips
Numb from the nonexistent words filling the air
The calm that surrounds the present loneliness
It hums
Soft and melodic
Filling the studio as the warmth of lone candles cast shadows on the walls
Windows closed
Enclosing my padded room
That no one can see beauty in
The lovely fall of an old soul
Floating in warm cream
Submerged in a colorful mind
Unseen through dark eyes
A stain glass portal into soft chaos

My old savior
My old hero
Why do your cries not touch me
Deep inside
Your words
They can't grasp my soul
And take me out of this pit
Hello
Hello
Remember me
I'm everything they can't control
My old partner
My old lover of spirit
Now that your not here with me
Now that we have grown apart
I see you across these dark woods
I see your smirk
I see you draw your sword
As I do the same
Like I was taught
And apart
We race into the dark
Fearing not what lurks in the shadows
But what is chancing us from behind.

When the trees take root in the sky
And the planets rotate in the ground
The black bird sings a song of yellow
And the canary sings the mourning sound

We walk past where the sidewalk ends
And  transparent solid ground we fall
All green color eyes at our finger tips
Hour glass eyes falling past our closed toe call

Everything a dream
What we want things to be
For the attention of it
The reality is the worst
The real me is the worst me

Maroon painted on our sky
Green splashed our sea
Your octopus garden grows
As our river of fire flows
Flying through rock
And climbing over air
The impossible broken
My eyes woken

By candle light anger flickers
Children raised by children fight
To lift them selves from ashes
Hopes and fears of a new life drive

A revolution
A rebellion

Under velvet water chains drown
Chewed free by desperation
Every old habit dies hard
All dreams are held down by something

A miracle
A spark

Light your fires
Let your eyes awake
Everything cast a shadow
Every shadow has a light
There is no such thing as fear
Only lack of adventure
Let go
Breathe

Hot wind blows down dominance
Your not needed to reach down
Try to lift us up no more
Raising our selves is what we’ve done

Our hands
Our will

From the mud a smile shines bright
Freedom playing in its new ears
No shame have they learned, no hate
New eyes search for ways to improve

A life
A love

Light your fires
Let your eyes awake
Everything cast a shadow
Every shadow has a light
There is no such thing as fear
Only lack of adventure
Let go
Breathe

The flames still glare as a passion
Chains still drown and hot winds swirl
Mud is dirt and decay mixed with
Pain and suffering, shoe imprints
Sky water

What’s left
From the ashes
From the dirt
From the rain

Comes mud

Oh my dearest friend
Old as the night
I have done this again,
My heart is polyamorous
Love is love
And lust does not matter
Deep
As the trees root currents
Flowing with the life force under la terre
Writhing golden strands
Flowing to all who are willing to drink
There you remain my love
Ten yards off the shore
And here he is
Across from me sipping gently
"Wont you join me for a dip?"
As he takes my hand he beckons
As I float you smile
And keep your eyes locked on my face
"Come my love, dip your toes in the mud" I whisper to him
The one I love remains on the shore
While another is already shoulder deep next to me
Keeping me afloat

In reference to your prior question: no, I am not sane. My trees are red and, my grass purple. On this psychedelic plane I speak to those within reality. While I am not sane, my mind is quite sound. All one is able to do is to describe their surroundings, outright, or abstract, and just like you with stable brain waves, that is all I seek to accomplish. Now how can you call me a mad man?

All were blinded by your beauty
How ever fake it was
I remember those days so safe
Before your real light appeared
Seeping through the cracks in your mask
Only few saw and reached
Then the betrayal of ugliness burned them

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

There were few that witnessed the fall
Our blindfolds ripped from us
And see the monster you’ve become
Some refuse to see you
Most are still blinded by your memory
You made these whole hearts torn
Cold and ugly you have become
That was not the fate we foresaw

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

To you I scream in agony
Come back home though I can’t promise
Forgiveness is what you get
Our pride is strong, heavy and pure
Our hearts fortress is stronger
Your memory is always welcome
Only when it is no longer
When you are no longer a memory
You will be let back in

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

Sweet pictures of old paint my mind
Your sun is coming love
Open your eyes and see the pain
Yourself inflicted pain
The pain that you passed out to others
From your black box
Like your fake affection and trust

Seeming so strong
It was only time that you fell
So hard
Crashing, your shards made us bleed
All you were was a lie
Waiting to break us all
All you were was a lie
Now your true light guiding you
The wrong way

How long will you stare at the celling
How many nights will you cry
How long will you go on
With the guilt inside
How long will you lie to your self

Now we are strong
When is it our time to fall
So hard
Crashing, when will we make you bleed
All we are is a lie
Born from lies we walk
All we are is a lie
Until we realize that we are racing
The wrong way

If only things were simple
You and I
Worlds rotating around would make so much more sense
If the people who are rotating around us were whole
But since we live on an egotistical planet
And everything we see is only a reflection of ourselves
What broken wretches we remain.
Oh my dear
If only things were simple
Hate, pain and loss would dissipate
And there would be no greener grass
No fence at all
Because my dear,
If things were simple
There would be no need for change
Hope would not exist
And we would graze where we were told along with the rest of the sheep
Oh my darling,
If only things were simple
There would be no gilt
No adventure
No regret
No mistakes
No lies
No lust
No life
I believe there is some truth to this egotistical world of ours
In a land of oposites
We are never content with comfort
And are able to keep our souls
You and I my dear
If only things were simple
We would be suffocating in the mundane

Walking down the ***** needle filled streets I see the poster everywhere. I swear any unclaimed space all around Van Nuys there’s my naked body and fake eyelashes. Thank God for computers otherwise my ******* would be recognized no matter where I was in this ****** city. Its not a cush life doing what we do, but hell it pays rent in this God forsaken place.

Rain dance
We all sing to the sky
Dancing and twirling to the ever present moon light
"Bring the thunder! Bring the clouds!"
Pulsing louder and louder even the children cry
Within these nations
Separate but souls united
One can have to many days of the sun
"Brother raven"
she whispers
"Please bring word to above
"Our crops are dying
"Our souls are thirsty
"And our rivers thin
"Please, Oh Tlaloc,
"Cleanse us of our sin"
Prayers danced through the night

The madness is gone
Suffocated and buried
In layers of linen
Wrapped so tight, keeping me warm
Stepped into a new time
A dimension without recognition
Where I am the only stranger
Running from the past
Where I was unfamiliar in the mirror
And known by everyone
I feel my chaos
Pounding in my chest
Spreading through limb to limb
Trying to find anyway out
What I have hidden from
The things I miss the most
Too intertwined to distinguish
I have to focus on his face
But when I am unguarded
I feel him wrap around me
Whispering gifts and sorrows back to an old soul
No one may bring me liberation or chains
These confines are ones that I have created with my own blind hands
I will re-learn to sing my own lullabies

The words
The verses
The whispers of wisdom and grace
Floating out in the atmosphere
I am with them
High in this sky
The air is thin and cold
My human body is gasping for even one breath
One life sustaining inhale
Sweet
Yet I can taste the rising pollution on my panting tongue
I can feel them
The syllables forming beauty around my mind
So close
To translucent to grasp
Reaching out with my hands only to find dust
As my brain comes out of my latest illusion
The only thing I find here;
Is a hollow shell of an earth that I used to understand

The smell of the sky
Just before a thunderstorm
Is calling me to come dance

The first thunder clap
Beats the charcoal sky
As I stare in to the heavenly abyss

The dime-sized drops
Covering the parched ground
Making my hair dripping

The electricity in the air is rising
I know that lightning is coming
Looking in the gray blanket I wait

All colors yet none
Flash across the sky
My face upturned I spin

Letting mother earth
Take her corse
I call you out and we dance

In our ears
The wind howls
Like wolfs we praise the sky

Spinning, jumping, singing
We embrace the beautiful chaos
Around us

Frizzy haired
And huge smiles
We play under the sky jungle

The thunder
Sending vibration to our senses
Only makes us dance faster

Rolling in laughter
Almost to the point of tears
Lightning sneaks up on us

Sometimes I look at you
And it seems but a dream
In those moments
I do not know your soft face
But remember it
From within forgotten sleep
And as I did then
I become lost in your ocean eyes
Never wanting to resurface

Running from the past
Hiding from the future
Blocking out eternal pressures
By standing still with eyes closed
Dreaming that it would all disappear
Whether I disappear
If am left alone in my death
To realities of this world
Peoples joy can haunt me
Tease me
No more
Finally cold and alone
Left in peace with my bleeding mind

I write, I express emotion
I use words no one will read, hear or utter
I create worlds within this head of mine
And try to convey them to the people
So that they too can feel the grass that I dream of
I greave
To the point that it wells up inside me
And there’s no way to keep it in any longer
Instead of leaking salty crystals
Because I have to much pride
My pen takes me to a place of ongoing ink
Where rivers run black
And skies are grey
Where the sun rises and gives hope to weary
And the stars guide me through the night
This genius of mine is a writer
Able to bring light to these dead eyes
And rebirth forgotten feelings
But fear is a creature of hideous evil
And beautiful comfort
I fear that is this genius is rejected
If this part of me dies there is no hope
No light for me to follow back to my world of grass and grey skies
That forever I will be lost to the wicked ways of this world.
And the only escape is death.

Desert of mine,
So cold
As I melt in your blistering sun
Why do you leave me,
Stealing the wind
Rain
And voices
Now the only thing left
Is the slowing sound of my heart beat,
For my soul left long ago.

This mist wraps around me
Freezing my heart to a stop
While curdling my blood
And chilling my bones
Sealing my eyes with frost
So that I can't see the hands sweetly suffocating me
Putting me to rest
In ***** eternal sleep
So I can't feel your breath on my neck
Or your hands around my hips
Or when you toss me aside when your done
Like an old rag doll
This mist wraps around me
Locking the door to my own prison and shelter
So that if I wake
All you were is a nightmare

The time
Passes faster and faster each cycle
Broken upon broken
Hurt upon hurt
Will you never learn
Friend of mine
You have been saved
And to your savior you only bring destruction
To whome you thought renewed you
You give trust and praise
But yet again
Your thrown into the melting ***
To be twisted
Conformed
And molded
My dear friend
Why are you so blind?
Just another angry song to be written
As you are made a fool of
Yet again.

Fist clenched
Clutching weeping thoughts

As you stand
Sunless days passing you

Worlds waving good bye
For you could not step into they’re atmosphere

Going, always going
Never gaining another step

These are the days
That will be forever yours

Unless you gain the strength
To go on

You are who you are
All of your pain

Until you can run
Turn your back on all the things that held you

Pain on pain
Stamp them to the ground

Burry them
Let dirt bind them

I feel you
My love
If I let my mind linger long enough
I can feel you
Your frizzy curls
And whiskers tickling my cheeks
The warmth of just a smile
Kissing my core
In the way of the butterflies
I am set free

Lost.
It was to you that I knew I could always turn
I've always been independent
With friends behind me all the while
So close to the edge now
And no one is there to keep me from falling
But theres also no one to push me off
Alone I stand
No one close enough to stab my back
Or pick me up again
So this is me
Drawing my sword
And racing into the un-known
All I need to do now
Is find my heading
And take that one step into whatever I choose
On my own.

The one that caries all that is deep and warm within me
She flows like a golden river from limb to limb
Always searching for a way out of my body to be heard
But only seldom finds an exit from my exoskeleton
Leaking out from my fingertips
Or the corner of my lips
Like another soul speaking wisdom to my kin
As well as to my own ears
So that I may cary on another day
So that I can feel her warmth keeping my heart beating

As my mind bleeds
It creates pictures on a canvas
For the world of strangers to view
Mock
And take for what they will
As my mind bleeds
And the oxygen droplets reach the floor
They start to fill my room
All the cracks sealed
Nothing can escape out my door
Into my family
My known world
Dear all of you who only hold a canvas in your eyes
I don't ask you to accept it
I don't ask you to hang it within the walls of your heart
Just take it for what it is
Hideous
Or beautiful
Your eyes hold my life blood
My soul is staring back at you
Talk to her if you'd like
I can't promise she won't bite
But she is my guardian
The green glow in my eyes
And the red to my lips
Kiss who ever they will
Draw blood
Or break hearts
My blood will not stain your hands
Your shadow will not cover my sheets of canvas left on the streets to dry
My guardian protects me
For your viewing only
Strangers of mine

The spirits awaken
As we dance to the sky
The fire
Bursting into the night
Sparks
Floating into stars
Igniting the forests into life

Did your life stop
Did you rest in the end
Or are you lingering here
Within purgatory
Rising from the maw of hell
Locked under the ceiling of the real world

These images
That sparks words of pen
Are not only ones that I hold as photograph
But memory
Memory in which I live every night as dreams overtake me
Lands of death and magic
That fade intro the unknown with the dawning of the sun
But as the clouds come
The night reveals pieces of itself to my eyes
With the light of day
I only see things of this world
And my home becomes lost
Until once again darkness overtakes my soul

I feel it rising my friend,
This joy vaulting up through my stomach
For life
For passion
Thank you for your courage
From one small town
Across the world
The people will here the words cried from the mouths of the trees
And we will remember
The joy
The peace
Of a time when we all were indian
When we all were human.

The sight of you still makes me high
I fade into the monochrome
As you walk through
Not breathing as you move
For if you breathe me in
Back to the start
My dearest
After you
All I need to do is lay down
And die
You ruin me
Ages later
You still ruin me

Why am I so addicted to your memory
To you I let my self go
And you took me in
Now I stand here
Looking into the rain of the night
From in your warm shelter
I long to be alone in the cold
To be able to breathe in the wet air
Wrap soaking clothes around my self tighter
To walk down the alleys and feel the danger
Feel the grimm wrapping on my lightless door and his breath on my neck
No longer can I breathe you in
Let your arms hold me safe and tight
All I want is freedom from this spiral cage
And to dance in my never ending night

Distance
Feeling the world through the soft exoskeleton forming
Still swaying to the sound of music
From inside my self created bliss
I cannot see you
Only remember your face
If you again can reach me
That will be your own fate

There is this sadness
Pooling in my heart
In its dark reflection
All I see is your face
Unruly curls
Solum smile
And the saddest of eyes
Where the warm sea
Meets the harsh reality of land
Resting inside of those windows
Haunting me again
While I need you to need me
Lothe me
Love me
Hold me
Hate me
For while I am with him
While I lie
And love him
The hole that rests within my chest
He has never filled
The hand full of flesh and bone
That I hoped you still hold to you

As I block out the light
And sit in my grey
I search for the light of the moon
Mother and lover of all in the night

The day burns my eyes
So I cover it with a smile
Letting the sun shine through my ghost
Everyday I hide, this part of me dies

This wind that I try to catch
Threatens to blow my shell away
Leaving me open, bleeding and exposed
Taking all my ties, weakly attached

Mother of mine
How far I've ran
How long I've pretended
I knew hiding would be my demise
How I lived with all my filth and lies
Brings shame to all the seers
My kind

Do you see it out there?
This other fate
Coming in like a whorl-wind
Into our created comfort
Head long into our cross-eyed sight
We will soon be joined by moths
Lost within a great winged pattern again
Not needing to search for the way out furthermore
But swept up off our feet all the same
Do you see it out there, my love?
Will you not meet it head on beside me?

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everything I love
I fear will burn to the ground
Yet again
What sickness is this
What evil processes my soul
How does it haunt these green eyes
And turn my soul cold
How am I able to twist the knife in my hand
Deeper and deeper into you
And into my chest
As I hug you close
I drive it further

Baby, I'm lonely tonight
She sang softly into the microphone
A room full of people
and I know she was alone
She never did live in anyone else's world
But I remember her living in mine
All those years ago
Lying naked under giggling covers
Watching her day dream with night eyes
Closed up tight
Listening as she always was
Her reality
In wake and dream
Whirls of color
Shades of mist
She's added a few wrinkles
And a few grey hairs
But she hasn't aged a day

Seasons never stay green
The rain always comes
And washed the color away

The green flows into the river
Where we used to spend sun filled days
Leaving loving memory in the mud

A new season starts
Brown and grey stains all optimism
As we fantasize about drowning

Black midnight skies bring out shadows
So we have silent company
A new face to dance into the regretted dawn

We walk to the gallows
To remember all that have moved on
Tears are useless they didn't mean to leave us here

Clover covers where muddy feet tread
A green carpet for our friends last bed
Their sweet smell carries us to the river side

Transparent color flows to fast to grasp
Memories drift back
As the sin sinks and reality fades

We fall into our river
Forever floating in color out of reach
The gallows will never have us, our souls we keep

Grey and hard like rocks weigh us down
Eyes never have color to see
My shadow and I will not rest in clovers
Eyes never have color to see

I’m looking at you through the glass
I don’t know how long its been
Sitting there observing me
Next time you watch me
Next time you have the urge to test me
Remember what your studying is me
I’m staring at you trough the window
I know your looking in
Watching my every move
Waiting to see how I react
Next time know I see you
Next time realize I have been watching you to
Realize what your staring at is me
Before you tell your self how strange I am
Before you tell the world how much different I am from the rest of you
Remember its only different from what you see
I can see you through the bars you have put me in
Making me the object of your ridicule
I cling to the iron bars
I will not cry
I will not beg for freedom
I will not give you the satisfaction
I will become stone
I curse the stars
For they have lied to me for the last time
You have ridiculed me for the last time
You have watched me for the last time
I am breaking free
I don’t care what you say
I don’t care if you try to tame me to your liking
You can control me no longer
I shall linger in this cell never again
I will break these bars
I will rip the shackles from my feet
And I will dance from dawn to dawn
I will love with the passion that one thousand swords can not break
I will laugh with all of my heart
And you shall never study me again
I don’t want you to feel what it felt like
I could never wish that on anyone
I want you to know that you never again have any power over me
I am free

She soothes a restless heart
An old soul
A weary head
My blanket
She comes to me in the quiet
When the moon is watching
Through clouds or clear
My guide
Showing me the inner workings of my skeleton
And fears
That lump I my throat
That no longer has the strength to build
But its memory there all the same
Dives my insanity into the darkness
Like a train into the unknown of a familiar land
When I am able to welcome the warmth of the warm car

The dark wood swallowed me alive
Trees
Black after black
Crying lifeblood in the name of the wicked
The stars glaring down at you
Reflecting the eyes of the hunting owl
Following the lost though the forest of memory
He waits
Until you breathe your last breath
And take your last step
It is then that you too become a hollow

The sweet melancholy of madness
Pulsing though my viens
As we lie in our sin
Letting the mud overturn our souls
Back into the dirt we fade

My Emily
My keeper
You don't have to protect me from your storms
While you may be far
Miles may never keep us apart
Sisters
Thicker than the blood leaving your body
For now we're reaching across states
Do not retake your hand I'm holding
While strong
Love I'm here for you to lean on
You can handle it on your own
But against the two of us
Worlds can fall
Let me back in to stay

Love or run
To scared to love
To brave to run
Now stuck
Listening for spirits to guide me down this path
My past ground
Muddy and grey
Not pure dirt
But mud made by my fathers blood and tears, fresh and old
And the shards of my mothers heart that she walked away from long ago
For all that I have left by the road side
My own shattered trust and dreams
Left in the darkness of the forest
The place I call home
Shaded away from the blinding sun
These are the covered paths that I walk
Alone in the end I know
For all that I love
The life lines that I grasp onto
Will only fade into memory
Then ever distant still
So there monsters of the dark I face
As they lurk about in shadow
Watching me as I try to decide
The meadow
Where I lay open
Naked
And exposed
To not only my company and the knife I know he carries
But to the red eyes awaiting me and my weakness
Or do I remain in the darkness with my demons
I am able to hide
And trust my land
Alone still to sleep with an eye open
Under the shelter of the trees
To love or to run
To live long and alone
Or to die in blissful anguish and fear

I see the new generations
Looking for a face as they pray
An imaginary man
On a throne in the sky
Singing out
Songs of Joy
Dancing to the rhythm of heir own heartbeats
Not a set of drums from above
The love and bliss
Building inside of them
Openly exposed in their free smiles
Originated from within their innocents
Spreading over a broken world
And pulling it back together
Until their own hearts break
And there is no face to see

This loneliness
It kills me
Song after song
Reminding me that all love slaughters in the end
And this deep depression
The one that I have found a home in
Is better than what lurks for me
When your finished with this madness of mine

Have you ever been somewhere
You can't return
Ever left your heart somewhere behind you
Even just by accident
And you can't gain the entire thing back
Can't apologize
Can't thank
But all you miss is the flame
And the way matches felt on your fingertips

Burning, burning, burning,
   we watch them all fall down.
There will be no ashes remaining in this place,
   the road we left scattered to the wind.
She will cary them softly,
   and return us all home.

I see the magic
Within this Indian Summer
And waxing Autumn
Half naked trees are stretching their limbs as far as they dare
With the change that is choking the air

These are writers hands of mine
thinking in verse and prose
trying to convey my heart to my head
and make sense of it all
they feel the vibrations
of the surrounding
they move like the crow and swallow
rapid
always watching with wisps and twarts
dancing in the sunlight and rain alike
half and half they are
my duality
or practicality and lust
callused and worn
they have been and will be with time
as it whisks me away
age may creek into my bones
the creases may sink
and veins raise
but they will remain to move the same
they are my expression
for often my voice refuses to work
my writing words are able to stay between
while my heart may wander
and my head become frustrated and stuck
perhaps they will be my wisdom
perhaps they will become my eyes
to see every day anew
to smell the flowers
and ignore the hours as they will pass all the same