I want to change I swear I do But it can't Be a condition Set on a timeline Cause I thought You fell in love with me For who I am Not knowing who I'd become
I wear goofy Cause sad isn't in style And I may not be a comedian But I'm worth your while I have memorized Too many dad jokes To not make you smile And when the fun is over I'll go back to the gloom Till I can be the idiot Who lights up a room
I keep trying To convince myself That I don't care Then I catch myself Thinking about The fact that you Are not holding my hand Not laughing at my jokes Not enjoying my flowers So I'll keep trying To convince myself That I don't care
Sitting in the corners Of restaurants Looking over my back In grocery stores Leaving my door cracked In my bedroom Expecting you to appear And wound me again