OnLithium

OnLithium Jun 10

58

I rarely say
"I'm a poet"
When in all reality
I'm a mere collection
Of words
That I pray
Reaches someone

OnLithium Jun 10

57

I doth not knoweth
What m're I couldst sayeth
To changeth our loveth
Thy tears
Mine own blood
We has't both poured
M're than enow
To filleth cups ov'r
Thy eyes
Mine own lips
Has't spoken enow
To filleth books ov'r

OnLithium Jun 9

Unidentified

Trying to figure out
Who I am
Is like
Trying to combine
Bits and pieces
Of shredded papers
Sound bites that
Don't go together
Videos that
Don't look like me
Or at least
Who I thought I was?

OnLithium Jun 9

56

When the tide
Brings my body
To shore
I'm terrified
You
Won't
Be
There

OnLithium Jun 7

55

I can't continue
Like this
Relying on
Liquor
And Benadryl
To help me
Sleep
Begging for
Some sort of
Peace

OnLithium Jun 7

54

I sit here
Chewing holes in my mouth
Worrying
That someday soon
I'll be begging for the
Mercy
I never gave to myself

OnLithium Jun 7

Honestly?

I get asked questions
That I
Have already tortured myself with
For years
I get defensive
While being offered guidance
I get fueled by false hope
That someday
I'll have the wherewithal
To wake up
Look myself in the mirror
And be okay with what I see
But for now
Therapy blows chunks.