You make me mad.
Or is it sad?
I can't decide.

I played with fire.
Burnt my hands.
Should've known how that pans.

So mad it is.
But not at you
At me, because I wanted you.

Hope- be the anchor in my soul
I'll tie me to you and never cut the rope

Trust- be the thing that I know best
With the enemy and his tests,  
I'll stand up strong

Burdens- I will lay them at your feet
Cause my strength can't compete
With your mighty power

Fear- be of my ancient past
With this flame I won't look back
Into the darkness

Love- It is something I can do
Because you did it first and I'm forgiven

Praise- I will praise your holy name
Cause your eternal flame
has put the enemy to shame

3 years, you say?
The timing is wrong.
If you make life a checklist,
You won't get along.
Love isn't a thing on a list to check off.
It's something that comes when your ready or not.
So go ahead, make your list
But you might find I was an opportunity missed.

Am i caught up on fiction?
Is this some type of disease?
Rid me of my ignorance,
I'm begging you. Please.
But if ignorance is bliss,
I'd be smart to stay shy.
Although if this is false hope,
I think I might die.

Tap tap tap tap
her fingers beat the wood.
The table did not deserve this
but her patience said she should.
Absence of a complex thing
is what drove her to the brink.
The brink or the door
whichever you prefer.
I am still waiting
writing to pass the time.
I realize now this is not my best rhyme.

You don't want to love me
I'm hung up on someone else
My heart is in his closet
Hanging on the shelf

I wanna love you back
But I can't without my heart
The closet door is locked
And i've turned pining into art

Your eyes are filled with hope
Your intentions don't seem bad
I want to know your soul
But I don't want to make you sad

So keep your laugh away
Because I love the way it sounds
And Keep your heart inside
Because my love won't come around

You don't want to love me
Because I want to love you back
But my mind's hung up on fiction
And my heart's under attack

I vow to Love you.
Not with a cheap kind of love
But a Love that is extravagant and priceless
A Love that was bought with a death
A Love that I know only from the pursuit of my savior
Now my Love will not be perfect
But by grace it will be a reflection of something that is
My Love will not be on the surface only
But deeply rooted in the center of my chest
Growing straight through both our ribs and connecting to your heart
Our Love will grow and flourish, getting stronger everyday
Blooming into a bond that cannot be broken
Though rain and wind may come
Our Love will keep on standing
No drought will be a threat when the Lord is on our side
We are not the creators of this Love that we will share
But we are blessed to eternally possess it
Although we have access to it, at times it may seem unreachable
This is no surprise because I am human and so are you
But I vow to see this through
I vow to Love you.

Jesus wept.
It wasn't a silent tear rolling down his cheek
She screamed at him through gritted teeth and He began to weep
He didn't cry because of death or the promise that He kept
But Jesus wept.
The tears flowed from His eyes for a people filled with lies
Like a father hurting for his sick child
Jesus cried for us all the while
The emotion that He felt was real
He cried for the pain that she had to feel
He knew in a moment her pain would be gone
But he felt her pain because of their bond
I can't help but wonder if it's a present tense verb
That wept is still weeping, we just haven't heard.

The number of faces I see each day
adds up and starts to fade away.
I exchange laughter and speak a lot
but never do my eyes get caught.

They say that love can be first sight
but never did I think it might.
Books and movies make it seem
but fiction's not reality

All I know is your eyes caught mine
I close them now,  you're in my rhymes.
You spoke to me but i couldn't hear
my heart was beating so loud i feared
that you could hear it and walk away
but i don't know what made you stay.

I do not hide it in my chest
my heart is always on my sleeve.
Not that i like it out there, best
I just forget to keep it conceived.

This issue could be good or bad
but for me, it is a problem.
I tell too much of happy and sad
in hopes that he will hold them.

But alas my heart is dropped
and I am left retrieving
the broken pieces on the ground
in a rush to stop the bleeding.

When I gather all the parts
there is one piece missing.
I'll add it to the list of lost
but there is no point in wishing.

When i have it all sewed up
a fool i am to place it back,
Not in my chest where it can hide
but on my sleeve where secrets lack.

You'd think by now I'd be more wise.
I'd learn to keep my mouth shut too.
I wouldn't freely give my heart but
Maybe it's cause I hope they're you.

save my heart
wrap it up
keep it beating from the start

don't let me look
from left to right
at those who'll take it part by part

his eyes are kind
his hands are strong
but his soul could do me wrong

i know it's safe
but i'm not patient
keep me from his temptation

Lord hold my heart
until i find
the man who's hands are big enough

The clocks shorter hand rolls around again
It goes unnoticed cause my mind's deep in thoughts of you
You've poisoned my blood
The doctor says I've got a bad case of love
I need a cure for this.

Thermometers are useless
Because the fever's in my heart
My temperature  is rising
This love is gonna tear me apart
The thought of your name
My head is throbbing do you love me the same?
I didn't let this happen easily
I put up all my walls
But the germs crawled through them all
I've been infected by your disease
I'm lovesick for you.

What happened to an apple a day?
And why didn't keep you away
My legs and my arms they are shaking
My heart is pounding, no it's racing
I've got the shakes and the shivers
They're bad as can be

Darling, won't you just love me.

Faces, faces lost in the crowd
Planes coming in and planes going out
With the hustle and bustle a soul can get lost
If I talk to this person, how much time will it cost?
Not a thing will I loose but only I'll gain
Look at her soul, she could be going through pain
Maybe she is, maybe she's not
But could I spare a minute?
A lifetime's been bought.

The truth is I think about you more than I should. You run through my mind like a never- ending song. It’s a funny thing though, because I have never met you. How can a stranger penetrate every daydream? I think about us holding hands and your smile. How you will be taller than me. Your laugh. The same laugh that will try not to shine through when I get angry. Because some times I will get angry. I think about us holding hands and your gentle touch. The same touch that will show my kids kindness. The hands that will guide and grow my kids with my help. I think about how much passion and perseverance you will have when it comes to supporting and leading our family. I think about how that passion will come from the first true love of your life: Jesus Christ. I think about how the love Of God will be like a fire caught up in your bones. How it would make you weary to hold it in, so you don’t.  You bless everyone who comes in contact with you with the light of Christ. I think about how I will be the second love of your life and you will love me with all that you have. You will not be perfect, but neither will I. I think about how my life right now, needs to be worthy of yours one day. I think about how God has designed you to fit perfectly to me like a missing puzzle piece. I also know that it’s not time for the puzzle to be completed yet. But until that day, I wonder if you think about me too.