As the world around me wails in the madness that is pain,
As the walls around me shake and threaten to crumple,
As the thoughts of tomorrow sway relentlessly in the mist of uncertainty,
As I selfishly ignore all else and focus on the creaks of my lovely bed,
The bed that knows me and has heard me cry,
The bed that has rocked me to sleep
The bed that has let me dream.
The bed I have come to love,
My bed

My bed that keeps me around from all that’s important,
My bed that doesn’t encourage me to go deal with life,
My bed that allows me watch deadlines go by
My bed that has made me selfish, made me lazy
How did it get to this time where I had to hide myself in the open
A time where my life was to obvious and yet I felt misunderstood,
A time were I settled with what I had because wanting was selfish.
I want to fly off to the desert I find water just because,
I want to live with the dolphins and come out to play only when I’m cheerful
And tomorrow whenever it chooses to come. Will remember today as my liberation day.

Puzzles, Now these I like,
to figure out another's makes me feel wise,
But in the presence of knowledge of life and all that is good,
I have only to know all is well,
my hands are tied,
my mind runs around a closed room,
how can doing nothing be such a task,
the budhists are onto sometime with all that humming,
peace is quietness: a loud silence
a treasure hidden, a puzzle within a puzzle within a puzzle

Trapped in a time before a time before a time before,
Before all I feared in the future was what not how,
Before I had to be strong enough to wake up in darkness.
My déjà vu had got me thinking I was psychic.
Now my thoughts of the future, have got me sick, nostalgic
I am trapped in the now and I cant find comfort in my old ways, for I lost them.

I have failed to live without you, I don’t want to, I don’t know how to.
How can I leave for a slippery path without trends in my shoes
How can I live on when the only places I know have turn dark and cold
I paint my face to disguise my fear everyday I head to battle to survive
And when I lose, I’m alone in my sorrow now robbed solid of my pride
The wins leave me a mess for the only prize I really want is you..

I should fight to get you back, I need you here, I need you now
Come, sit lets just talk for a while, how have you been?
Do you miss me, don’t answer that. I said don’t say a word.
On cue, the air grows thick between us and you start to fade away
My screams are jailed in my mouth, I must be dumb to what’s truth
Of course you can’t be back, Am not strong enough to imagine you.
Tears roll down my cheeks, soak pillow, it’s like going to sleep in reverse.
Another day to fight, another day to try and find some other way to heal.