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364 · Oct 2014
thought 8,621 :
arubybluebird Oct 2014
maybe I'm not sad
maybe I'm just bored
maybe I'm not bored
maybe I'm just tired
363 · Jul 2015
Untitled
arubybluebird Jul 2015
I've never known what it feels like
To be loved by a man
Yet you've loved me all along
362 · Oct 2014
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arubybluebird Oct 2014
standing lovers
sitting down
less human
more being
362 · Jul 2017
Let me lift you up.
arubybluebird Jul 2017
Let me love you back to life again.
360 · Feb 2016
Nova Baby
arubybluebird Feb 2016
I’m sorry I couldn’t figure out what I wanted
I’m sorry I wasn’t good to you
I’m sorry I could never be good for you
I never properly apologized
I know it doesn’t mean much now, but I’m sorry
360 · Jan 2014
- - -
arubybluebird Jan 2014
The sea is mimicking my loneliness.
I offer myself to the sea.
359 · Nov 2014
Before Today
arubybluebird Nov 2014
I wouldn’t mind dying while listening to The Dodos. It’d be a lovely way to die. It still rattles my mind a bit, the assurance of my image one day being but a photograph left behind. I want my words to make a stranger feel something inexplicable, decades from now, centuries after my death. Perhaps from reading a particular line from one of my collected books of poetry, perhaps from reading a folded note I left hidden between the pages of one of my favourite books at a public library. I hope libraries still exist far into the future. It worries me that record stores might someday cease to exist. I think I worry for all the wrong reasons, and find meaning in things that have none. I think about death too much. There’s just as much sadness as there is well-being. It’s all around us, on our evening walks home from school, in the stillness of gaps between shifts of dreams, in the gestures of communal passerby’s. It’s all so simple and complex and beautiful and overwhelming. I think losing yourself in thought is one of the most intimate ways in finding yourself.
I think, I think, I think.
358 · Oct 2017
Un Pacto:
arubybluebird Oct 2017
Que la boca no hable por mi.
   Que mis ojos lo digan todo.
357 · Nov 2017
Abundancia
arubybluebird Nov 2017
And all I'm left with is nothing.
Nothing is what you've left me with.
356 · Jul 2013
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arubybluebird Jul 2013
the night is dull
my hair is damp
there are bruises on my knees
your photograph still lovely on my wall
you told be to be calm
my mind is a storm
every poem I've ever written scattered on the ground
it makes me sad
the mess I've made of us
355 · Mar 2020
Untitled
arubybluebird Mar 2020
Does time change us
Or do we change time?
I am still what I was yesterday
And tomorrow
Will never be the same
354 · Aug 2017
You
arubybluebird Aug 2017
You
You hurt for me
You hurt with me
And you weep.

Compassion.

I hurt for You
I hurt with you
And I weep.

Your heart overflowed in mine.
I am eternally moved and indebted to Your love.
352 · Jul 2013
strange fruit .
arubybluebird Jul 2013
last night I dreamt that we were in-love
then I woke up and it was only half-true.
there is this boy, he's never met me and he is in-love with me.
there is this boy, I've never met him and I am in-love with him.
perhaps our fault is throwing around love more than the word itself.
people are stranger than fruit.
arubybluebird Jul 2017
I was afraid I'd lose you in a dream.
350 · Jun 2014
m i m i c r y
arubybluebird Jun 2014
Beloved I know
I am nothing special in your eyes
But you see
This is the first time
I write a poem on a napkin
And it's all because of you
350 · Mar 2016
Possibilities
arubybluebird Mar 2016
In another universe, we've already been in love with each other for a very long time. In another universe, you've always been my best friend.
I love you from a universe away
349 · Feb 2016
Last note for J
arubybluebird Feb 2016
You were there for me when I still didn't know that I needed you
You were there for me, but I still didn't know that I needed you
You'd be here for me right now if it weren't for me
The realization of this ruins me, and I deserve it
I wish my memories of you were written in pencil
And not etched in stone
349 · Oct 2013
something for myself .
arubybluebird Oct 2013
with your book
full of lies
and your eyes
filled with tales
sad autumn stories to tell
soft stormy weather to feel

don't fool me in
let me be
a golden thread I spin
Jeremiah, dance with me
347 · Mar 2016
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arubybluebird Mar 2016
Looking back at conversations we once had
Still unsettles me
And causes me a bit of pain
344 · Nov 2013
1.
arubybluebird Nov 2013
1.
I'm
in love
with the sound
coming out of your mouth
when you say
*I
love
you
344 · Dec 2014
Do It Right
arubybluebird Dec 2014
I need you to try
I need you to cry
I need you to die a little
For me
335 · Apr 2014
001.
arubybluebird Apr 2014
the trick is to keep breathing.
335 · Jun 2017
first love letter
arubybluebird Jun 2017
sometimes it's scary to consider
that I'm almost twenty-five years old
and I'm not sure if I've ever
truly been in love
335 · Dec 2017
You
arubybluebird Dec 2017
You
I hope to always be full
But I hope to never be satisfied
I hope to always want more of You
More of You
More of You
329 · Jul 2013
noise floor .
arubybluebird Jul 2013
I'm searching for the words
I cannot find within myself
Throughout the sentences of others
I'm searching for the words
That will mean enough to you
To consider the thought of me
In your mind, in your heart
Because
              I'm aching
                I miss you
                  I love you
              I'm broken
                   I need you
             I'm nothing
             Without you
Has never been and
Will never seem
To be enough
329 · Sep 2019
Untitled
arubybluebird Sep 2019
Don't **** up don't **** up don't **** up don't **** up.

  Please don't **** up on me.
  I like you so much. ****.
326 · Oct 2013
. . .
arubybluebird Oct 2013
you live within the empty spaces of my body
322 · Oct 2017
As You Come Closer,
arubybluebird Oct 2017
I hope that the tender look in my eyes
Draws you away.
arubybluebird Nov 2017
How does it feel
To kiss me without commitment?
And is that what this is?
Take and leave
As you choose
Is my heart really up to you?
There was love once
Inside of this house
The walls embraced it
Have they forgotten?
Will you remember?
That is was you
All these years
316 · Dec 2017
Untitled
arubybluebird Dec 2017
Sometimes I don't know
If I should smile about you
Or cry about you.

Miss me too
Like me too
Want me too
Love me too.
313 · Jul 2017
Tell Me
arubybluebird Jul 2017
Tell me that you hate that I'm leaving.
Tell me that it's tearing you apart.
310 · Dec 2017
Untitled
arubybluebird Dec 2017
The world is vastly infinite
I am not
And I am thankful
306 · Nov 2014
little wings
arubybluebird Nov 2014
it is difficult to sleep at night
knowing your heart is not in the same room as mine
301 · Jul 2017
Sugar for the Pill
arubybluebird Jul 2017
I want to lie down on soft grass underneath the night
and listen to Slowdive until I feel better
296 · Aug 2019
Puta tristeza.
arubybluebird Aug 2019
There, that's the poem.
295 · Mar 2020
Untitled
arubybluebird Mar 2020
today i decided
you're no longer the love of my life
and i felt free
291 · Aug 2017
Clem,
arubybluebird Aug 2017
Can you remember anything without me?
Everything before I met you seems of secondary meaning. It's you and onward. You are the marking point of every day that's mattered in my life.
287 · Aug 2017
I like dancing to cumbias
282 · Nov 2017
Dear Friend,
arubybluebird Nov 2017
One day our bodies will lose its breath,
and I am happy to have met you.
arubybluebird Oct 2017
Simply make them fall in love with you.
281 · Jul 2013
mer /
arubybluebird Jul 2013
I want to drink the tears you cry .
I want your beautiful emotions to live
if even for just a moment
inside of me .
281 · Oct 2013
death is a letter
arubybluebird Oct 2013
that was never sent.
277 · Mar 2020
Untitled
arubybluebird Mar 2020
i want to love you
with my mouth open
i want to love you
without words
271 · Mar 2018
Untitled
arubybluebird Mar 2018
I held onto nothing
Because I wanted so badly
For there to be something
270 · Feb 2020
Untitled
arubybluebird Feb 2020
God truly raises the bar high for how I should love and be loved
269 · Sep 2017
Fulfillment
arubybluebird Sep 2017
To Live as my Father has lived
To Love as my Father has loved
To weep as my Father has wept
To die as my Father has died
266 · Aug 2017
But love,
arubybluebird Aug 2017
I'd make tea for two
I'd make tea for you
Without asking me to
I'd offer to, for you
For you
For you.
This is what I meant when I said "Hector," and you said "Yes?" and I said "Nothing."
263 · Aug 2019
Uncertain
arubybluebird Aug 2019
The future is so uncertain
i don't know if you'll go on
to love me, grow fond of me and
embrace me for all that i am
and if you do
go on to do any
or all of these things, i don't know
for how long
Time, too, is so uncertain

and in all
of this uncertainty
i am certain
that i want it
to be You

my certain comrade
my certain love
in whatever way
in however many days
Time decides

It is You, You, You
that i am certain of.
257 · Apr 2014
Untitled
arubybluebird Apr 2014
Our generation in retrospect: LOL (but it's not funny.)
250 · Aug 2017
RMS
arubybluebird Aug 2017
RMS
I want to be the best me for you.
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