They play
They joke
They have fun
While i sit just a room away
And cry
And they dont even notice
And no one will ever know
Its all apart of this
This crazy cycle
I get sad
I go some where alone
Let it out (just some of it,dont wanna gwt hysterical)
Then wipe it away
And go right back to the battlefield
Thats all within 5 minutes

"I deserve respect! You dont! You havent earned anything! Im the one who does for you, while you sit on your *** and bark orders spoiled little *****!"
                                     ~mom
Yet she has never lifted a single finger for me
She has done everything for herself
I go without just so my sister has enough
She leaves for weeks at a time
Leaving us without food or anyway to get any food
She pawns her own daughters off to her parents so she can go party and hang with friends
I have to sacrifice
I have to raise my sister
Im the one who cleans and makes sure everything in the house is okay
And i have to care for her when she o.d. or detoxes
Yet im a spoiled ***** and sit on my ***
Says my horrible "mommy"

Im the one who goes without
Im made to fein
Im made to deal without
I give up what little i have for certain people
But dont i deserve something at all
Just a little something
Nothing big nothing too fancy
Just something
But i just hace everything taking away from me
No one seems to notice
Im the one going without

Sometimes i feel as if
You hate me
Im really sorry that i disappoint sometimes
But i when i try i feel like you push my further away
I wanna be close to you
I wanna be able to have a connection with you
But i dont feel like you feel the same