I've come to realize momentary ignorance is not blissful.
Granted, i may be doing it wrong.
It is not what i do not know,
it's what i chose to forget.
A facade, to wear this lovely mask that has fit so well for years.
As I wait,
or we,
for a change that i dare say may never happen.
In all honesty it might just be I.

..

I had a conversation about soul mates not too long ago,
apparently they're a myth.
That any person can be the one if you give them the chance.

I dunno how i feel about that,
makes love dull.
It's special to fight through thick and thin when you know its not easy to find.
Special because it's worth it in the end,
though i have not reached the euphoric part of that bargain.
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Three Cheers to THREE years tho lol amirite,
maybe the universe will allow me to rightfully quote that song title one day.

Get a move on,
times a tickin.

No room for pauperism,
thoughts much more valuable than
minuscule discomforts.

My hands are full darlin,
much to do,
a quarrel with ya don't compare to potential melodies unsung.

So get a move on and pull yourself together,
trail behind and we’ll sail to spite the weather.

Hide me in your shadows,
panic strikes to conceal the truth.

The flame forced away while
you scramble to collect your belongings.

This house will soon become indistinguishable,
whilst i lay in the attic awaiting the fire.

Apprehension has been consuming me.
a longing for the future
or what it may hold.
My heart clenched while my mind
counts down the hours of each day.

This void has steered my perception into space,
leaving me expecting what i should know to be nothing.

There is nothing to hope for.
No one there to listen to my senseless babbling,
inappropriate laughter,
and to simply keep my heart warm.
--
Loneliness is here to stay,
till I am desperate enough to call it a friend.

I glance at my reflection,
as hollow silhouette glances back.

My heart winces,
whilst i analyze the bags that have claimed the territory
underneath my eyes.
Vision blurs while my mind reminds me
of what once was,
and I'm gone again

I'm glad to be your friend,
here to stay awhile.
Even with time running short,
I'll set off to walk the mile.

I'm happy to stick around,
no problems here.
Conversations filling the air,
till its time to grab a beer.

Now I've been here for quite some time,
down to just me.
But you seem to be distracted,
wanting to be left free.

So i think its time i go,
you seem to be a new.
For the ones who once ran,
are more of an interest to you.