I'm so tired of being a second choice
Don’t tell me I’m not because that’s what I’m feeling right now Whenever she’s not there you always come and run to me and act like you never left me in the first place
Whenever she’s not there, you now remember my presence; in which you forget the first time we just met
Whenever she’s not around, that's when you come and talk to me and use me as entertainment
I'm not her
I’m not as good as her
I’m not pretty like her
I can’t be her
I'll never be her
You can’t comfort me by saying I’m not
Saying that you really cared for me
Saying that I'll always remember you whenever I left or whatever I just disappeared
Saying you love me even though you really don’t
You can’t comfort me anymore because I know what the truth is, and I really think I’m not worth saving
I’m a second choice
And whenever she’s with us, I’ll always be

im not better, okay?!

im not better!

And i keep waiting for someone to figure that out and they don't!

i mean, of course, they dont 'cause as long as i say the right thing and i act the right way, they're happy

because that means that they cured me right

im done with
all the *******
all the disappointment
all the nights up late crying
all the arguments with my parents
all the **** i get from my parents
all the days and nights crying alone in my room
all the nights cutting
all the nights up late studying
all the ****
i am DONE!

PLEASE
HELP
ME!!!!!!!!!!

At school
she's smart, funny, sarcastic, independent, and amazing
At home
she's worthless, ugly, depressed, broken
and
she has
blood
dripping
and
bruises
scattered
all over her body

I love you

No you don't

I love you

No you don't

I love you

No you don't
(god why)

Yes I do
I love you
You know that

No you don’t
You don’t and I know that

But I do I love you

No you don’t

Yes I do

No you don’t

Yes I do

No you don’t

Yes I do

No you don’t

I do

No you don’t

But I do I love you

No you don’t
You cant and you wont
(why doesn’t he understand)

Yes I do
I love you

No you don’t

I love you

No you don’t

You don’t know what you mean to me

Because you don’t “love” me

Yes I do

No you don’t

Yes I do

No you don’t

Yes I do

No you don't, no one can and no one
will ever "love" me because I'm broken,
stupid, worthless, ugly, useless, shy, naive,
not good enough, a mistake, depressed,
pathetic girl who should have been dead
already and no one will ever "love" me
(god this kid)

Yes I do to me your not broken stupid ugly
or all the things you say you are to me
you are perfect. You are an everything
to me. I want to help you because I
love you and I care about you. I will
always love you. Just let me help you if
your broken then.

Let me help you

No you don’t, that’s what everyone says
and what do they do, they leave, all the
people who have cared about me, left me
except my 3 best friends, and I know you
really don’t, I know that you don’t care
and you  don’t love me, I know that I’m
broken and I’m unfixable
(Im about to have a ******* breakdown right now)

I do care about you just give me a
chance let me help you I won’t leave you
I love you and I want to help you just
give me a chance

No you don’t

Yes I do just please let me help you

No you don’t

Yes I do just let me help

I love you

No you don’t

Yes I do

I want to help just give me a chance

No you don’t

Yes I do

Just let me help

I don’t care if you don’t believe me
Just let me help you

…

Just let me help

…

Let me help

Why should I, you don’t care

Yes I do

Just let me help

No you don’t

Just let me help I don’t care if you
believe me

And you can’t, I’m so broken that you
cant even help
(why doesn’t he understand)

That’s what everyone said about Thomas
Edison when he was making the light bulb
nobody believed he could do it but after
enough time he did it
(seriously....******* thomas edison?, who uses ******* thomas edison?)

Beside you don’t know that if you’ve
never let me try

BECAUSE I’VE BEEN THROUGH THIS
MILLIONS OF TIMES AND EVERY TIME
I TRUST PEOPLE, THEY LEAVE ME AND
LEAVE ME MORE BROKEN THAN BEFORE
(there it is, this is what I was worried about,
I finally broke)

I’m sorry that’s happened to you
But let me help

DON’T YOU ******* GET IT, I CAN’T
(no I can’t, wheres my blade)

You can’t or you don’t want to

(*** stop it, I'm done, yes, i found them.)

Because your afraid I’m gonna leave you
Like everyone else

I ******* CAN’T OK? NO STOP
PRETENDING LIKE YOU FUCKINNG CARE
WHEN YOU DON’T

(AHHHHHHHHH, ****, now it’s too late, I just had to,
thanks to him, I finally did it, now
I should clean up )

Red were the roses, the ones I left on your casket,
Orange were the leaves, the ones in your tree,
Yellow were the bruises, the ones that covered you head-to-toe,
Green were the stains, the ones left on the hems of your jeans,
Blue were your lips, the day you were found in your noose,
Indigo was the night sky, that night that you died,
Violet was that bruise, the one you wore around your neck