the trees breathe for us, the sun brightens our world
the window leaves a new scene each minute
our mirror images change each glance
our blood flows and lungs expand
bodies get big and small and big and small
the ants crawl at our feet and the birds fly over our heads
we have stardust watching over us at night

is loneliness always this permanent?
a scar that shows its head as the moon rises
never profound, always blurry
weeks become one day, one day stretches into weeks
interacting with others like a child again
relearning how to be human again

the milk expired today
my head aches
2:00 all day in bed
the table adorned in molded cups and jewelry from the days before
plants need watering, body needs watering
alongside my pillow lies my rings and lighter and glasses
eyes heavy and mind clouded
coffee accidentally too sweet

a ghost kisses the inside of my wrists
as i reach toward the sky i feel ribs under my fingers
the moon is lovely tonight and id love to spend more time with her

the morning sun melts the ice
the green on the trees seems a shade lighter
the sky around seems brighter
green has always been my favorite color

as i sit on the balcony of a house that is not my own
i see the passerbys enjoy the warmth of the sun
sheltered from the heat, stuck feeling the chill
i see the cars drive past while my feet sit still
my morning coffee bitter, and my heart cold
it seems as though the breeze has taken hold
the shadows on the side of the house the only mark of me

the almost summer breeze sends shivers through the trees
the greenery too bright for the cold
my heart aches as the weather changes
but change is always meant to come