I always say no and can usually resist,
But you somehow change my mind.
Even though my heart knows it's wrong...
You make it feel so right.

The feel of your fingers through my hair
Sends chills up and down my spine.
You can't hide the satisfaction you feel
When you say, "You'll always be mine."

The strange thing is that I know it's true.
You're the worst addiction I've had.
And even though addictions can't be good...
I never feel too bad.

So I'll take a breath and take a risk
Hoping we'll become more than friends.
But I know that after you have everything of mine...
You'll still be hers in the end.

Listening to the rain**
Listening to the rain pitter patter on my door steps
I can feel each droplet disperse and become one with the earth.
each rain drop falling so gently and innocently as it rushes through the grass and into the innocent soil. I hear a car passing
as the tires brushes the rain against the cement that had been pattering from the rain.
Still silent, as I listen to the noise that may come in between this moment of beauty.
Another car passes with the same rusty red look that the other car had.
The rain brushed against the tires as if duck tape was being peeled off of the ground.
Sitting in silence listening to the lost droplets falling gently, and empty.
I can almost taste the sound of the rain.
as it pitter patters on the concrete,  as though if it were falling onto a tin can.
Empty,
pure,
at peace,
as I listen to the rain pitter patter.

i saw you with her
my heart shattered,
just when it was being fixed
i saw the way you looked at her
her eyes were full of joy
i saw the way you held her hand
you didn't want to let go
i saw the way you talked to her
as if you wanted to spend all your time with her
i saw the way you kissed her
like it would be your last day seeing her

i saw

-j