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5.4k · Dec 2012
flowers grow
she liked to watch the roses bloom
out by the window in her room
sometimes she felt the world passing her by
but it didn't feel right to sit and cry
even though it was a tough hand she was dealt
she never let it overwhelm her, the way she felt
she found joy listening to the birds sing
in this house she had everything
but sometimes when the night was still
she would wonder how this world could be real
outside her window, outside her door
there was something greater, something more
was this her prison or her haven
the life she had, was it worth saving?
the house smells like medicine, and slow death
there's a struggle in each and every breath
she finds her joys in books and song
puts on a brave face, struggles to be strong
prayers are whispered in her ear
telling her the end is near
and that it's okay to just let go
& find the place where flowers grow
4.7k · Jan 2013
The Farmers Daughter
when he was younger, people called him a fool
and he never made it to high school
his daddy was a hard workin' man
he taught his son how to work the land
from sunrise to sunset
crops rise from blood & sweat
the only thing he could really know
was how to make things grow
until he met a woman that stole his heart
she was the bright light in the dark
she sang pretty songs that he didn't understand
she'd cook and clean while he worked the land
he wanted to learn, she planted the seed
she brought home books, taught him to read
they were happy, but not yet complete
the house was missing the sound of little feet
and storybooks and lullabies
they longed to hear a baby's cries
soon she grew heavy, baby inside
one that would be her father's pride
she grew up in a house full of love
told she could be whatever she dreamed of
we sit here now, graduation day
and i listen to the words she has to say
"my Daddy was a farmer, he loved the way things grew
and he cared for the animals, always knew what to do
he always did everything to make sure his family would survive
my Mama was a dreamer, she kept our hope alive
and gave me wings, taught me to fly
to always give thanks, never question why
and i wouldn't be here right now
if they hadn't always knew somehow
that i was destined to do something more
this is love, it's what family's for"
4.5k · Dec 2012
The Choice
i wonder now what dreams she seeks
i remember baby pink sheets & rosy cheeks
i remember soft cries
looking in her big blue eyes
and my heart had never known that ache
would i ever think this was a mistake
but i was so far from home
15 years old and all alone
no where to go, no way to provide
to the child i had carried inside
i loved her, like i've never loved before
but i wanted her to have so much more
than i could ever give, than i would ever know
how i wish i could've watched her grow
every night i'd lie and weep
wishing i could rock her to sleep
and hold her close, hold her tight
singing lullabies to her through the night
i had to think of her, not just me
give her a future, an opportunity
one day something changed it all
as i sat there waiting for her to call
because she had found me after all these years
i've never felt so much, cried so many tears
when i finally heard my daughters voice
i knew that i made the right choice
because she said "thank you mom"
3.0k · Apr 2013
the child i haven't met
even though i don't know you yet
and i know we've never met
i feel so much love, straight from the heart
and i can't wait for you to be a part
of this family that's wanted you for so long
can't wait to play you a bedtime song
rock you to sleep in waiting arms
do my best to protect you from harms
teach you of the world i want you to know
watch you learn, see you grow
give you all i have to give
and you'll show me how to live
and make each day an adventure
i'll never feel anything as pure
i'll hold your little hand, touch your face
you make the world a more beautiful place
loving you will never be too late
and it will all be worth the wait
to the child i love so much
whose life i can't wait to touch
i may not have carried you
but this love is so true
because you were chosen
3.0k · Nov 2012
Tennis Balls
he waits by the window, everyday
for the little girl to come home and play
she's his favorite, he likes the smell of her
the way she runs her fingers through fur
and talks to him, even if he doesn't understand
she's never rough when giving a command
it's more like a question, a please do this
she tops it with a pat and he gives her a kiss
she lets him sleep in her big warm bed
gives him baths and makes sure he's fed
she listens, even though he doesn't talk
plays ball with him, takes him for a walk
somethings different, it doesn't make sense
no big yellow school bus pulling up at the fence
no little girl with pigtails and a happy smile
maybe he should just wait a little while
same thing happens day after day
why doesn't the little girl come home to play?
and the humans cry, the house is always too dark
and he knows now what its like to have a broken heart
he stops eating, though they all try
he just waits by the window as the days pass by
he doesn't understand how she can be gone
leaving him so desperate, feeling alone
because she was his, his one true friend
and he feels the changes in the wind
and how the world seems empty without her laugh
the roads look scary without her dancing down the path
and every sound makes him bark
when he can't find her hand in the dark
she was right, innocent and she was good
and now tennis ***** don't bounce like they should
2.6k · Nov 2012
near death
i saw them sitting beneath an old tree
and they were waiting there for me
with arms stretched open wide
showing me a place inside
how it was burning against the night
a blinding, brilliant golden light
when they spoke it sounded like a song
and i knew that i didn't really belong
because i was tired, too weak
couldn't find the words to speak
they knew i wasn't ready to return
i still had so much to learn
this life was too short to give up
when i hadn't seen or heard enough
whispers in my ear drift down to my heart
the world around me was falling apart
so gently they guided me home
i knew then i had to carry on
and i felt like i was ripped away
from a place i couldn't stay
so i've made it my life long duty
to always find hope, truth and beauty
and to know there's always more
something to have faith in, fight for
to be the best i possibly can
and someday they will take my hand
i came so close, so near to death
all my dreams were in a breath
i came back fighting, gasping for air
with stars in my pockets, leaves in my hair
beneath an old and ancient tree
a second chance was waiting for me
2.6k · Oct 2012
monsters
in this world... monsters never really sleep
they hide in the dark, the cold, the deep
and they walk among us, faces of men
living off fear and pain, consumed by sin
and they are out there, they wait
fueled by an overwhelming hate
they torture, **** and ****
they lie, hurt and steal
and we close our eyes so we can't see
because you never know who it may be
there's no such thing as a safe place
the seed of evil wears a mask on its face
all the things we fear
are things we refuse to hear
the dark, the cold, the deep
monsters never really sleep
2.5k · Oct 2012
future me
Dear future me,
you really shouldn't worry
I'm gonna learn to slow down, not to hurry
I'm gonna be better than I used to be
and someday be proud of my memory
I will find hope shining bright against the dark
and learn to mend the wounds on my heart
the pain that shaped me, made me who I am
someday it'll make sense & I'll understand
and I will be thankful to the person I become
and I'll never forget where I come from
I will know to always show gratitude
life is how you take it, it's in your attitude
and i hope you look back with a smile
because life only lasts a little while
I'm gonna do my best to deal
with what I need and how I feel
so that I can be the best I'm capable of
be full of faith, truth and love
2.3k · Sep 2013
papa
I hope you've found your peace, your laughter
in a place of no pain, the great ever after
here on earth our tears are shed
but i'm proud of the life you led
how you gave me hope, courage to be
all the things the world should see
the battle you fought was hard, struggle every day
and even though i didn't want to let you go away
it hurt me to see you suffer, and be in pain
memories wash over me, soft like rain
you will always be in my heart, now, forever
in heaven all our loved ones will gather together
they will welcome you with open arms, a smile
but sometimes it feels like we only had a little while
i'm grateful i got to say goodbye
and even when i feel like i'm going to cry
i know you've found that place
where the sun always shines on your face
and music is always in the air
someday we'll all be there
i'm so thankful for you, you taught me so many things
you're in heaven now papa, getting your wings
2.1k · Oct 2012
mirror
she was a fat kid
with bad skin
and glasses
and frizzy hair
always cracking a joke
or burying her nose in a book
to escape
and forget
because this didn't feel
like who she should be
but she didn't know how to change it
so she hid inside herself
refused to let many people know
who she really was
because it didn't matter anyway
it was all about fitting in
and she never really did
i wish i could go back
and hug her
tell her i love her
and not to worry
because this won't matter
in 5 years or in 10
these painful moments
of rejection
of depression
won't last forever
and she will come out
stronger than ever
she shouldn't be so ******* herself
and i still see her sometimes
when i look in the mirror
and it makes me sad
to know how much i let these things
affect me and who i became
always questioning, if i'm good enough
but i think it's gonna make me better
because i've been there before
1.5k · Nov 2012
another poem for ethan
i remember catching fire flies in jars
and playing policeman in the cars
catching grasshoppers even though i was scared
all those special moments we've shared
you bring me such pride, such joy
you will always be my favorite boy
you make me want to be better than i am
and someday you're gonna be an outstanding man
because you're already so wonderful, so great
and it's all been worth the wait
we find hope in raising sons
nerf wars and shooting b.b. guns
funny movies and video games
star wars, you know all the names
and teach me things i'd never know
the greatest gift has been watching you grow
action figures and playing army men
sometimes i wish i had this time again
but you grow up too fast, too soon
you used to think i hung the moon
and now it's me, realizing it's you
roping the stars & hanging the moon
1.5k · Jan 2013
Bullies
they think it's all fun and games
they laugh at her, call her names
spit on her and pull her hair
she just wants somebody to care
she cannot understand why
they push her down and make her cry
is it because she's different, and they're all the same?
she lets the tears fall and hides her head in shame
they see cuts on her arms, call her a freak
and she's too scared to speak
to stand up for herself, she'd be standing alone
she wants to disappear, to just be gone
the house is quiet but the pain is loud
she'll never be part of the popular crowd
and they will torment her day after day
it's time for her to just go away
so she leaves a note on her bedroom door
saying she's sorry she can't do this anymore
she's been thinking for a while, had this carefully planned
a glass of water, empty pill bottles crowding up her nightstand
no one knew that this pain ran so deep
when her only wish was to just go to sleep
ambulance & police lights flashing outside
secrets uncovered, things she tried to hide
were brought to light
as paramedics willed her to fight
they brought her back, felt her beating heart
and she knew this was when the healing would start
because she could never be that girl again
1.5k · Dec 2012
not ready to say goodbye
i will hold you when you are weak
even if i can't find the words to speak
and brush the tears that you may cry
but i'm not ready yet, to say goodbye
you may get sicker, you may lose your hair
but i can promise you i'll be right there
to hold your hand and hug you tight
in the darkness i will be your light
i will love you harder with each day
on my knees each night i'll pray
for more time, because i haven't had enough
you're the one i need, it's you i'll always love
i'll be right by your side through thin and thick
richer or poorer, if you're healthy or sick
because that's what love is, what it means
this lifetime we've shared, each others dreams
and i promise i won't give up on you
and somehow i know we'll make it through
it's so hard not to question why
i'm not ready yet... to say goodbye
1.4k · Oct 2012
this is not a fairy tale
this is not a fairy tale

somewhere in a lonely castle tower
she's weeping past the midnight hour
long golden locks hang down the wall
and she's waiting for her prince to call
and take her from this place
how she longs to see his face
and they will ride off together
& live happily always and forever
she's been a prisoner far too long
he found her by following a song
that only his heart could hear
it was like she whispered in his ear
"save me, if you think I should be free"
never had he been so enchanted by beauty
she needed a hero, it had to be this man
it was then these two formed their plan
and he promised he'd be there
he'd climb the rope made from hair
of his beloved and they would run away
tomorrow would be a brand new day
a brand new life
she would be his wife
he's lying in ice and snow
and she has no way to know
that her prince has fallen from his horse
1.4k · Oct 2012
led to slaughter
like sheep you follow
with eyes so hollow
trusting the word of each other
not to rise against your brother
it's the fellow man
the one with the plan
and you drink it in
time and time again
trusting in words where there's no truth
the sadness of our misled youth
don't you have opinions, your own voice
whatever happened to the beauty of choice
you put all your faith in empty words
and repeat everything you've heard
don't you have a single thought
other than the things you're taught
when you're grouped together, like this
the truth is there, it's hard to miss
and you look like animals being led to slaughter
1.3k · Nov 2012
different
she looks away, hiding the scars on her face
and fears she will never fit in this place
because the children laugh and call her names
the center of their amusement, cruel little games
and her heart is cracking, breaking inside
and she just wants to run and hide
hurt is here, she has plenty
and love is gone, she's left empty
once she was a pretty girl, long hair and smooth skin
but she may never get the chance to be that girl again
the marks left here run so deep
and she can only sit and weep
when people have to look away
no one will talk, no one will stay
she feels like a monster and she feels rage
they see her like an animal in a cage
and she just wishes this wasn't real
all this sorrow and anger she feels
her parents were in the car that night
when a drunk driver ran that red light
and took them both away too soon
she lie bleeding beneath the summer moon
glass cuts deep, leaving scars
and she's trapped between the cars
and her screams don't make a sound
they tell her she's lucky that she was found
they could fix her, make her new
she wishes that could've been true
but now she's here without a friend in the world
and they laugh and mock this sad little girl
for being different
1.3k · Oct 2012
how to forget
nineteen candles on her birthday cake
and she hides the scars, all her mistakes
and the way the knife felt, hidden in hand
she knew that no one would understand
so she carried her secret, heavy and thick
and she knew what it was like to feel sick
the sadness brought her to her knees
black and cold, lost in this disease
her mind hurts, her heart feels dead
she feels so lost inside her head
and there's relief, sweet and fast
if only she could make it last
but with each cut she goes deep
all she wants to do is sleep
and forget she was never enough
1.2k · Oct 2012
a woman's heart
If you look into a woman's heart
what will you find
do all the scars grow
faint over time?
Or will they be rebroken
with each new hurt
No one really values
a woman's true worth
If you could count
a woman's tears
Keep track of the
things she fears
Would you respect her
maybe just a little more
Finally understand
what she was fighting for
Just a sense of belonging
nothing more
If you could see behind
a woman's eyes
Would you see the truths
in the things she hides
1.2k · Oct 2012
watch you burn
blackness, it's all that I see
when you're taking this from me
uninvited, unwanted, trying to say no
it's the beginning and you won't let me go
held down, broken, the pain of being used
never thought it'd be me being abused
this isn't me, it's not my choice
but I can't speak, I have no voice
I'm shocked, lying here bleeding
no sounds, just my heart beating
and you're gone, never looking back
my world crumbles, turns to black
this is me, *****, full of shame
you didn't know me, not even my name
but you thought you had that right?
to make me cry, scream & fight
now there's danger lurking in every place
I find myself always on guard, looking for your face
I hope someday I have my turn
To watch you suffer, watch you burn
1.2k · Jan 2013
June
they make a promise, seal it with a kiss
and know it'll be hard raising a child like this
the doctor comes in explaining options, a choice
and that's when the mother to be finds her voice
and lets him know that the only thing set in stone
is that her child will be wanted and have a home
parents who love her, through and through
who will find miracles in anything she can do
they have big dreams for her, some she won't understand
but they will always be there to guide her, take her hand
the doctor says she will have difficulties, struggles abound
but the parents are firm and stand their ground
a baby is born during a strange summer moon
and her mother decides to call her June
and she grows, somewhat slower than the rest
but her mama knows that she will always love her best
their miracle baby, the one they thought they'd never know
she feels her heart swell each day as she gets to watch her grow
some things are harder, June needs more time
but her parents are patient, never seem to mind
each milestone she reaches they applaud
and give thanks to an ever loving God
for this child who loves so free
beauty and joy is all she can see
sometimes she struggles with thoughts, with a word
but then she laughs and it's the sweetest thing heard
and they know that no matter how hard things get
that their decision is one they'll never regret
there was never any question, right or wrong
because this child was wanted for so long
the answer to their dreams, their prayers
so what if she's different, who really cares
because she is love, she is like a summer moon
this sweet little girl that they call June
1.2k · Oct 2012
untitled
Wherever you go
I'd follow you through time
taste the words on your lips
sweeter than wine
I always find myself
returning to you
And it feels like floating
caught in eyes so blue
sometimes I get lost
feel far from home
but your voice saves me
and I'm not alone
I wish I could give you back
all you've gave to me
but sometimes it's a mystery
these things that I see
I dance around inside your head
leave my fingerprints on your heart
everytime we touch
it's like music or like art
you bring out the best
that I have
1.2k · Oct 2012
i love you best
i made you flowers, the prettiest you've seen
red and yellow, blue, purple and green
made from paper and glue
because they reminded me of you
mama put my teddy bear next to your arm
because he will keep you safe and warm
i wanted to send my night light, in case you were scared
mama said that it was the thought, that she knew i cared
but grandma would find a light brighter than what i had
and i couldn't help the tears that came because i felt so sad
i thought you'd always be there
this isn't right and it isn't fair
oh grandma, why did you have to go?
you won't get to see me grow
but i will carry you in my heart
whisper my secrets in the dark
because i know you'll be watching over me
and when i'm sitting beneath this old tree
beside your grave, i don't cry
it's not my place to question why
but this isn't where you rest
and just remember i love you best
1.2k · Oct 2012
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they shut her eyes, sewed them up
told her the truth was never love
wove dreams in her hair, such pretty little lies
that blossomed into flowers, under summer skies
taught her to walk in the straightest line
and that being obedient would make her fine
to never think, no thoughts of her own
the greatest failure would be being alone
so she steps quiety and quickly, into the night
walking and walking until it's light
free, so free, alive at last
trying to outrun the past
and be who she was meant to be
the girl that they never chose to see
the one with passion in her heart, fire in her soul
all the feelings that made her whole
and she laughs and laughs, her life misspent
and then cries for all it ever meant
she is alone and running, falling, afraid
but never looking back on the decision she made
she is quick and beautiful, never again to be tame
because she knows this, from where she came
1.1k · Oct 2012
continue to fight
in every darkness there's a light
a reason to go on, continue to fight
it's always hope that pulls us through
when we paint the world different shades of blue
sometimes bitter words on the soul can leave a stain
but you can't know love if you've never known pain
you never feel whole until you've been broken
by actions of others or words unspoken
there's no balance to life if you've never known regret
and piecing the puzzle together, why try to forget
that every path you've taken has led you here
and it's a choice to live in happiness or fear
never be a victim to your own circumstances
because life is always full of second chances
new beginnings and new days will come
are you standing in the shadows or out in the sun
this moment, love it with your all
you can rise again, after any fall
in every darkness there's a light
a reason to go on, continue to fight
he knows how to fetch a ball
and always comes when you call
he likes frisbee and dad's old shoe
gets a little nervous around anyone new
he likes to give kisses but he has bad breath
i wanted to send treats but there aren't any left
he was the first best friend i ever had
and i'm trying so hard not to be sad
mom told me angels would take him home
but we were his family, where he belongs
he's not just any old dog, he's smarter than that
the only trouble we had was him chasing the cat
but he would lay with me night after night
and having him near me, the world felt right
the way he'd jump up on me and try to dance
if he thought there was danger, he'd tug at my pants
and he'd listen to me, when no one else would
i'm not so sure if he ever really understood
but he'd lick my face to show that he cared
so i'm holding on to the good times we shared
i know you'll take care of him until we meet again
remember that he's special, he'll be a good friend
a scratch behind the ear will make him feel better
and i sure hope that you get my letter
and i hope that there are milkbones in heaven
1.1k · Oct 2012
sometimes
sometimes the sweetest thing heard
is the way we taste our words
how kindness spreads in all directions
and we can look past imperfections
sometimes the sweetest thing to see
is how life is such a mystery
and you never know how it will go
but it's a choice to wither or grow
sometimes the sweetest thing to feel
is anything and everything that is real
the hope, the fear, the joy, the pain
knowing there's sunlight after the rain
sometimes the sweetest thing to be
is the source of love, truth and beauty
it's in your actions, word and thought
to remember all that you've been taught
and always strive to be better
1.1k · Oct 2012
ghost
he walks, both day and night
always searching for the light
the one he thinks will take him home
he's so tired of being alone
always going in circles, going nowhere
nobody notices, nobody seems to care
holding on to the life he used to know
but he feels it, that it's time to let go
the answer is finally clear
he was wronged here
and he has to forgive
the one who didn't let him live
the troubled man who had a knife
who didn't hesitate to take his life
and steal his wallet and his coat
it all goes black and he starts to float
but he sees the faces, the ones that grieve
and he's afraid, so afraid to leave
years have passed, time has no meaning
it doesn't feel real, what if he's dreaming
so he walks in circles, going nowhere
and nobody notices
nobody cares
1.1k · Oct 2012
like a...
You love me like a river
raging, strong and sure
You love me like a song
so sweet and pure
You love me like a lyric
sung sweetly in my ear
You love me like a summer sky
so blue and clear
And I love you like the sun
burning hot and bright
I love you like the stars
dancing through the night
I love you like the earth
so rich and deep
I love you like a lullaby
drifting off to sleep
1.1k · Nov 2012
the void.
i carry my heart around, heavy and broken
and think of all the things left unspoken
how you'll never get the chance to grow
so much i wanted you to know
and my body felt like an anchor, sinking
time alone, too much time spent thinking
of all the things that could've, should've been
i just wanted that moment, to see you again
never knew sorrow, how a person could be so sad
you were the best thing that i never had
because you were gone before we ever met
the sweet baby that i'll never forget
the one that i carried inside of me
who lies sleeping in my memory
and i'd give up everything i know
to watch you laugh, watch you grow
my soul so wounded and covered in scars
but i imagine you're out there among the stars
and every night i kneel and pray
that there will come a day
when you're back in mama's arms
1.0k · Oct 2012
dusty old bar
this dusty old bar

in a smokey bar, drink after drink
it's gave him a lot of time to think
"play a sad song old man
then maybe i will understand
how this world has gone to hell
maybe someday, time will tell
how i ever wound up here
it's already been a year
since she left me, took all that i had
tell me man, how does love go bad?"
the bartender speaks and it's barely a whisper
"it's not my place to say this but i'll tell you mister
the lady you love didn't go by choice
it was you and the drink that took her voice
going too fast down a dark highway
not listening to anything she had to say
you never even seen the other car
too much time in this old dusty bar"
and the man sits, head in his hands
trying to make sense, trying to understand
he can't remember, it's all a blur
just bits and pieces, memories of her
no sleep since, up all night crying
too much blood, as she lay there dying
but this can't be
it's a false memory
silence is the loudest sound
so he orders another round
and the bartender shakes his head sadly
1.0k · Oct 2012
ashes
they sent ashes to his widow with a letter of apology
told her how brave he was, for serving his country
how quick a sob turned to a wail
for the sweet soldier who had fell
he fought and died for what he felt was right
and left his lady lost in the night
"I promise I won't be away for long,
before you know it, I'll be home."
words echoing through her ears
she feels like drowing in these tears
because he promised, he never lied
she felt betrayed because he died
the laugther, the love, there was plenty
and now she's numb, feeling empty
because this can't be true
she vividly remembers eyes so blue
and a smile that reached the corners of her soul
he made her feel alive, free and whole
she touches her stomach, and knows she must go on
because it's not just her, she's not alone
there's a child coming, any day now
and she has to be strong somehow
for the little one who will also grieve
for a father who isn't here, who had to leave
1.0k · Nov 2012
3 Sisters
i was lost but now i'm found
there was darkness all around
waiting for that endless light
to guide me through the darkest night
feet weary, tired and covered in blisters
from walking, walking to find the sisters
then Hope came and took my hand
and tried to make me understand
that life is about the struggle and the fight
learning the difference between wrong and right
and Faith stepped in and tried to explain
that there is no joy without the pain
that there's no beauty in a tomorrow
if you've never danced with sorrow
and Love was here, she was last
told me that I had to let go of the past
that some things are never meant to be
only when we're open can we see
that life is full of promises and change
sometimes we feel out of place...strange
but we keep pushing through and moving on
learn to rise above, how to be strong
because we were given it from our moment of birth
our freedom, our chance to bless this earth
by the words we speak and the things we share
if we can only find a way to always care
about one another
sisters and brothers
we are all children of something
so much greater
1.0k · Oct 2012
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in the darkness, in the night
she slips quietly, ready to fight
she feels the pain from where she landed
curses the broken wings that left her stranded
into a world that wasn't her own
too far away from the place called home
and she cries until her tears run black
knowing there's never any going back
longing to be a saint, but always the sinner
a hopeful loser, trying to be a winner
but it's cold, so cold where the wind blows
in this land of steal and stone, nothing grows
no hope, no love, no sunny skies
just the fear and pain, dark as her eyes
in the midst of her blackest hour
she finds the promise in a flower
a tiny bud rising up
maybe this will be enough
to give her hope, to get her through
until she can turn the gray skies blue
make grass grow in this land of stone
for this world will be her home
1.0k · Oct 2012
a new chapter
a new chapter

it's in the softness of October skies
that i see my future in your eyes
happiness here, it's everywhere
run your fingers through my hair
and i feel light
soft as the night
and stars burn brighter
when you hold me tighter
this is what i've been waiting for
all i ever wanted and more
you keep me on solid ground
and make the world spin 'round
and you give yourself to me
show me truth, hope and beauty
together, we are starting this new chapter
our life together, building our happily ever after
1000 · Oct 2012
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this road we travel is full of twists, turns and bends
and we find ourselves among lovers, enemies and friends
at times we lose hope, we lose faith
and wonder if anything is worth the wait
and the tears fall, there are plenty
that leave us feeling lost and empty
so when you think it's hard to hold on
just take a deep breath and try to be strong
because this life was a gift to you
and it's your duty to see it through
the skies may crumble, the earth may crack
but you can't get a single moment back
so live it up, all in the now
know that you will make it somehow
there will be joy, there will be pain
there will be sun shining through the heaviest rain
it is hope, it is faith
and everything is worth the wait
994 · Oct 2012
December
December, freezing... even the stars feel cold
spun from the stories he knew, the ones he told
and he can't feel his hands, his feet
and there's a slowness in his heartbeat
but he keeps holding on, praying for the sun
and hoping he won't come undone
but he's lost... in the wild
trying to find his wife and child
but it's so cold, his breath seems to freeze
and he can't walk anymore, he's on his knees
their car broke down, twelves miles back
and the night's too dark, everything turns black
and they wandered off, he heard them talking
and he was in front of them, he just kept walking
trying to find some warmth, some shelter from the snow
and they just seemed to vanish, where did they go?
and he's been walking in circles, for hours now
thinking he will find them, some way, somehow
but his fingers are numb, right down to the bone
and he feels the lights around him, calling him home
there's no time here, just wide & empty space
he feels the tears freezing to his face
and he calls out for them, until his voice goes hoarse
if only he could see their footsteps, track their course
he just wants to close his eyes and sleep
who knew the forest could go this deep?
they stopped to rest by an old tree
and it would be the last thing he would see
his family frozen together, child and mother
at the end they had each other
and so he curls his body around them, says a pray
and hopes that it's over soon and that he will be there
984 · Oct 2012
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she had to be everything to everyone
time to loosen up, have a little fun
up too late, hitting the bottle hard
never should've got in that car
music loud, windows down
just trying to get out of this town
and be someone else, not the girl they all know
the one that's meant to shine, born to glow
and this has been happening for quite some time
how she drinks so often, to ease her mind
and she cries, tears clouding up her vision
not thinking about the outcome of her decision
when she's doing 80 and the night is too dark
she can't hear anything save the breaking of her heart
suddenly lights up ahead
numbness, is she dead?
broken glass, windshield shattered
metal and blood, everything scattered
this can't be real
this sorrow that she feels
when she sees the hand fall away
that will never see another day
this is what it's like to feel alone
when realizes it isn't her own
as she lays there, slowly dying
drifting in and out she hears a baby crying
and uses her last breath to mutter a prayer
that someone will come soon and find him there
she hopes it isn't too late
and that he will be alive & safe
971 · Sep 2013
fruit on the vine
like a moth to the flame
you are drawn to her name
because you see her sparkle, shine
the sweetest fruit on the vine
and her laughter, like a song
wish you could sing along
sometimes she's quiet, still
and you wonder what she would feel
in your world made of glass
where days are quick to pass
and nights seem never ending
so much of life was lost with pretending
but you see the way she dances
never afraid to take those chances
and how her smile is so true and bright
bringing hope to the darkest night
and they fall at her feet
the girl so innocent and sweet
her beauty so fragile, so rare
all because she chose to care
when the world gave up
she always sought love
in the darkest places
in the strangest faces
because it was a gift she had
to find the good beneath the bad
you were afraid of the dark
and all the secrets in your heart
that you lost your glow
in a world where flowers won't grow
and the nights seem so never ending
it gets tiresome always pretending
so find that sparkle, find that shine
and you can be the sweetest
fruit on the vine
923 · Oct 2012
come & sing with me
come and sing with me
tell me truths to set me free
and calm the speeding of my heart
show me the light hidden in the dark
each path we take, in the end we go alone
nothing is solid, nothing set in stone
at any point we can change, we can grow
find the beauty and peace in all we know
but for now i need this, human connection
until i find my way, my ultimate direction
for the friend i need you to be
is the one who finds the good in me
doesn't care if i'm wrong or right
and will walk with me through darkest night
because i would do
the same for you
902 · Oct 2012
hope
she's like a fire burning bright
lighting up the darkest night
she's like the wind, like rain
the joy after the pain
she's softness in a gentle breeze
a song that echoes through the trees
she's the voice in a time of fear
the shining light when the end is near
she's the sun, the moon and stars
to get to her you've earned a few scars
she's beauty, she's truth
an afterthought of your youth
she's the one we hold so dear
with each prayer, each tear
she's the one that leads the way
and gets us through another day
she gives us strength, gives us faith
helps us realize it's all worth the wait
she... is hope.
897 · May 2014
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you could almost see
ink flowing through her veins
and how she spread her words
across her heart
waiting for someone to
read them
and she may have been
complicated
but she had such
simple needs
but no one took her
seriously
and she let things
hurt far more than they should
because she truly cared about
people. everyone. everything
because it felt right to her
and she had no idea
how to be anything else
because sometimes she
wished she could
but if you were to pick apart
all these little pieces
and how memories always stain
then maybe you could
see something
special there
882 · Oct 2012
the boy who sleeps
He promised her the sun
Promised her the moon
Because she was his only one
He never meant to leave so soon
He said she was his whole life
And she'd always have his heart
He wanted her to be his wife
He knew this from the start
In his arms he'd hold her tight
Whisper words so sweet
He'd watch her sleeping through the night
Listen to her heart beat
She never knew a love like this
So real and so sure
Magic in each and every kiss
All that she was waiting for
But life isn't always so kind
Not everything meant to be
And she would soon find
A life she didn't want to see
On a night so dark and cold
Even the angels wept
So many things left untold
To the boy who slept
Because he was her whole world
She promised him the moon
Something broke inside the girl
When death came too soon
Now her tears are plenty
She's lost her smile
It hurts to be so empty
She only had him a little while
She's sure she heard the angels weeping
Heard her own heart break
And now he's gone and sleeping
It feels like more than she can take
880 · Nov 2012
didn't save you
somehow the pieces never really fit
you said you were done, over it
and we drank together, that last night
you said you were just too tired to fight
but you laughed after a sad smile
i tried to get you to hang around for a while
but i should've tried harder, done better
you told me not to worry in the letter
i didn't know the sadness was that deep
that you were heading off to an eternal sleep
your words start running together at the end
when you told me i was your only friend
and that hurt so much, knowing i didn't save you
never really saw just how much you were going through
when you were laughing the loudest and the longest
between the two of us, i thought you the strongest
because it was always you pulling me back
when the world would grow so cold and black
it was your voice, singing a simple word
it was the purest, sweetest thing i heard
i'm sorry that i was so weak
that i couldn't stop to speak
and bring you out of the dark
your memories leave holes in my heart
if i could have those moments again
i'd try harder to save my sweetest friend
878 · Oct 2012
angels weep
i've seen her beaten and broken
tears fall and words unspoken
each day hiding new cuts and bruises
always ready with a list of excuses
they've taught her well
her home became her hell
it doesn't get better, no way out
she listens to them scream and shout
and fists fly, stings against her skin
they say it's because she's full of sin
in school we all cast down our eyes, turned our heads
but thought of her while we were tucked warm in our beds
this sad hand that life had dealt
and no one knew just how she felt
and we all tried to pretend it away
what could we do, what could we say?
we seen it happen over and over again
but times were different then
a man's family was his own, his possesions
and no one would even think to question
why this little girl was always so sad, so scared
& hoping that maybe someone out there cared
when they found her black and blue
it was like we were waiting, we already knew
that help never came and she was gone
that sweet little girl who was left alone
i wonder now if the angels weep
for the child who sleeps?
862 · Oct 2012
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in the dark, in the deep
where she doesn't sleep
she smiles a smile that's just a mask
hiding all the questions she's afraid to ask
because life was too dangerous, too cold
always too fragile for her to hold
there were monsters among men
always about, inviting her in
but she was too afraid
too many mistakes already made
and that was what landed her here
in a place built upon fear
tears and regret made up the walls
bones for the floors, blood for halls
all that's left is loneliness and doubt
she gave up on ever getting out
853 · Aug 2013
for my daughter & son
never be afraid of the unknowns in life
you will find glory and you will find strife
and it may shape you but don't let it change
never let the world make you feel like you're strange
you are perfect from head to toes
how i got so lucky, God only knows
so when you're rambunctious and a little too loud
i may seem overwhelmed but remember that i'm proud
amongst the fighting, the yelling, the messing
i know my children are my greatest blessing
there would be no me without you
so remember that no matter what you do
i'll be there to guide you along
try to teach you right from wrong
hold your hand, teach you prayer
in life we should love and share
take care of each other, our family
my children bring out the best in me
i think of how much i would miss
you give me meaning in all of this
i'm sorry for days when i seem stressed
because i know i'm truly blessed
crayon art on the walls
fingerprints trailing down the halls
through laughter and tears
i'm grateful for these years
and i know without doubt that i'm the lucky one
looking into the eyes of my daughter and son
848 · Nov 2012
waiting (cemetery flowers)
I was floating across an endless sea
waiting for you, to come to me
and save me from waters so deep
i'm tired and just want to sleep
in your arms, ones that know me well
arms that caught me every time i fell
i was waiting on some saving grace
and the moment when i could see your face
no one told me life was going to be this way
but i continue to go on, each and every day
and wait for that moment, when i'm awake
when tears don't fall and my heart doesn't break
when the clouds part and i can find your smile
and ask you to stay with me for a little while
dreams left me empty, wishes don't come true
or i wouldn't be here alone & missing you
not knowing the point, the hope in a tomorrow
and i sit and fill my pockets full of sorrow
and cry for love that's left me lonely
when you were my one and only
and i would've never given up
we'd be drinking from a golden cup
and singing songs that never end
throwing whispers in the wind
but you weren't as strong
to stay here and sing this song
the one that leaves me hollow
tempted, so tempted to follow
into the darkness that devours
behind the earth & cemetery flowers
i'll be floating across an endless sea
waiting for you, to come to me
842 · Nov 2012
another poem for carly
she's driving me crazy, this kid
doing things i never did
big blue eyes and messy curls
oh the joys of little girls
one minute she's the boss, so demanding
then she finds patience, soft and understanding
she sing songs to the birds
making up her own words
tea parties with mr. bear
sticking candy in dolls hair
bed time stories after glitter baths
but i melt every time she laughs
she holds my hand, doesn't want to let go
and tells me stories that have no end
tells me i'm her absolute best friend
there's so much i want her to know
that there's nothing that she can't do
i wish for all her dreams to come true
and i know i'd give her the world
this sweetness, this light, my little girl
837 · Aug 2013
white wings
i never thought i'd come back
found my wings painted black
memories cut deep, stitch 'em up
and we'll drink from this broken cup
we find laughter in the darkness, the deep
because there's no reason, no time to sleep
when the world is heavy, crashing down
i'll sit here with my broken crown
and take in the scene
doesn't matter what it may mean
it's the destruction, the madness
how i'm always drawn to sadness
trying to fix the world
when i was just a simple girl
with ink on my hands, stained fingertips
felt words & wine hanging on my lips
how i'd cry for my sisters and brothers
hope lost here, the pain in others
and i felt it so deep, my heart full of scars
that i'd take a breath & count the stars
and wish for a moment, just a moment of calm
the seed of hope so small it was lost in my palm
i find myself draw to the poet, the giver
and i find myself down at the river
wanna wash away my sins
know that this is where it begins
as i weep softly into the night
i will stay here till my wings are white
833 · Mar 2013
bus stop betty
they call her bus stop Betty, don't mind the bags
the matted hair and how her clothes are in rags
she smiles with missing teeth
shows you the shoes on her feet
covered in holes, one missing a heel
"it don't matter, it's how I feel
when the clouds come rolling by
i know i ain't got a reason to cry
because God been good to me
he ain't done, this ain't who i'm gonna be"
whatever she has she's willing to share
as she folds her hands in prayer
gives thanks for a life many would pity
but she sees real beauty, knows what's pretty
she sees past the violence, the crime
there's so much more than dirt and grime
that makes up this woman, she's hiding wings
i feel the faith every time she sings
and when i see her weep
i know it just goes so deep
beyond what i could understand
and how she fits here in this land
i buy her breakfast, we become friends
we talk about beginnings, about ends
how life is one great circle, constantly spinning
i see her watching me, she's grinning
and it's in those dark brown eyes, that toothless smile
that makes me realize it's all worth while
and that there's a life greater than I'm living
the purpose here is loving... and giving
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