phie - Hello Poetry

phie May 2017

I'm having chest pains, it's getting harder to breathe
i can't believe i let myself do this to me
stressed beyond belief, i can't handle it
I'm going to explode just like a bursted blood vessel
soon my heart is going to go into cardiac arrest
the beeps on this machine could be a rhythm due to its irregularity
everything gets so bottled up, the pressure is too high
its absolutely terrifying to think that one day we're all gonna die

p.s. if you have chest pains and a shortness of breath those are warning signs of a heart attack so like, you should go get help for that

May 2017

neko

create

create
you spend your life wishing you were something, while surrounding yourself with things others have created
so create something for you
create something for the world
create something beautiful and totally magnificent and don’t let anyone else ever see it
love yourself
because before you know it you’ll be a lifeless shell under the dirt

phie May 2017

you were a daydream

why do i miss someone i never loved
all she ever was to me was a distraction
now it seems like she's more of an affixation
am i just jealous?
envious even?
she has a life
that i just want to be in
i could just chalk it up to lust
but then again she might think the same of me

phie May 2017

the sun's rays are infectious

on sunny days i think
of the taste honeysuckle on your lips
the warmth from the sun illuminating the gold from your hair
the feeling of the wind rushing through your hands
pure bliss and serenity

phie May 2017

my heart beats no longer

i used to feel so alienated and not be able to express myself at all
then i started taking meds and i can't stop
I'm pouring my heart out into my work
soon there will no blood left for my heart to pump
i write about my pain and suffering
letting the blood pool around the bullet wound in my head
too much is gone, to little is left to hold
i feel like i won't have much longer in this palace
with old gothic architecture and a sad gloomy storm
will the sunny days soon come?

phie May 2017

trigger happy

I'm scared
scared of being contained
what would happen if i was caged?
it would be lovely and extravagant
i'd be absolutely spoiled
but maybe i crave the adventure of being free
being able to hurt and love without restraint
i don't know what to do
if i leave will it hurt you?
will you spend your time searching for me in others?
would me leaving pull the trigger
will the trap be set and you be doomed?
you say i make you happy
but we'll see how long that stays true

phie May 2017

but why am i so scared

we're like fire and ice
so passionate but insanely different
we can't be together for long
for im afraid of melting away
the words you say set fires in my soul
down go the frozen walls I've held onto for so long
the only problem i have, is being still in one place
I'm scared you'll leave me just as a puddle