The words
The verses
The whispers of wisdom and grace
Floating out in the atmosphere
I am with them
High in this sky
The air is thin and cold
My human body is gasping for even one breath
One life sustaining inhale
Sweet
Yet I can taste the rising pollution on my panting tongue
I can feel them
The syllables forming beauty around my mind
So close
To translucent to grasp
Reaching out with my hands only to find dust
As my brain comes out of my latest illusion
The only thing I find here;
Is a hollow shell of an earth that I used to understand

Lost.
It was to you that I knew I could always turn
I've always been independent
With friends behind me all the while
So close to the edge now
And no one is there to keep me from falling
But theres also no one to push me off
Alone I stand
No one close enough to stab my back
Or pick me up again
So this is me
Drawing my sword
And racing into the un-known
All I need to do now
Is find my heading
And take that one step into whatever I choose
On my own.

Why am I so addicted to your memory
To you I let my self go
And you took me in
Now I stand here
Looking into the rain of the night
From in your warm shelter
I long to be alone in the cold
To be able to breathe in the wet air
Wrap soaking clothes around my self tighter
To walk down the alleys and feel the danger
Feel the grimm wrapping on my lightless door and his breath on my neck
No longer can I breathe you in
Let your arms hold me safe and tight
All I want is freedom from this spiral cage
And to dance in my never ending night

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everything I love
I fear will burn to the ground
Yet again
What sickness is this
What evil processes my soul
How does it haunt these green eyes
And turn my soul cold
How am I able to twist the knife in my hand
Deeper and deeper into you
And into my chest
As I hug you close
I drive it further

The time
Passes faster and faster each cycle
Broken upon broken
Hurt upon hurt
Will you never learn
Friend of mine
You have been saved
And to your savior you only bring destruction
To whome you thought renewed you
You give trust and praise
But yet again
Your thrown into the melting ***
To be twisted
Conformed
And molded
My dear friend
Why are you so blind?
Just another angry song to be written
As you are made a fool of
Yet again.

Below the ocean
Under the waves and currents
Nothing to move me
Nothing to shift me
Silence, as I drown and my last breath
The only thing I’ve held on to for so long
Releases,
I find peace.

As my mind bleeds
It creates pictures on a canvas
For the world of strangers to view
Mock
And take for what they will
As my mind bleeds
And the oxygen droplets reach the floor
They start to fill my room
All the cracks sealed
Nothing can escape out my door
Into my family
My known world
Dear all of you who only hold a canvas in your eyes
I don't ask you to accept it
I don't ask you to hang it within the walls of your heart
Just take it for what it is
Hideous
Or beautiful
Your eyes hold my life blood
My soul is staring back at you
Talk to her if you'd like
I can't promise she won't bite
But she is my guardian
The green glow in my eyes
And the red to my lips
Kiss who ever they will
Draw blood
Or break hearts
My blood will not stain your hands
Your shadow will not cover my sheets of canvas left on the streets to dry
My guardian protects me
For your viewing only
Strangers of mine