You finally get to sit down
You sigh
“Another long day has passed”
You look around
Toys on the floor
Clothes everywhere
You slowly drift off into a deep sleep
The sound of your angels laughing fills your ears
Little voices whisper “Mommy”
You remember the day they were born
The first step
First word
Their footsteps patterning in the distance
The smell of breakfast wavers in the air
Both of your angels tap on your leg
“Happy mother’s day, mommy”
You open your eyes with a grin covering your face
“Thank you Jesus.”

When I finally get to take a breath,
will I make it?
The darkness I see feels like death,
the sky is barely lit.
Is this the end?
Nope, just the beginning.
All the voices in my head,
I’m losing yet, they are winning.
I look up to find the light,
the brightness is fading away.
The darkness is covering my sight,
the voices want me to stay.
I’m trying to push through.
I am handcuffed down,
there is nothing I can do.

When I finally get to sit down and breath
I feel like I made it
Nope
It’s just the beginning
The little light that’s guiding my way
Is getting harder and harder to see
The blackness darkness is covering my view
I try to push my way through
Running towards the light
Like a child running towards her arms, he stops
Playing with every toy
Like me
On my towards the light
I get distracted
I trip over every stump
I get up with blood on my leg
I continue running
The faster and longer I run
I want to give up
Like a marathon
I run longer and longer
Trying to catch my breath
I pray for strength
I pray for it to be over
I can win this
I can do it
I ran more
I slowed down to walk
I felt sick
Weak
No
I can do this
I need to continue
I ran
I fell
Again
The stump
Now a rock
Blood on my arm
I got up and ran
Where am I going
The light is dim
I hear noises
Nobody is around
They are in my head
Demons
I ran faster
My strength is almost gone
The voices are flooding my mind
A demon jumps on me
Pulling him off
Running faster
His claws are in my back
Great, more blood
I feel more
Another rock
One demon
Two demons
I’m gone
I slowly look up
...Where’s the light?