They play
They joke
They have fun
While i sit just a room away
And cry
And they dont even notice
And no one will ever know
Its all apart of this
This crazy cycle
I get sad
I go some where alone
Let it out (just some of it,dont wanna gwt hysterical)
Then wipe it away
And go right back to the battlefield
Thats all within 5 minutes

"I deserve respect! You dont! You havent earned anything! Im the one who does for you, while you sit on your *** and bark orders spoiled little *****!"
                                     ~mom
Yet she has never lifted a single finger for me
She has done everything for herself
I go without just so my sister has enough
She leaves for weeks at a time
Leaving us without food or anyway to get any food
She pawns her own daughters off to her parents so she can go party and hang with friends
I have to sacrifice
I have to raise my sister
Im the one who cleans and makes sure everything in the house is okay
And i have to care for her when she o.d. or detoxes
Yet im a spoiled ***** and sit on my ***
Says my horrible "mommy"

I found the silver lining
Im no longer dying
Im not even trying
Its just falling into place
With such grace
Now im watching my pace
Keeping it slow
Showing him im not perfect
But worth it
And he knows it
He has see my growth
Me at my worst
Still he smiles at me
And just laughs
The kisses me slowly
And tells me he loves me
He keep me going
Making sure im trying
Instead of crying
He knows i need support
Stability
Love
He knows i need him
Now that can be harmful
Yet at the same time helpful
I love him
And yea he knows that too