Once upon a time,
God presented you to me
when life seemed so meaningless
without true love.
There you were,
with eyes so gentle
as the breeze
that came with each touch
of your hand to mine.

Within these eyes
you would gaze so deeply,
as though you were peering
directly into my soul.
Each time, this gaze would draw
me deeper into yours,
while allowing my heart to open up
to the one thing that has been missing
for such a long time

This one thing is defined
simply as a soul mate.
You touched me,
understood me, loved me,
unlike any other man has
ever been able to do.
These three things alone were the answer
to my long unanswered prayers.

You were my reflection
staring back at me in the mirror.
You could read my thoughts,
unlike another.
You treated me like a queen,
and I treated you like a king,
a match made only in Heaven.

We gave each other direction,
support, and attention;
qualities lacking forever it seems,
but which came so easily for us
because of our true
addiction to each other.
The want and need to feel complete
was met in all actions of our devotion
and commitment to each other.

When this kind of love finds you
never let it go.
For one day, you may find yourself
making the same mistakes as before;
when right there in front of you
stood perfection of true love
staring you in the face.

Love is a gamble indeed,
but finding a soul mate is
only one chance provided to thee
in our lifetime.
Embrace this chance, cherish it,
and embellish the true euphoria
it provides to you.

The connection with a soul mate is eternal;
however, sometimes life will
present challenges which
may try to undermine
the bond between you.
The temptations or desires
of human nature
can be strong enough at times
to cause a change in the
balance of this uniformity.

A period of self-discovery
may be needed
to strengthen the fears
fueled by past hurt.
This hurt can cause
so many doubts within oneself,
especially in the belief
that someone so amazing
can actually be a lifetime partner;
that what is actually happening
is one’s dreams coming true.

Most importantly remember,
this connection is greater than
anything in this natural world,
including any negativity
towards its existence.
It survives through
good times and bad times;
it prevails over
even the toughest challenges,
because by its power alone,
these two souls will remain
intertwined forever in their
earthly and spiritual existences.

Though our time was short
this first time,
through faith alone,
we will find each other
in one another’s grasp again.
The pull we have toward each other,
will be stronger than before.
All doubts and fears will be gone;
everything will appear
and feel as it should.

Two soul mates brought together by fate,
briefly separated by chance,
yet always yearning for each other.
These same two soul mates,
one day finding their way back to the path
that they had once been traveling together.
Soul mates putting everything back into place,
as it was meant and destined to be.....

Vicki A. Zinn

April 20, 2012

Did you ever just sit and wonder,
how someone you barely know,
could impact your life so much,
in such a short amount of time?
How they could so quickly turn a
frown upside down?  
How they were able to relight
a fire that burnt out
some time ago?

What is so special about them,
that they were able to get past
the walls surrounding your heart,
as well as, being able to
totally invade your thoughts?
The biggest question is how you could
trust another person, as easily as,
you trusted them?
Trusted them, even after you swore to yourself
that you would never, ever, be able to trust another,
after all the hurt and disappointment.

I have, and I do know that,
from the moment I met you,
I could feel safe in sharing
my most intimate thoughts.
I could share with you
my dreams and aspirations.
I could share with you
my hopes and fears.
Most importantly, I could
allow you to walk around
in my head, and in my heart,

So, now that you are gone,
why do I cherish
memories of you, so much?
Why am I left feeling
that I am only a distant
thought in your mind?
What more can I do to prove to you
that I am not someone who just speaks,
but also proves, by my actions?

Do you realize that I think of you often,
without truly understanding why?
Asking myself constantly,
why can't I just have you?
But, I know that, deep down in my soul,
I do not truly want you
when you have such doubts.
I want you free of any
fears and ambiguities.

Maybe the real, and most important question,
of why we were destined to meet,
will never truly be answered.
But, I do know that, regardless if,
I ever receive any answers,
I will never regret
the brief time I spent with you,
in the making of these questions.


Vicki A. Zinn
2011

Sometimes life presents challenges,
which at the time may seem small,
but instead, appear insurmountable.
Finding true love is one of the hardest
tasks that humankind, as a whole, faces.

Many see love as pure fantasy,
reciprocal, requited, and unconditional,
as true love is meant to be.
This kind of love brings contentment,
and internal peace, which can be unlike
any euphoria you have ever felt.

This love intoxicates and exhilarates.
It will lift you higher
than the tallest mountain,
and make you feel fuller
than the deepest ocean.
This love will make you feel whole,
and complete, with the
joining together of two lost,
lonely souls, once wondering adrift.
in an union that fulfills.

But, for a select few, this ideal of fantasy is
more of a reality filled with heartache.
That same reality can bring us to our knees,
and the pain alone can smother us,
to the point of not being able to breathe.
Then comes the constant cycle of hurt,
emptiness,  and anger, which draws us back
to the source which has caused such emotion.
It leaves us begging for the pain to stop;
sometimes making us yearn, to once again, be with
the one who has caused us to feel such turmoil.

It is an addiction unlike any other,
caused by the fear of being alone
and starting anew.
We now find ourselves
sacrificing our own self,
to maintain a sense of familiarity and safeness.
Not realizing, but instead blinded by memories,
that this reality is showing us that it
was just not meant to be.

It takes time to mend a broken heart;
time on our own,  to discover our true self-worth;
time to realize that love will find us again.
We will encounter a struggle, unlike another,
to overcome our fears of distrust and vulnerability.
Many lessons will be learnt, along the way.
But, with strength and perseverance,
all of the time spent healing,
will open our heart to a brand new beginning, one day.

First, we must realize, that deep within our own self
lies the ashes of our once brilliantly burning heart.
Only with time, will our pain become manageable.
Yet, we will always wear
the scars of a love gone bad,
as an embattled soldier wears his own, from a war lost.
But, choosing to not allow this to consume oneself,
is a true challenge, in itself.

In the end, deciding when we have had enough,
is what will allow the reopening of our heart.
We must learn, to not allow the pain to truly hide
the one thing that lies right in front of us – opportunity.
Sometimes this opportunity,
is a new love, that is more fitting than the last.
A new love, one that will ease
the loneliness that
envelopes us like a blanket;
a new start with someone who can
love, respect, cherish,
and adore us,
more than any ghost of our past.

We all have the power to turn
our reality into fantasy.
However, never lose sight,
that even true love is not perfect,
and neither are we.
We all make mistakes; we will disappoint.
Not all of us will possess the means, or desire,
to hurt another on purpose.

It is the search for a soul, that mirrors our own,
which will be the hardest struggle.
This struggle can be won with one true fact -
not all people are alike.
Once we open our mind, and our heart, to this,
all fears and inhibitions will melt away,
as the sun melts the snow, in early Spring.

With this sign of rebirth,
our new love will be unlike
all we have experienced before.
But, we must never allow our past
to dictate our present,
which will ultimately decide our future.
We must find that power within ourselves,
to overcome the reality,
by embracing, and enjoying,
the new adventure, and path,
we are about to undertake.


Vicki A. Zinn

February 2011

You have fallen once again.
Little do you know, nor realize,
that when you reach out your hands
to find support to lift yourself back up,
it is actually my hands
pulling you to your feet.

  I exist mainly in your thoughts.
  Someone who has touched your life,
  with my kind words and gestures.
  I have laughed with you;
  I have cried with you.
  I am the one whom you have shared
  your life with - your thoughts,
  your hopes,  your dreams,  your desires.
  I have been there with you,
  through your most joyful times,
  as well as, your darkest.

Most refer to me as a true friend.
Those who really know, call me an Earth Angel -
a guardian sent from Heaven,
with a soul as gentle as the breeze,          
 which dances through your hair.    
 One who places you in high regard,          
 and cherishes you deeply.                
 An Angel who thinks of you often,            
 cares for you, worries about you.
 One who will never forget you.              

Forever know this Angel is        
closely watching over you.          
My eternal presence surrounds you,
always waiting for the time
I am needed the most.  
Trust that I will never
fail you,  as my place is by your side.
Find solace in my words and actions,
as they guide you on whatever
path you choose to follow.  
I am there with you, always….

Vicki A. Zinn
2012

Once upon a time,
God presented me to you.
My purpose was to
lift your spirits;
to show you that life can be
all that you have hoped for,
dreamt of, and,
most importantly, deserve.

You feel you are not ready
to accept the gifts I am
ready to give you.  
But, your decision
has not changed
what I feel deep within.
That one of my desires
is to not give up hope,
and faith, in you.

Scared as you may feel,
it is as understandable,
as it is believable,
that regardless of your fears,
and the darkness of uncertainty
that surrounds you,
a light flickers dimly in the distance.

When the day comes
that you begin to put
the demons of the past behind you,
you will clearly see
that the battle to find
peace and happiness
becomes easier each day.

That once distant light
may not seem as far away
as it used to be.    
You will actually understand,
that this light has been patiently
with you the entire time, it presence
only clouded by your fears.

This light is the key
to my mind, and to my heart.
I have never felt so strongly,
as I feel right now,
that you have been
brought into my life
for not only a reason,
but for a lifetime.

If one day you decide,
to accept this key
that has been presented to you,
I can assure you
that all of your doubts will diminish
when my heart gently beats
against yours, and the gaze
of our eyes meet again.

With these elements alone,
you will not only see, but feel,
that the soul you have been
so longingly searching for,
has always been there,
within your reach,
the entire time.


Vicki A. Zinn
2010

Once upon a lifetime, it seems,
God presented you to me
at one of my lowest times.
I felt like I did not deserve you,
that you were too good to be with
a damaged soul such as myself.
I realize how seriously mistaken I was.

It has taken me many years
to become the woman I am today.
Years of realization that what I give
is what I should expect to receive.
But now, it is too late to say that
I am sorry for the biggest mistake
I have made in quite some time.

You have moved on,
and I am now stuck
in thoughts of what could have been.
Thoughts of how it would feel
to be in your arms again,
to comfort me in my weakest moments.
Thoughts of your lips pressed to mine,
to show me how me how much I mean to you.
Thoughts of our eyes gazing into each other’s,
to subtlety profess your deepest adoration for me.  

What a fool I was
to let you slip away so easily.
Now I am left with the memories
of our brief time together.
I am now left with the "what if’s."
If only I had chosen differently.

I do not know how to move past this.
Will I ever be able to fully let you go?
Despite all of the questions that overwhelm me
about the past, I just know that
you will remain in my heart, always.  
If one day our paths happen to cross again,
I will definitely choose differently.  

Vicki A. Zinn

2010

The fire that once burnt
so brightly in me
has since diminished
to a mere flicker.
I have lost my way
along this journey
that is called life.

I reach out to
you for comfort,
to pick me up,
as I have once again fallen;
wanting you to wrap
your arms around me,
and hold me,
until my sobbing has stopped.

Wanting you to
lift my face,
look deeply into my eyes,
with care and concern.
Your gaze assuring me
that what I am feeling
will soon be
a distant memory.

Your embrace is so tight,
that I feel nothing  
but security in your arms.
The world now stands still,  
if not only for a minute,
because you have shown
how much I truly mean to you.

No words are needed to be said.
Because, just by a single touch,
which means everything to me,
you have shown me
that you believe in me,
and always will.
This knowledge is all
I really wanted.  

Nothing means more to me
than the power of friendship.
With this tool,
I will find my way back.
Have faith in me,
never give up on me,
even when I say that I have.
I can always rely on
you to remind me
that the world would
miss my smiling face,
my kind, loving,
and kindred spirit.  

Sorrow has ruled
my life for so long,
that I have known
no other path.
But, with your guidance,
I will find my way again.
When I do, that flicker
will once again become
a flame that burns
more radiant than
it ever has before.

Vicki A. Zinn
2009