Below the ocean
Under the waves and currents
Nothing to move me
Nothing to shift me
Silence, as I drown and my last breath
The only thing I’ve held on to for so long
Releases,
I find peace.

"Maybe I am just another **** up."
She whispered into my ear
"All of them were right,
keeping me away from their children. and whispering in the dark"
A heart cries from the darkness
and a young girl runs out
Strings from her cut off shorts streaming behind her
She tackles my friend into the mud
"You are free!" she screamed into her face
"You are free! Fight back!" she cried
Tears streaking the mud now plastered onto her face.
"You are free."
At that point they faded into the mud
Sin and savior all one within the dirt

This madness of mine, thickens by the hour
Still so in love with you,
And yet, so ready to break free
In hopes that I can see this world with new eyes
And return some peace to my mind

This heart of mine aches for yours
For within you
You hold me
I know I am safe with in your arms
The outside chaos you banish
Taking the lashes for me
You can feel me shaking
And my heart struggling to beat
So you pull me in closer
Whispering, promising in my ear that everything will turn out okay
My shelter and sun
I can't tell you
I can't let you know
How much I love you
And how much my fragile shell needs you to keep it together
But I fear my wings are stretching your heart to wide
And that I only cause you pain
I know you take it willingly
And that you love me all the same
But as my keeper I can't hold you any longer
I may clutch your arms around me
And burry my head in your chest
But my pain is not yours
It shouldn't be your fear that one day my insides will fall apart
One day you will find her
The one that you dream of
And feel at night
She will be able to give you back the love that you hand out so freely
To give you all that you deserve and more
My love, my light
Its time that I go

Im not here any more
My body will remain sitting
But my mind has flown far away
I am in a world of technicolor
Dancing in a sea of green
That your perfect vision can not see
Twirling with flowers in my hair
I enjoy your absence and wonder
About this crazed head of mine

The sound of your breathing, keeping me awake.
Even and at peace you move
Slow and gentle your mind speaks to mine
But if we both were to sleep,
     then there would be no look out for the monsters that always lurk near.

You visit me
   Sometimes
I see you peek through your eyes
Making sure the reality
   You've tried to disappear
Is in fact
   Still there
I see you
  You know,
Deep down
   In the heart,
I know is still there

The moon
She is peaking at me though the clouds
Whispering
Where have you been?
I watch her from time to time
Holding conversations with the stars
Dancing from one to the next
Charming her way through the night
Still she whispers
Where have you been my fragile love?
For she is so large
And down here all I can do is gaze
And remember
The times when I too used to dance
Among the stars
One day
One of these lonely days
I too shall return to my home land
Within the dark sky

I see you
On the other side
Still holding that piece of me
No mater where we stand,
No mater what places we crawl into,
No mater where ever we may find rest,
Hold onto that,
for it is yours
And no one else can touch it