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awallflower Feb 2014
Our wings were clipped.
We never stood a chance.

They said take heart and what we seek will come,
So as they cover our eyes and blind us with promises
I dream of a better day with better dreams
But slowly my heart sinks
My hopes are anchored to a rock
And all the dreams have been dreamt.
In this tomb,
The same darkness welcomes me when I open my eyes.

We thought we could change our destiny
We didn't know they cast our future in stone
And as the grains of sands in this hourglass of time slipped away,
I knew that we were running out of seconds,
They didn't spare us dreams anyway.

I thought that I can metamorphose
And that this is only a stage that shall pass.
But the lies that I pull out of thin air
Isn't enough to convince myself.
I turn to them once more.
I couldn't see the sun but they said "Have hope."
And so I did.

In this darkness,
I hope they cannot hear my cries.
I learned the truth and everything they hid from us.
Our wings were clipped,
We never stood a chance.
awallflower Jan 2014
They say that " What doesn't **** you makes you stronger "
I would like to say you made me stronger
But I think you bored holes and dug crevices in my heart
And as I pump your presence throughout me
You rush into every tendon, every sinew, every fiber of me.
I guessed I became you.

I didn't want to be a monster initially
I had no idea that my pulse would weaken
With every smile i cracked, every word I exchanged with you.
I didn't know when I lost my pulse, the exact moment my heart gave up the struggle.
I thought you tasted like ambrosia
But you are toxic - deadly - to my soul.
I didn't want to admit it when you left my side,
But I guessed a small part of me knew that you had poisoned me with darkness.

When he took over your presence,
I didn't want to let him in.
I am afraid that when he take my hand in his,
He would find no pulse.
I can foresee his shock and his apprehension
How long can I hide that my heart no longer beats for anyone?

You left me, but you left parts of you with me.
Your coldness, your detachedness and your darkness.
I can't look into his eyes, can't look through those tinted hazel brown windows to discover more.
I am afraid that I will steal his soul
And like you, maybe I would not give it back.
awallflower Jan 2014
Look into my eyes
See the darkness that I hide
Can you save this soul?
awallflower Jan 2014
If jealousy is a green eyed monster,
Anxiety will be a blued eyed monster
With thorns that you do not take notice of
Until its too late and you are trapped in its suffocating embrace.
Save me, please.

Anxiety will rob you of your breath
She leaves you gasping for air when everyone can breathe just fine.
I can't look around,
Or they will know there is no heart next to my failing lungs.
Save me, please.

Anxiety will steal your light away
She will leave you in darkness
When she knows your fear of the dark will **** you.
My eyes look around wildly
Seeing yet unseeing
I need to find my way out of this crowd.
There are too many eyes that can see through me
She keeps me blind.
Save me, please

Anxiety will take away your courage
I am not brave enough to be in a room full of people.
I am not brave enough to talk to the girl sitting beside me for the last six months
I am not brave enough to look into your eyes.
Anxiety is a blue-eyed monster that won't give me back my courage.
Please please please, give it back.
awallflower Jan 2014
I see the deadlines in things.

I see it in our conversation at 2am in the morning
When you made me muffle my laughter under the sheets
Hoping that my parents would not open my bedroom door.
Even in the haze of my joy, I could see the deadline of us blinking red.
But I was foolish,
I had hoped this thing between us would not spoil,
Even as the red numbers start their countdown.
      
Tick Tock Tick Tock

I can feel it in between us,
As thick as a wall, a barrier between our bodies
My heart clenches and I hurt,
When you smiled angelically and told me that we can be forever.
As I burn your smile into my memory,
I shook my head slightly.
How can there be a forever
when we must die as long as the clock ticks?

Tick Tock Tick Tock

I can hear the deadline in my palpitating pulse
It beats harder as I anticipate a reply *any reply

My heart skips a beat when you said you had forgotten to reply
For maybe the fifth time this fortnight.
When you said good night a few minutes later
My heart threatens to free fall.

Tick Tock Tick Tock

I can taste the deadline when you chose to end what we started.
You said "Maybe this is when we start to expire"
Bile rises up my throat and I cannot hold it in anymore.
I throw up just then.
This is my fear - that I am living in my nightmare
I cannot hold back what I feel for you.

I know our deadline is here - this is our closure.
You said goodbye and I whispered my farewell.
My clock stops ticking.
This verbal ***** is what i feel whenever i talk to someone. The feeling is so suffocating.
awallflower Jan 2014
There were always something beautiful
In those tiny specks of light
That glitters like diamonds in the night
They were named lucky stars;
We thank them
When events go in our favour

As they streak down this grand black canvass
Leaving a line of fire in their wake
We wish upon them so fervently
But I could never wish my destiny on these dazzling lights

The stars we see are so beautiful
But they are light years away
So far our of our reach
So much out of our control
We wish our fates on this twinkling gems
What a tradgedy it is that they are dying
And so are our hopes.

The splendor we see with our dazed eyes
Is only a facade that we wish to see

Stars
They are just dying suns.
I always felt like stars hold the secrets of our destiny. .. until tonight when i started to think about it.
awallflower Jan 2014
Burning in this abysmal void,
I wonder if it is gravity or love
that made you revolve around me
You orbit around me
as if I was the centre of your world but
looks deceive and it is you
that means so much to me

Its been four eons
Since the supernova that created you blinded me
Etched into my mind
Its impossible to forget that moment
When you entered my dimension
And I became your star

Every day I awake
to find you still in my orbit
I thank the stars from a solar system far away
For its a miracle
You have not elope with the moon
Who tries to charm you with his quiet presence

The fire in me died a little
For we do not seem meant to be
I am so far away from you
and the moon, so near
In an eclipse when I fought the moon
I saw how our struggle cast a shadow upon you
And I saw how our love was of light and darkness

You will never be allowed
to gravitate away
out of my sight,
for you are the fuel
to this blistering fire that consumes me.
Leave me and I will become a dark hole
A vacuum of void nothing
hoping to **** you back
into my grasp again
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