Her soul was stuck in the lost and found.
her body wondered around,
searching for something, but she didn't know what!

She lived her life at home stuck in a never ending time warp.
Walking down the halls, she looked down,
searching for something, but she didn't know what!

Her friends made her laugh and would bring a small ounce of life and hope into her,
she thought she found it,
but,
it wasn't it.

Her home life would consist if a never ending punishment.
a routine so grey and bland, not the worlds salt, pepper, or seasoning would bring it life.

She searched under rocks and pebbles and came up with nothing.
She settled for less...

He walked among the halls searching,  his hand carrying something precious
but he didn't know to whom it belonged.
His family weighed him down and tired him to the floor,
only looking to the floor
he searched unknowingly.
Moving from state to state, he searched and failed.
Giving up, he held his precious founding in his heart.

Looking down she walked towards her job
Looking down he walked towards his job
Slowly she put her costume on.
Slowly he put his uniform on.
Forcefully smiling, she waved at the little kids and worked.
Forcefully smiling, he helped costumers and worked.

She noticed him and her heart knew.
He noticed her and his heart knew.

My name is...
My name is...

7 days... he gave her his founding...
7 days... she found who had her soul...
the love they have is rare and alien.
but to them, its perfect and limitless.

They were lost,
but they found,
that in each other, they give life, love, and happiness.

Sitting outside, she watches the rain fall down.
she closes her eyes and sniffs the air
Wet Cement... yum.
her thoughts bring her back to earth.
Shutting her eyes tightly, she tries to think about something else
anything else.
because mentally saying goodbye to an old lover/friend/partner,  takes a toll.
She looks are her beautiful garden being watered by mother nature.
She squints as she sees one of her beautiful plant begins to wilt.
running towards him, she tries to save the plant.
digging up the root, running home, and putting in in a ***.
Keeping it safe.
but it's already too late.
she was already too late.
too late to save the plant.
too late to realize her true feelings.
too late to save them.
water drips down her face, she doesn't know if its tears or the rain.
She decides to save the other plant from the rain, but this one, she carefully touched it, carefully places it in the ***.
The plant seems strong, healthy, beautiful.
Sitting in her kitchen,  on that beautiful island top, she stares at these two plants.
Its too late to save one of them, but she saved the other one before anything.  
Her heart turns ans twists that she allowed it to happen to this beautiful plant.
To that beautiful plant.
Too late to save them.
too late to save him.
too late to say im sorry.
friendship tainted,
plant dying,
she places the dying plant outside in the rain.
wiping her face she goes back to her kitchen and sees the healthy plant and smiles.  She had plenty of time to save this one. Her favorite.

A warm arm wraps around her waist and fingers caress her sides.
Heat engulfs her and she feels better.
Turning around,
she faces him.
the plant she saved early.
changes will bring them closer.
Save their root so they can grow healthy.
Love. They have love. The plant had plenty of love.
They hug and entwine like vines.  
She stares at the window and watches the rain continue to fall
but this time, with a smile.

I am free.
The shackles have been removed
I can dance freely now
I can sing freely now
I can be me.

with my hands in the air, I feel the wind all over my body.
whispering their sweet nothings.

I am free.
Positive light runs through my core
my being
my veins
my heart
With a warm smile, friends gather me up and swallow me in the embrace.

I close my eyes and remember the demons,
my demons,
my family.

theyre gone
you're gone
you're free

No more lies,
just truths.
No more dark,
just light.
No more negative
just positive.

No hate... just love.
From the people that have been with me,
through the ugly and the bad.

Unlimited love.

His love
Her love
Their love.

Love makes her world go round.
Goodbye family.

*I am Free

His laugh is contagious
His smile is beautiful
His voice caresses her
His touch electrifies her.

He is what she wasnt looking for

As I lay here in bed,
I wish for many things.
But one major.
Is to not give a ****.

I try my best to be nonchalant
but deep down, I'm as sensitive as a pregnant woman about her weight.

Giving a ****... takes too much energy.
Energy I could be using for something else,
like sleeping, or eating or sleeping.

Feelings get hurt and emotions get mixed
and by the end of the night,
I'm just a pile of ****.
Because I care too much.

Not showing it is easy.
I laugh it off and continue my business.
But inside,
I'm a bawling mess.

**** me and my emotions.

Sorry for the inappropriate language,
but there's going to be those moments where those words fall out of your mouth faster than snapping your fingers.

Giving a **** is a curse.
Giving a **** is the worst.
I just wish, that i can give that crown to someone else.

Let them give a ****.
****.
****.
****.

... ****, I've said **** a shitload of times... Ha... well...
I'll learn to not care.
Practice makes perfect?
****... I don't even believe in that.
I need a smoke.
Maybe 2 smokes...
or 3...

You judging?
Well HA! I don't give a SH*T

Running past the gloomy forest
I run from...
Disappointment
Lies
Ugliness
My family

Running without looking back.
Energy and adrenaline pumping through my body.

Looking up I look up at the darkness
Closing my eyes I continue my way,
trying to find the light.
The positive.
The rainbows.

I run,
my feet bleeding
my ankles worn down
my heart pounding
my head dizzy
my resolution, strong.

Keep going

Sweat clouds my vision,
but wait...
What is that?

My feet carry me on as i sigh with happiness.
There is a light in the end of the tunnel.

Closing my eyes,
I say goodbye to the bad,
A smile covers my face and i cant take it off.

Fresh air surrounds me
The light burns my face,
but with pleasure I accept it.

I stop running,
Open my eyes,
and see the sun.
The flowers.
The love,
from friends,
and loved ones.

I take a step forward, but they run to me,
accepting, welcoming.

Closing my eyes for one more time,
I sigh.




*I am home.